Halal Love of the Senior
Adelia's Fret

Adelia had just returned home from checking her pregnancy, which had entered 36 weeks. The position of the fetus is still breech. Lita's doctor therefore scheduled Adelia for a cesarean section when she was 38 weeks pregnant.

"Ai, it's okay if you have to give birth by caesarean section. It's also for the good of Ai and our son." Adi strengthens his wife who looks disappointed after going outside the doctor Lita's room. "We even had a cesarean twice, she could still be a good mother for Ale" he added.

Adelia sighed as soon as she heard the husband's words. He looked at the man driving beside him. "Yes, I know, Mas. It just feels like I still have a hard time accepting after all my efforts so far. I've done everything the doctors asked me to do, the yoga instruction, and the advice of the people. But, it turned out that there was no effect at all."

Adi understood what his wife felt. However, as a husband, he must give understanding to his soulmate. The eldest son of Pak Wijaya was looking for a place that was not too crowded, then stopped the car.

"Well, why stop, Mom? Is the car a problem?" adelia asked with a worried look.

Adi shook his head while smiling at his beloved wife. "The car's okay, Ai. I just want to say something to Ai." He removed his seatbelt, then sat sideways facing Adelia. He left the mother-to-be's right hand, then he kissed gently.

"Mas Adi, what the hell? What do you want to say to get rich?" adelia asked, blushing in shame. Although it has been almost two years married, every touch of the husband gently, must make him feel embarrassed.

"Ai, I know Ai has done everything possible so that Mbak's position is not breech. I am sure Ai did not forget, our duty as human beings was to strive and pray. How it turned out, God decided. God knows best what is best for us, Ai. There must be some wisdom we can take away from this." Adi stroked the back of his wife's hand.

"Mau Ai gave birth to a caesarean or normal, Ai, remains the best umi for our children and the most beautiful and salihah wife in my eyes. Ai, there is no need to listen to what people out there are saying. Let them say what, don't listen. We should focus on preparing ourselves to be parents. Preparing for Ai's needs after giving birth, and also Mbak." Adi continued to look at the netra of the wife with love.

"Don't be sad and disappointed again, Ai. Do not let Mbak be sad because uminya sad. Ai, let's be sad and disappointed, that's a natural thing. But don't drag on. Believe me, there's always me next to Ai. In addition there are papa, mama, Arsenio, mother, father, Dita, Rendra, and also Ale." Adi smiled as she wiped the tears that quietly came out from the corner of the net Adelia. "Ai, why cry? I was wrong, right?"

Adelia shook her head repeatedly. The pregnant woman then smiled. "Mas Adi, not wrong. I am touched by the words of Mas. I feel like an ungrateful servant. I once wanted to get pregnant, thank God. Now it's been granted, but I'm asking for more. I should be thankful that I am pregnant and that our future child is healthy. I should have prayed to be given a smooth, healthy, and safe delivery instead of wanting anything else."

Adi's smile widened after the wife spoke. She was grateful that Adelia was finally able to understand and accept reality. "Oh, it is not wrong to ask God. We are free to ask for anything. Instead ask as much as possible, but we must also accept all the provisions of God. We should not be disappointed or angry with God if what we want is not granted. The important thing is that we try, pray, and surrender to God. Because whatever God gives, it must be best for us."

Adelia nudges. "Yes, Mas. I'm sorry, "he asked.

"Ai, not wrong. Nothing to forgive." Adi stroked the wife's chubby cheeks. "We continue the road. Ai, where are you going after this?" Adi took off his hand. Sit back facing forward and put on a seat belt.

"I want to meet my mom and dad, Mas" said Adelia.

"Then we go to papa's house. Ai, want to eat first or go straight there?" ask Adi.

"Just go. We'll eat there. I also miss cooking at home" replied Adelia.

Adi then drove the car to the residence of the in-laws as Adelia wanted.

***

"Dec, caesarean section doesn't hurt?" adelia asked as Dita was playing at the sister's house with Ale. Rendra's wife had finished KKN, so she was back in town. Because there was no schedule to go to campus, so he spent the day accompanying Adelia.

Adelia nudges. "Sometimes it still feels scared, Dek. I don't know why, even though I've tried to self-harm every day, too" he admitted. "When I often say I want to give birth to a normal or caesarean, God willing is ready. But when the doctor made sure to have a caesarean, it felt rich there was something stuck in the heart."

Dita smiled as she continued to watch Ale who was engrossed in composing his own beams. "Fear is natural, Ma'am. A lot of thoughts to make our hearts more calm. Tomorrow Adel will be handled by doctor Lita and his team. Ma'am, believe me for sure they will do their best. Twice my surgery was handled by Doctor Lita, thank God it's safe all. Adel's sister also knows how I used to give birth to Ale."

"Yes, Deck. It seems I'm the one who overthinks." Adelia stroked her distended stomach.

"I understand exactly what Adel's feeling. Every woman wants to give birth normally. Indeed, there are people who say, the perfect woman if she is pregnant and feels the pain of giving birth is normal. Indeed, if the caesarean section does not hurt during childbirth, but after surgery we must feel pain when the anesthesia runs out. Caesar needs a longer recovery. Not to mention the variety of drugs, infusions, and injections that we must get. Want to give birth normally or caesarean, all that requires a sacrifice that is not easy to pass," said Dita while welcoming Ale who walked up to her.

"Pubu, num grandson," Ale said as he sat on Dita's lap. He opened his hijab. Code if you want to drink ASI directly from the source.

"Drink with bottles, yeah. Shame on Bude," said Dita, turning to Adelia and lowering her hijab.

"No! Don't want to." Ale shook his head. "Landchild Bubu!" the screams began to rage. The toddler became more spoiled and wanted to always be close to the bubunya after returning to live together after Dita KKN.

"Yes. Just a minute." Dita unbuttoned the shirt. Ale got into his bubble hijab. The toddler is used to drinking ASI with closed conditions. "Pray first, son. Bismilbornrahmanirrahim."

"Now you rarely want to use a bottle, Dek?" ask Adelia.

"Yes, Mother. For a month and a half I rarely see each other. Once I met so spoiled. Actually I also feel guilty for being less attentive during KKN. Not I mean it too, but because of the circumstances," replied Dita while stroking the back of the son just the wayangnya.

"Although close to Rendra, but Ale also still needs the bubble. When was the day I called, you didn't accidentally say your name, Dek. Weep at her, "Adelia's story.

"Mother also told me about it, Ma'am. Because of the cry of urgency, so forced to be invited to the place of KKN. I'm slacking off until Ale sleeps. Once it's over, keep bringing home the same mother. Fortunately, when you wake up, the baby is already at home so not so fussy," said Dita.

"Indeed parenting a lot of his plays huh, Dek?" Adelia looked at her sister-in-law.

"Banget! Not just when babysitting. Starting to get pregnant is also a lot of drama, Ma'am," said Dita while giggling.

"Rubber too. The struggle to be a mother is not easy. From pregnancy, childbirth to parenting, all there is a drama of each," said Adelia.

"And, every mother must have her own story, Ma'am," said Dita who asserted by Adelia.

"Bak Adel, herus remains a spirit. Just think about positive and happy things. Don't think about the no-no" Dita suggested.

"Yes, Dek" said Adelia.

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