Broken
sarah calling
Yogyakarta, January 23, 2018
“Key, how? Want me to pick you up at your house?” Ask Ariz.
“Eh don't. I can't get a guy. I could get scolded by my father later. I'll meet you at the place usually aja.”
“OK ready. I otw nih.”
“Ya carefully. Later if you are almost to say yes.”
Ariz didn't return my message. Shortly thereafter, he sent me a message.
“Key, I've reached nih.” Ariz says.
“Loh, I'm here. I told you I was almost there.”
“I was too focused on the road earlier. I've been to here.”
“Iya yes otw nih.”
I then set off towards where I and Ariz used to meet. Dad said I can't be picked up with a guy. It's not good to see the neighbors. If it's outside my village, it's up to you. Said dad can be boncy with the same guy but yes it was not allowed if it is still around my village, if it is different area anyway can. Keep dad also on fire if the motorbike is pinned. So I'm not wrong if I'm boning Ariz outside my village. Hehe.
I feel stubborn. Who the hell is Ariz. The closer to where my agreement is with Ariz the more I feel stubborn. But you have to face it, this is also my risk. After I left the bike in the usual place, I then approached Ariz.
“Sorry yes, Riz. Later wait.” I said.
“Iya gapapa. Counting the payment at that time, you were waiting for me. Pas we first date.” Ariz says.
“That's what the first date is.” I said evasive.
“Loh yes really right?”
“Emm, ingga too. Uh where's your temen.” I said to divert the conversation.
“Wait a moment. He's picking up his girl.”
“Emang who the hell is your friend that you invited?”
“Huzaen equals Tyas.”
“Hah Huzaen? That's what you ever made up story?” Manya surprised.
“Iya, who you said she was tutoring you at SD and SMP.”
“Yaampun.”
“Emang why the hell? They come with.”
“Gapapa. Good thing I know. So not too awkward.”
“Yes, I intentionally and by chance they took me to the beach.” The word Ariz explains.
I'm so relieved that I know one of Ariz's friends who went to the beach with me today. Although Huzaen and I are not close, at least I know her. Oiya, I did not expect because this time I am the same Ariz as his jacket again. Maybe Ariz again likes to wear a red hoodie and I also like to wear a red jacket. Even this small thing makes me feel happy.
“Cie Ariz. Same color of his jacket.” Said Tyas teasing Ariz.
“Weh yes uh. Janjan po you guys?” Ask Huzaen.
Ariz and I just kept quiet and passed by them, because we were all on the highway riding each other's bikes. It took us two hours to get to the beach we were on.
“What are you asking the Keyra to, Riz? I've been guessing first anyway.” Huzaen.
Ariz just nodded his head and I just kept quiet while taking off my helmet and jacket.
“Loh do you know po, En?” Ask Tyas.
“Ya know lah.” Huzaen ketus.
“Ihh used to say it. Uh, whose name was it?” Ask Tyas.
“Federal introduction.” Answer Huzaen.
“Iya on his dining acquaintance.” Added Ariz.
“Keyra.” I said with a smile and extended my hand to Tyas.
“Tyas.” Tyas said while doing the same as me.
The four of us then entered the beach. The sound of the waves swept over me, as if he knew that my heart was happy today. The sun also does not want to lose to greet me. The bright blue sky also gave me the sweetest smile. I don't know, I feel so happy. Suddenly Huzaen scattered my daydreams with questions that he threw at Ariz, even Tyas also followed by asking Ariz.
“Keyra is ready for you e, Riz?” Tanya Huzaen.
“Yes who is e, Riz?” Tyas asked.
“Partner.” Ariz answered briefly while smiling at me.
I also just kept quiet while smiling to hear his Ariz. The four of us ran and took pictures together. After being satisfied to take pictures we immediately went home because I should not be too late to go home.
~o~
Yogyakarta, January 25, 2018
Faisal suddenly commented on the story I made. I made a story of my picture with Ariz on the beach yesterday Tuesday.
“That's who, Key?” Faisal asked curiously.
“Temen kok photo both so? Kayak couple aja.”
“Loh can't ya? Like me dong, I'm the same she's single. So no one will get angry.”
“I'm angry.”
“Weh, why e, Sal? wkwk” I said to melt the atmosphere.
“I'm serious, Key. I have the same feeling as you. You're not sensitive anyway? I'm serious about what I said back then.”
“I was also serious about my words at that time, Sal. And dial ah the person I mean.”
“So he you keep his feelings?”
“Iya.” Answer's short.
“You know, inevitably not given the same certainty guys are not clear. I'm sure you'll mrs, Key.”
“Gini yes, Sal. I've known him for a long time. And my heart believed in him. I don't need status or recognition. I'm willing for her to pick up another girl. I know I'm a complete fool. But somehow I want to survive with him. Anyway I'm the same he has the principle of ‘Friends Always Forever’. That's my principle the same since High School Class XI.” I clearly.
“That's the same way you betrayed your own principles, Key. You have the same feelings for him and on behalf of friendship to stay close to him.”
“I don't care, Sal. As long as I keep deket same him, it's enough for me.”
“But I really love you, Key.”
“Sorry I really can't, Sal.”
“You are, Key. Congratulations on sticking with your stupidity.”
Honestly, Faisal's words pierced my heart deeply. But, Faisal had a point as well. I'm so stupid. I want to keep the feelings for someone who doesn't keep the feelings for me. It feels very eager to ask and ask for certainty as Ariz. Incidentally, Ariz sent me a message.
“Key.” Ariz says.
“Iya?” Answer's short.
“What's first?” Ask Ariz.
“Again.”
“Why e? Try my same story here. Who knows I can give you a solution.”
“I've been shot guys.”
“Waw, keep you receiving?” Ask Ariz curiously.
“I'm confused about my own feelings.”
“Loh why should be confused?”
“I'm so stupid. I want to keep the feelings for someone who doesn't keep the feelings for me. I want something with you, Riz.”
“Ya ask aja.”
“Why did you come to my school for no reason? Why are you making me snap shoot photos? Why did you take me to the beach and it was as if you knew me to your friends? I piker after graduating High School we have not met again. Yes if the chat problem every day is not a problem. But why are you taking me on the road?”
“Before I answer, I want to ask you first. Do you think I treat it differently?”
“Emm, yes possible. It is as if you do not want to lose but do not want to have. Now answer my question.”
“Yes because you feel that I treat you differently and yes that's the answer to all your questions.”
“What do you think I am?”
“Special people.”
“Special what the hell am I in your eyes?”
“Ya my treatment to you will be different from other girls who are just as clumsy and can not be explained using the words.”
“I want to ask you again. The girl who was eating with you at the time who was it?”
“That you are told Sari is po?”
“Iya.”
“You know the guy. Smp-ku Temen. I was small and we both had nothing. My father was with his father he was a temenan. That's also what makes me the same she deket.”
“Oalah si Yuni.”
“Iya. Now I'm back with you. If you already know what really gini you want how?”
“Yes I keep our principles, Riz. I don't want it if we keep breaking up and we're enemies. Just like we betray our principles, right?”
“Yes too anyway. After all, status doesn't change feelings, does it?”
“Iya.”
I felt very relieved, and it turned out that my love did not clap one hand again. The decision to stay there is a sense of the same Ariz is the most appropriate choice. Although I had to wait for Ariz before. Because he prefers the Princess and betrays his own principles. But I'm so happy now.
~o~