WHO ARE YOU?
Hearts of Doubt

'Astagfirullahalazim, perhaps because this is the teaching of religion and custom forbid to roam in the afternoon before the magrib like this, ' said Kania in his heart, when he remembered the message abak and bundo.

With heavy steps, Kania then walked a bit limping to pull over from the beach, but it seemed like the spiked coral was too sharp to make Kania's legs covered in blood, until he began to feel pain.

"It hurts!" isak Kania spoiled.

Kania continued to force herself to walk, but suddenly her body was carried by someone from behind, a man who seemed very worried about her.

For a moment Kania looked at that soothing face, but that face this time looked very flat with no expression. At first glance, worry is mixed with anger and disappointment as well.

“Lex, please let me go, we are not muhrim and this is sin,” Kania said protesting as she shook her bloodied legs.

Kania feels surprised and strange, why suddenly he does not want to be touched Alex. As if at this time she became a very understanding Siti with manners based on religion and customs.

“I know we don't muhrim, so I'll just justify you right away! If you can't take care of yourself like this how will I calm down leaving you alone as you wish,” Alex said firmly without looking at Kania. He kept walking flat down every corner of the beach with a raging heart.

'O Allah what is this situation, why today the servant is faced with a man who constantly invites the servant to marry, ' Kania murmured in his heart.

It's not that Kania doesn't want to marry Alex, it's just that she's not ready right now. There is a promise that he must keep to Siti so that his future is not the same as the past.

“Honey, please put me down, I can walk alone, not nice to see by people, please!” pinta Kania pleaded while linking her hands together right in her chest.

“If you don't want me to behave like this so don't worry, who sent magrib-magrib gini instead roam on the beach,” Alex scolding with a face full of worry angry.

Kania's feelings feel better when Alex lowers her down on the edge of a long bridge.

“Thank you, Honey!” kania said with a smile.

Somehow when Kania's leg was injured, his feelings even felt better especially with Alex here with him.

Alex then took the sea water by holding it with both hands.

“Sorry, Honey,” says Alex politely.

Alex cleans Kania's feet with sea water. With a worried face, Alex showed his attention. Several times he took back and forth sea water until Kania's feet looked clean and his blood stopped flowing.

Alex then sits next to Kania, he pulls out a brown handkerchief to bandage Kania's legs.

“Sorry, dear, instead of presumptuous, once again sorry!” said Alex.

Kania salutes Alex's change in attitude, looking like Syamsul.

The man raised Kania's leg by wrapping a handkerchief to cover Kania's wound.

Kania stared intently at her lover, it was clear that the man was really very sincere and adlas to Kania. The look on his face and the radiance of love and affection are also clearly visible on his face.

For a moment Kania is again enchanted and falls in love. Now the man also looked at Kania, until for a moment their eyes met and clashed with each other like in scenes in Indian films.

'Astagfirullahalazim, ' said Kania in his heart and the beautiful girl immediately lowered her gaze. The shyness that Keyla currently has is more like Siti. While Alex seems to be doing the same with Kania, the man looks like Syamsul.

“Honey, already azan, we are back to the apartment yuk!” take Alex.

"How about we pray first?" Take Kania gently.

Kania stood up then swiftly Alex squatted down, he released the sedal he was wearing and put it at Kania's feet, this incident reminded Kania of two events, first when Alex pairs Cinderella glass shoes for her at the first time they are made and secondly when Alex buys her a pair of flip-flops Doraemon motif to replace Cinderella shoes that made Kania hurt at the party.

Kania begins to drift in delusion and daydreaming, she begins to feel strange in Kania, but the longing for someone who has died also makes Kania's tears fall down her cheeks.

Kania then immediately wiped away the tears before Alex saw it, he did not want the man he loved so much to worry about him in excess again.

“Honey, here's the original, let's get to the musala. Wear it so that your feet feel safe and no longer hurt,” Alex said gently.

Alex gave her the sandals she wore to Kania so that her lover would not be in pain.

"But, Sa-yang ..," Kania hesitates because she doesn't want the leg of the man she loves so much to be hurt.

"Wear it, I will be nothing, most importantly you," Alex said gently as he looked into Kania's eyes with a very sincere love.

Kania finally wears Alex's sandals that are too big for him.

“Thank you, Lex!” said Kania with a thin smile that looked sweet.

Alex also looked at Kania closely, until the two eyes looked at each other and returned a smile.

“Honey, let's go!” said Kania with sparkling eyes staring at her heart lover.

Alex stood up and walked beside Kania, they walked side by side in silence. Sometimes Kania looks at Alex's face when she notices him. And occasionally Kania does the same to Alex. There is comfort and peace that he feels when he is near her even though the sense of the decks has not appeared, but at least Kania does not feel awkward when near her lover.

“Honey, does his leg still hurt?” ask Alex for attention.

“No, Dear. Thank you because you have helped me,” said Kania with a face that is still down in shame.

“Darling, can I ask you something?”

Alex looked at Kania and stopped his footsteps. Keyla did the same thing Alex did. Kania sees Alex looking into her eyes which holds a million questions to Kania.

“What do you want to ask, Darling?” said Kania gently with a thin smile from her lips to break the tense atmosphere they were now feeling.

“Did you think of something too difficult for you to tell me?” ask Alex to be curious.

There was a sense of blockage that Alex felt in his heart at this moment, he seemed to want to bear all the burden that I felt at this moment.

"What am I going to say?" kania said in my heart.

Kania wants to explain and tell Alex a lot of things, but he doesn't know where to start.