Broken
want what?
“Uwa. I finally got a blue rose. Yeeey. Maxih Nova.” I said as I pinched his stye Nova cheek. Yes you could say Nova is a bit fat anyway. Maybe his weight is about 70kg-75kg. But it is not too fat because Nova is also high, maybe about 165 cm high. Eleven twelve equal I am the height.
“Ihh regular dong, Key. I'm driving again.” Nova said as she rebuffed my hand.
“Iya bauble.” I said sewot.
“Thou artful.”
Getting closer to the bestm I began to think hard how can I go home to the boarding house carrying flowers like this without being known by the friends.
“Heh daydreamed from earlier. I want to get to nih.” Nova said to disperse my daydream.
“Yes that's it, I think again how do I go back to the cost of bringing this flower.”
“Easy. I'll stop right behind your bike. Keep you centelin deh flowers on your motor.”
“Mana can. I didn't ask for a crackle.”
“Basic Gomik.1 There was a crackle just now take the sticker.”
“Oh yes.”
“Yaudah there by now nih.” Nova said as he stopped the car right behind my bike.
1 Gomik: Foolish thinking. In Japanese, it means trash.
“Oke.” I said while opening the door.
“Eh...” Nova said while holding my hand.
“Apaan anyway.” I said in astonishment as I shook Nova's hand.
“Bring all the stickers. Put beskem. Then you take the flowers through the side door. A bit sprightly, yes. You see I'm worried kids on know.”
“Iya yes bavel.” I said while picking up the sticker in the back seat of the car.
I was so glad that no one asked me. Temen\-temen are again busy with their respective work\-men. Maybe Nuri has also come home. I then took my favorite blue rose through the side door and I succeeded. Yet…
“Cie from whom, Key.” Bli Yogi told me. Bli Yogi who I often call ‘mas’, is a two-year difference rate brother with me who comes from Bali. We know each other because of the same SME.
I was shocked and immediately closed the car door. Nova passed by leaving me without further ado.
“Eh, Mas Yogi handsome. From temen mas hehe. Yaudah I go home first mas.”
I said in a hurry to go home.
“How much to go home?” Ask Mas Yogi.
“Iya mas I have been from earlier in GOR same temen-temen.”
“Oalah. Yaudah careful yes beautiful.”
“OK mas.”
Arriving at the boarding, the clock shows at 17:56 which is a sign of azan magrib who will be reverberating in a moment. I then sent a message to my mother, informing her that I had arrived at the boarding house. Yes even though later will go again with Ariz to solve the problem. More precisely put an end to all my current turmoil. I don't know for sure if this is the best choice. Especially with a state of the heart that is not okay\-all. But how else? I'm already sick, Ariz's answer later will also I consider how this relationship continues. I hope he obeys me.
After I finished cleaning\-clean body and praying magrib I immediately called Arizon.
“Halo. Assalamualaikum.” I started a conversation
“Waalaikumsalam.”
“I'm done. You where? Have you prayed?”
“I'm at Indomaret Point. I'm finished from this mosque.”
“Yes. What time do you want?”
“Now I otw kosmu.”
“OK. Careful.” I said, ending the phone.
Gini really if again marahan yae. Usually want to close the phone just scramble, on do not want all. Until someone finally has to give up. I hate this situation. Not long after that, Ariz came to my boarding house.
“I've arrived.” Ariz says.
I didn't answer and went straight out to see him.
“Where do you eat?” My toot.
“As far as you are, I follow.” Ariz says.
“Suka gitu.”
“Yaudah important first way aja.”
“Yes, stop by the ATM first, I want to take money.”
“Ya.”
After writing down the menu of food and drinks selected I then give it to the order table. Honestly, I can't lie to myself, so if I'm upset, happy/happy it looks from the look of my face.
“Try leucin.” I asked to start the conversation while looking at Ariz deeply.
“So gini, yesterday Friday I was invited to play, well all the bells. I was told to boncengin Mei. I refused, but my friends made it and there was no other choice. I also picked up Mei at her house.”.
I was shocked to hear it. Ariz was also shocked to see my expression. Then he continued his explanation.
“Yes I'm not the only one who picked up Mei, but the same thing. Keep us to the 0 Km point of watching the bands perform. Stamp to Vredebrug Fort as well. Nothing else, Key.”
‘Udah so doang’ said? What's up with the commitment he made? I don't think with Ariz who played the same May just like that, without telling me before. I am obviously jealous. Because Mei is a girl who was once loved by Ariz, and vice versa. Do not rule out their possibility there is still a little taste of baper.
“OK. Did you explain?” I said indifferently and Ariz just nodded his head.
“I have no problem you bond with anyone, as long as you say the same I.”
“Iya I'm sorry.”
“But what I was surprised by was that I was such a fool ya.”
Ariz was shocked by my words. His mind began to guess\-nerka what I was going to say. His gaze was sharp towards me.
“Sek jerk, let the mas serve food first.” I said, letting the waiter put food on our table.
After that I then continued my words to Ariz.
“Iya I'm a real fool. I take care of someone's feelings, but that person doesn't keep his feelings for me. Stupid, right?” I said while holding back tears, even my head and ears started to heat up.
“Riz, it seems better that we just as before we both know that we love each other. Honestly, I'm not strong like this. Only 10 days after we decided to change the status. You even think gini. I think the law is better, Riz. You see, I am also lazy if you keep fighting with jealousy like this. I'm not strong, Riz.” Add me at length.
I realized that my eyes had started to glaze over, it also felt a bit heavy and hot to blink. I saw Ariz as well in the same situation as me. Silence after the statements I made just now. Beeraapa then Ariz said.
“Emang you don't want to give me another chance, Key?” Ask Ariz to me.
I wonder, why does Ariz even ask like that? Why not just follow my\-word? Wouldn't that guy cut the will of his beloved girl even if it broke the relationship? I was very surprised, ah complicated to deal with something like this. I hate how it feels.
I chose to return to the position, but Ariz refused and wanted to maintain a relationship beyond that. Then I should how is this? I honestly still love Ariz. I'm also afraid that these last two years have been a waste. A quiet, hated atmosphere. I was so confused as to what to answer.
“Riz. However, someone who once loved someone and met again, let alone piggybacking is hypocritical if not baper. I'm sure you also still have a little taste of the same Mei.”
“Engga, Key. I'm unfortunately the same you.”
“Bulshit.”
“Key, give me one more chance to fix it. You don't want it, the last two years were wasted? I felt like I had a gift yesterday that I wanted. I don't think I might get you. Because all this time I thought you were hard to conquer. I don't want to waste you, Key. I'm really-I'm sorry. I'll fix it. Give me a chance once again, I beg you.”
Fucking arizats. I honestly am not that person. I don't think I can say\-words anymore. Confused, geez why am I faced with a situation like this? Just this time I saw Ariz begging\-please me like this. We used to joke around, ridicule each other, and now switch the topic of relationship issues more than friends like this. Gosh, I really\-can't bear Ariz and on the other hand I still love him.
“Okay then I'll give you one last chance. If you don't tell me anymore, we'd better take care of everything. After all, I never forbid you from hanging out or playing with anyone. Your mom never forbade it, right? What else am I. I don't deserve that. I just want you to take care of my feelings, like I'm keeping your feelings. That was aja.”
“Yes yes, I'm really sorry. Oiya I also want to pesen with you. If any problem is solved well. Don't want to be off kayak yesterday it.”
“Ya likes me dong. I was arguing in a chat. I also need time to make my own, Riz.”
“Yaudah, Key. Anyway if there's anything to say. I'm not a fortune teller who knows all your thoughts and no one forbids you from being jealous of me. Even that is the sign that you really love me.”
“Iya. Oiya you sleepy po?”
“Why?”
“Yee even back nanya.”
“Not sleepy kok.”
“That's why your eyes are red.”
“Iya po? Oh maybe the clipan was fitting on the road.” Ariz said while holding his eyes and glaring at his HP screen.
“Heem, sure?” I said while winking and smiling ignorantly to tease Ariz.
Based on Ariz's answer, I know why. What else if not crying. Two years is not a short time to understand the nature and behavior of a person. Hih Ariz base, make it even more dear if the behavior is like this. His cheeks reddened in case if caught out crying.
“Udah-already eat first, cold hunt.”
“Iya yes."
After we finished eating we went home because it was almost 21:00.
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