WHO ARE YOU?
The Painful Loss

"Every living thing will feel dead." Those words rang in Kania's mind. He recalls his mother's messages ringing in the burden of Kania.

Memories and memories of childhood with mama make Kania's tears can no longer be contained. Especially now that the shadow of the memories of Siti and Abak also appeared in Kania's mind. Siti seemed to fear the age of the brother no longer long and she until now still could not realize the last wish of the brother.

Not knowing where the servant is going, the servant is stuck in the past and the future. But I am eager to realize my brother's wishes, even though I do not know how. However, I believe You are the best planner. O Allah, give the servant guidance and help the servant, "inner of Kania.

“Assalamualaikum, Siti, is there anyone named Siti here?"

Kania's heart trembled when she heard someone calling Siti's name.

Not to mention the hospital costs that he thought, now he had to be faced with a very great fear.

“Waalaikumsalam, who ya?”

Kania put on an astonished face with her heart beating so violently, there was a worry lodged in her brain and heart. But he chose to ask because he was curious, Kania walked over to a person who looked like a nurse.

“Sorry, Uni, I'm the Sister who takes care of her Abak Uni. Bundonya Uni asked me to contact Uni.”

“What's up, Sister? Did something happen to my brother?" asked Kania worriedly.

“Uni's Mother asks Uni to immediately go to Abak.”'s room

“Good, Sister,” Kania instantly opened her door and rushed out of the musala.

Kania ran as fast as he could, to quickly arrive at the abak's room. The feeling of being ungodly made him think impurely, he felt exactly the same as when his mother died.

Kania's feet felt like they were not treading the earth, her heart was beating very bright, her mind was branching and so many things were unthinkable in her mind.

Kania tried to run with the existing stock of energy, but again Kania tripped. Kania fell down and fell again, and that left her knee injured.

Huf ....

Kania took a deep breath, then without realizing the tears that he had been able to bear finally poured out as well. However, Kania did not give up, he tried to get back up and ran back to get to his brother's hospital room immediately.

Kania opened the door and she saw the bundo sitting on the floor of the hospital very cold, crying. Kania's gaze was then fixed on the ashak who looked deathly pale with his eyes closed.

Kania menciba approached abak, but it felt like his legs were shaking. Kania has been thinking no-no.

“Abak ..., abak ..” sobs Kania increasingly broke seeing half his breath was stretched lifeless. Kania also felt the presence of Siti inside him. Siti who was crying and very sad to see her brother lying lifeless.

“Abak ..., wake up! This is Siti, Abak's favorite child. Abak do not go, because Siti has asked Kania to make Abak and Bundo happy.” Kania then immediately hugged the bundo with a sobbing that was mounting.

“Kania ..., Siti, wake up, Son! Don't be like this!” bundo released Kania's embrace from the abak.

Bundo immediately hugged Kania tightly while kissing Kania's head.

Siti who is in Kania now also feels a bundo hug, a hug that feels soothing and warm.

“Propay Darling, be patient! Let Abak go, Abak is now happy and no longer in pain." The words of Bundo sent Kania and Bundo swept away in a sea of tears.

“Innaillaihiwainnaillaihirojiun, everything belongs to Allah and will return to Allah,” the voice of the Doctor finally resuscitated Kania and bundo from the sobbing.

“Doctor, sorry, Doctor,” replied bundo while washing his tears.

“Mother, Dek, please let the Father go. Praying is much better than crying, right?” doctors were seen trying to calm and comfort Kania and Bundo.

“Iya, Doctor, thank you very much, Doctor.”

"Now you complete the Administration so that the bodies can be brought home," explained the doctor.

"Well, Doctor," Kania said in her sobs.

With the remnants of her power, Kania immediately ran to finish the administration.

After completing the administration, Abak's body was brought home.

Siti's heart in Kania feels very broken when the kaffan cloth covers the face of the brother. Kania finally felt the pain of losing like this again, the overwhelming feeling of loss hurt her immensely, making her feet feel as if they were not stepping on the earth anymore. Just now he lost his mother who was half his breath, now Kania had to be left by his brother. The world of Kanka increasingly feels very destroyed, as if shattered into pieces into flying dust grains.

Kania's eyes also incessantly drained the clear crystals, Kania's chest felt very tight and her mind seemed to drift, was this the painful loss?

Kania's heart was increasingly sliced when the body of his brother was entered by the keliang lahat, landfilled. The backrest of Kania in the past has gone, the angel of Kania precedes, there is no place to whine and pamper anymore, there is no place to complain and complain anymore. Now, when Kania yearns for a brother while in the past, where will Kania look for him?

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Abak's body was finally buried, half of Siti's breath in Kania seemed to be lost. Siti's biggest regret is not being able to realize her brother's last wish to marry a good man. But, yes, maybe this is God's best destiny. Siti believes God will not give trials beyond the limits of His servant's ability. Now that Siti has only bundo and Siti asks Kania to keep the bundo, Kania must make the bundo happy. Siti did not want Bundo to feel sadness or disappointment towards her who had gone with her brother to leave this world.

“Bundo ...,” Kania saw a dreamy bundo while hugging a photo of his brother while in his room.

“Bundo, Bundo why?” It was obvious that Bundo's face was weak and pale. Bundo is like a living corpse.

Kania approached the bundo, then he hugged the bundo that was shedding tears.

“Nak, Bundo is fine, Nak.” With a forced smile, Bundo wiped his tears and tried to look resolute in front of Kania.

“Bundo has eaten? Eat yuk, Bun!" Kania invites Bundo to eat because he sees the face of Bundo look pale.

“Let's go, Son!” reject the bundo with a weak tone of voice.

“Bundo should eat yes, Bun. Neither Siti nor Kania, we do not want Bundo why-why!” Kania pinched the bundo hand which now looks wrinkled.

"What does it mean to live Bundo without Abak here, son?" Bundo said in tears and sobs that made Kania's heart crumble.