Lara's Pieces (When the Ex Returns)
Should I Leave It?

Salma POV

Maybe I should study. Learn to accept the fact that my husband still loves his ex-wife. I understand, their story is not over. Azzura's departure was only because he did not want his pain to be known by Askara at that time. Seven years disappeared like swallowed by the earth, now Azzura came back when Askara had lived peacefully, quietly, serene, happy, and harmonious with me. We have both forgotten our sad past. I forgot Mas Dimas who used to choose to marry Rani, his little friend, and Mas Askara udha managed to forget the departure of Azzura, and he had never expected Azzura back.

The beginning of my marriage to Askara, just because it was limited to Afifah. Yes, I love Afifa as much as my own son. Afifah was five years old at the time, and it was the first time I met a little girl, helping her when she fell from a swing in the park near the hospital. I helped her and treated Afifa at that time. We got closer, because Afifah was the grandson of the Director of the Hospital where I worked. He is the grandson of dr. Acha, mother's sister, my mother-in-law. And, the Hospital where I'm on duty is the Hospital of my great family's Omanya my mother-in-law. Finally I was introduced to Mas Askara, the father of Afifa. We were so familiar, because the Afifa made us more and more familiar.

Two years of knowing Askara and Afifah, Askara's extended family asked Askara to formalize his relationship with me. Whereas at that time, I only wanted to be close to Afifah, because he was the one who could slowly treat the wounds of my past while with Dimas. Because of Afifa too, I can feel having a child that I have longed for. Six years married to Dimas, I was only able to get pregnant in the fifth year. One month after the wedding anniversary of me and Dimas, I got pregnant. We were happy then, but when I was six months pregnant, I had to accept fate, if my child in the womb was no longer alive. My dream with Dimas to have a child disappeared instantly.

Five months after I lost my son. I again swallowed the bitter pill, because Dimas asked me for permission to marry Rani, who was none other than his best friend as a child. He wants to make Rani his second wife. I didn't want to be pitted, and I finally decided to part with Dimas. The first year I left Dimas, I was devastated. I felt like my life was over by then, there was no more passion for life, but a mother who continued to mourn her daughter who was like a living carcass, and considering the struggles my mother had when supporting me to become a Doctor, I was slowly able to assemble my life spirit back.

I returned to attend some more seminars, as a condition for me to be able to jump into the profession that I had lived for many years. One year I tried to get up from the rubble of my life, I went back to my profession, left my city, and devoted myself to Askara Family Hospital. I worked there, I was trusted again to be a doctor. I'm getting excited about living my life, because I'm out of the city where I used to live with Dimas. While the mother, he was still in the city, to run his business, which worked with Dimas. The bakery that I used to manage with my mother when she was Dimas' wife, is now taken care of by my mother, and Dimas also often helps my mother about finances. He said it was a share of the proceeds from the divorce, he said it had been a statutory decree from the court, that Dimas would spend money every month for me.

Maybe if I enjoyed all the gifts Dimas at that time, I became the Widow of the Rich Kingdom at that time, but I did not want to enjoy all that. If I enjoy it, it's the same as accepting that he married that woman. I chose to go back to my profession. A profession in which my father and mother are proud I became a doctor. However, they had to be disappointed when I decided to leave that profession for Dimas' sake. To serve my husband. Father and mother understood, when Dimas asked me to make me his wife, it meant all the responsibilities of father and mother were off. It was Dimas who was responsible for my life, and Proved all that, he made me happy, and made my father go away quietly, leaving me forever.

Now, I have to go back like this. Back to the third person. Just now that I was happy with Askara, after two years of marriage with Askara, now I have to accept the fact that Askara's seven-year-old ex-wife has disappeared, now come back and want to go back to Askara. Yes he wants to go back, Azzura wants to go back with Askara. I heard again, Azzura's request to Askara, that Azzura wanted Askara to marry her again.

I accidentally heard their conversation earlier, when they were in the back garden to enjoy the morning, sunbathing in the morning sun. Azzura asked Mas Aska to say goodbye to me to marry her again. What kind of joke is this? And Mas Aska said he'd try to tell me? I did not expect Mas Aska to agree with Azzura's request. Yes, I understand the age he was sentenced to the doctor just a few months away, but that was the verdict of the doctor who handled it. Doctors are not God. Doctors sentence patients based on the current state of the patient, based on the disease of the patient who perched in his body. If the doctor had sentenced her to live a few more months, but God wants her to live a long life up to a few more years what? The power of God no one can match, and that is for sure. If God has willed, we as human beings his creation must what other than accept the will of God with a big heart?

And, do I have to accept Askara to marry Azzura, to accompany the rest of Azzura's life? Oh, what a shame to my life. Twice the same thing will happen in my life. Mas Aska who I thought would not be like that, I heard for myself he agreed to Azzura's request. He'll try to tell me, to get back to marrying Azzura. Do I have to let go for Azzura?