The Passion of the Doctor Duda
Chapter 220 (Start Loss)
...📌 Do not forget this part enliven yes....
...Happy reading...
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Haidar returned to the apartment at exactly 8 p.m. His body was very tired due to the huge amount of office work.
Haidar threw himself on the sofa. "Zeva, get me a cold drink! I'm thirsty!" said Haidar massaging his temple that feels pain.
"But really old Geneva!" haidar said loudly.
"Ze... Oh shit I forgot he was gone!" said Haidar flatly.
With laziness Haidar got up from his fall and headed for the kitchen to grab the drink he wanted.
"What are you going to drink?"
"Lo's home?" asked Haidar in surprise.
Zevana smiled and Haidar approached her but after Haidar wanted to hold her Zevana disappeared. Haidar massaged his temple, currently he is hallucinating if there is Zevana in the kitchen.
"Will not take a shower? Zevana get the warm water ready, huh?" zevana said in the current Haidar hallucination.
"Yes, prepare quickly!"
Haidar was surprised when Zevana disappeared again.
"Ah shit!" aspir Haidar with flat.
Haidar drank his drink with one gulp. It feels so strangling his neck now, Haidar is almost frustrated as he sees Zevana smiling at him and sometimes offering something for him.
Haidar ruffled his hair in frustration. He looked at Zevana sharply. "If you want to go, just go! Don't make me like this!" said Haidar sharply.
Haidar annoyedly walked into the bathroom that was near his kitchen. Zevana's fragrant soap and shampoo entered his sense of smell. His heart suddenly squeezed and felt very tight.
Haidar washed his face with the water in the sink. Repeatedly Haidar sighed heavily by staring at his reflection in the mirror in front of him. Is this the effect left behind by Zevana? Or because of his guilt with Zevana all this time because Haidar had tortured Zevana.
Haidar turned off the sink water, he took out a tissue and dried his face. However, his eyes unintentionally saw something behind the trash can that attracted his heart to immediately pick up the thing.
Haidar slowly picked up a flat object that made him curious. "Test pack?" mumbled Haidar with an increasingly claustrophobic feeling.
"Z-zeva, is Zeva pregnant?" ask Haidar to himself.
Haidar grasped the test pack tightly. The man walked towards Zevana's room impatiently, he had to confirm something related to the test pack he found in the trash can inside the bathroom.
Haidar ransacked Zevana's cardboard with a heart so pounding. With erratic thoughts Haidar picked up the diary book that pulled him.
With trembling hands Haidar opened Zevana's diary.
With impatience Haidar opened sheet by sheet related to the test pack he found.
{We were married because of my actions that trapped Brother Haidar so that he would marry me.Yes, he was drunk at that time and facilitated my plan to have it. Be happy? Of course because Brother Haidar is a man I love so much}
{I think by marrying Brother Haidar everything will go smoothly and we will be happy. But I was wrong it turned out that this was suffering for me that was cheating. Is that what Haidar's brother hates me right now? Even he has a heart with me. I slept in a room that used to be a barn, I was so scared in this room because there were rats and cockroaches hanging around. But I was required to be brave, but I could not fall asleep at all because of the coldness of the floor piercing my bones. I can't give up, I have to get used to my new life without a luxury that I often get from papa and mama and my two brothers}
{We lost our son whom we did not know where he was. But here I am sad and not for Brother Haidar. He looks fine even he doesn't know how broken my heart was when I lost my son to Haidar's harsh treatment of me. Could she also be reluctant to have a child from the womb of a cheap woman like me?}
{After 4 months I miscarried now I am pregnant again. Happy of course! But do I have to tell this happy news to Brother Haidar? But I'm afraid of losing my son again? I have to how?}
{At last I decided something really big for my life. Yes, I will go from the life of Brother Haidar and bring something valuable given by him. 7 days my request to be a real husband and wife is approved by him. It's the toughest decision I've made but it's okay for my son to be healthy and stay with me. Because after losing Haidar's brother and my family, I only have my son who I will raise alone}
{Goodbye Brother Haidar. Happy always yes because the burden of your life has gone a long way. Don't look for me, brother, because I don't want to love you more. I really can't hate you even though my body and mind are hurt because of you}
Haidar closes the book of Zevana's leftover diary. "Arghh.....Zeva, you torture me!" said Haidar with reddened eyes holding back his cries.
"Lo go get my son!" said Haidar with tightness.
"ZEVA BACK LO!" shouted Haidar loudly.
Haidar's frustrated now. It turned out so deep in Zevana's love for her but her disappointment closed her eyes.
"Haha... Good mending you go get the kid! Hiks...But my heart hurts!" said Haidar with a soft.
Haidar was speechless with tears constantly running down both of his cheeks. Like the movie all his rude deeds seemed to revolve in his mind. How rough treatment of himself to Zevana, the clash that made Zevana's heart hurt, and even when Zevana miscarried because of his actions.
"Where should you go?" ask Haidar to himself.
Unknowingly Haidar overslept after falling silent with tears full of regret. Haidar does not know if his life will get heavier after this, his body is alive but as if lifeless because of his mistake in Zevana which made his wife disappear without a trace.
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Tiara could not sleep at all. Ever since her return from Haidar's apartment yesterday, her mind has been branching out which made Tiara unable to close her eyes soundly.
Zidan opened his eyes slowly when he felt that his wife was very restless. Carefully Zidan brought Tiara into his arms.
"Why, Honey? It's late and you haven't slept at all?" ask Zidan gently.
Tiara looked at her husband with a very sad look. "I can't sleep because I'm nervous about Zevana, Mas. Was my attitude yesterday outrageous? I didn't even pick up the phone yesterday" Tiara said wryly.
"Tomorrow we go to Haidar's apartment. However Zevana is our son, no matter how big a mistake he is still our son. Don't let what you're going through happen to Zevana, honey! At a very young age Zevana is still very unstable, sometimes he does not think ahead with what he is doing now. Mas is very regretful of Zevana's actions but we must not hate him," said Zidan who made Tiara's tears flow just like that.
"I'm a bad mama, Mommy! Hix... Zevana must feel very guilty about us. Anyway tomorrow we have to get to Haidar's apartment quickly huh, Mas. I don't know why I miss Zevana so much!" tiara said with pleading.
"Yes, Honey. Now you sleep so that tomorrow does not oversleep Haidar's apartment" said Zidan gently.
Zidan hugged his wife tightly. Actually, what Tiara felt, felt by him was only Zidan just silent and did not want to make Tiara more nervous.