The Crush Of Love
village home
“Alright, but if you renege on what you said earlier then I'll be mad big”
“Yes, Sya”
***
It did not feel like the day was getting late, I forgot that I had not been willing to go outside to my parents.
“Ka, go home yuk. Afraid to find mom. It was not yet permission to exit”
“Ya let's go”
As usual along the way, Randika hummed singing some romantic songs that always made my heart pound.
“Ka” I said while patting his shoulder
“What's up?”
“Do not go, do not change”
“What the hell, Sya. Changed what? I won't turn into a werewolf anyway, just calm down
“Don't stay with me alone ya”
“Who lives you, from earlier you were also on my motorbike. I didn't go down by the roadside”
“Ka, I'm seriously no longer kidding. You're the only person most valuable after both my parents”
“Quiet aja”
Suddenly the atmosphere on the bike became quiet again. After a while, we arrived right in front of my house.
“Come in first?”
“No need, Yes. Next time, though. I go home first yes, dahh.. assalamualaikum”
“Waalaikum greetings*
He also went forward his motorbike, after he disappeared from my view I also began to step foot into the house.
Suddenly my mother was already in front of the main door while crossing her hands.
“Where? Not feeling well? How to even go home from a cow?” ask my mama full of questions
“From cafe ma, out of coffee. Hanging out gap, right?”
“Ngopi or dating?”
“What the hell ma. I want to go to the room first to rest. Dah mamaaa” I said as I waved my hand
“Awas yaa, if out of the house without permission mama again, will not mama open the door. If you want to date ya say don't lie using reason not feeling all. And one more, tomorrow you have to enter work can not skip again”
“Iyaa my mother is beautiful and a little chatty, tomorrow Desyana entered work really, just calm down.”
***
Today it looks like I have to force myself to go. I don't want to have to do it so my mom won't be angry anymore.
“Nahh so dong already neat, fragrant, beautiful, immediately see it. Don't forget to have breakfast first, dear” said my mama
“Iya maa, I have breakfast first yes. Oh yeah, now mom wants to check out the restaurant where I work, right? Departing together yes, don't leave”
“definitely dong darling, yaudah there spout breakfast. Mama wait in front ya”
“Iya maa”
I saw mama go to the front area of the house, her graceful steps and charismatic aura made anyone respect her. He truly is the most perfect man ever. The person who always makes me feel proud to have him.
Some time later, we immediately went to the restaurant owned by Mama by using a car. Suddenly, my mom asked me about yesterday.
“Whose yesterday was it?” ask mama
“Ohh, it's me ma”
“Who?”
“Randika”
“Where works? Live where?
“Working in a workshop, living in the village nexti”
“Know from when?”
“Not that, you're my only son. Mama does not want you to choose wrong temen”
“He is good kok ma”
“But don't trust too much. Teteps must be able to take care of themselves”
“Iya ma, by the way it's okay if he works in a workshop?”
“What, why? You also only work at mama”'s restaurant
“Ih mama, not for me huh?”
“Iya for you, but remember that we as humans cannot underestimate the work of others. As long as it's halal it's okay”
“Good if mama does not mind work”
“Darling, my father also used to not immediately succeed as he is now. I used to do work in people's places, my mom was just open a small catering business. And that is now the result of our hard work. So during the work that we do it halal ya live alone, who knows in the future there is a great opportunity for us”
“Iya ma”
“You promise you must be able to take care of yourself, you are the only child that father and mother have. Mom wants you to live a happy life. Do not choose the wrong friend, must be wise to sort and choose. Don't go beyond the limit.”
“Iya ma, yes. Desyana will continue the same saying mama”
It didn't feel like we had even reached our destination.
“Ma, I went straight into the room huh. Why do you travel around yourself?”
“Gapapa, you just take care of all your work that was delayed yesterday. Mama has been used to travel alone, this area is also mama”
“Yaudah if that, Desyana enter first”
“Iya nak”
Just a few steps away, I heard the sound of my phone ringing. It appears that there was an incoming message.
[Hi, I want to tell you if I want to go home now. You take good care of yourself. I will stay there for ten days, because my mom has business too he said]
[Okay, remember what I said yesterday]
[Yes]
[Awas if later even his heart is the same as that person]
[Not going to be]
[Jude, be careful. Don't forget about it]
[Ready to do boss]
***
Day after day passed, not a single message was sent to me by Randika. Pacing back and forth walking there and here makes me always feel uneasy. In the end, I decided to contact him first.
[Ka, you're healthy right? You all right? How can you never tell me?]
The message was sent but there were only two checks.
I who could not stand this, finally I ventured to call him. For a while I waited for my phone to finally connect. But even my guess happened.
[Hallo, who is this?] There was a female voice over there
[The randika exists?] I still say in a calm tone
[Where is the food percent, who is it?]
[I want to talk about work. If you know who you are?]
[Ohh want to discuss work, I'm his girlfriend]
*degg
Like an incision, it feels very painful. Didn't he say he didn't want to date? What am I hearing now? Why is Randika never honest that she has another heart image.
[Hallo? Hello?]
[I'll call again]
I immediately turned off the phone.
Crying so badly. My chest feels tight, it's hard for me to accept. My feelings are falling apart irregularly. Shouldn't he tell the truth if he has a heart, instead of giving me lies that are now completely meaningless. Was I just used as a toy and an outlet? Randika, just yesterday you said, but it's different now.