Lara's Pieces (When the Ex Returns)
Let Me Marry Him

I try to be ordinary. Pretending not to know, pretending not to hear what they were talking about. I did not want to show as if I was angry and disappointed at Mas Aska when Mas Aska entered the room, and immediately hugged me from behind and kissed my nape. I knew he wanted to seduce me first, make my heart happy, happy, and it felt like flying into the clouds. But, not for the time being, I could not feel the gentle touch of my husband that was fondling me.

“This is what comes-coming suddenly gini, woof, nyium, and gini fumbles?” I said by stopping Mas Aska's hand that had come to my chest, rubbing it gently, but I didn't feel any passion at all.

“We haven't seen this for a long time, Sal?” he said it by continuing to fuck me.

It's been a long time! The person he was taking care of Azzura continued? One week or so he's just focused on Azzura, now only realising he hasn't touched me that long? Though almost every night, we make love full of excitement, passionate love. I know, this is the trick he wants to convey Azzura's request. He seduced me first, fondled me, until later in the end I resigned to what he would do.

However, even the slightest bit of my love passion did not rise. I feel normal, maybe because I'm disappointed, and why is it so easy for him to do this? Why not from yesterday when I wanted to? At that time he left me, but I was sulking because I wanted to get more attention from him, I wanted to be touched, but he slept outside, on the couch hugging Azzura.

“Mas, it's noon, you'll be going to the office soon?” my spoken.

“I'm not going to the office, you want to go to Semarang today, right? Later noon?”

“Yes, I will be in Semarang, I have two days there,” I replied.

“You sure you don't want to first? Want two days and two nights there?”

“Iya, but it's noon, Mas?”

“Please .. once, one week off?” pinta Mas Aska's.

I knew he wanted to, but if he had refused Azzura's request, I might have served him. But, I heard that he agreed to Azzura's request to get her married again. Should I give it to him if he wants and intends to marry another woman?

I let him touch me, even if there is no desire in me, whatever he wants, he knows I don't want to do it.

“Sal, how about gini? You why?”

“My mind is out of focus, sorry, Mas.” I removed Mas Aska's body from above my body.

“Sal ... tumben gini? Usually when it is noon and mepet only you can still enjoy it, Sal?” said Mas Aska.

“Don't know, Mas. Why am I like this, try asking the heart of the mas, or to myself why can I be like this,” I replied.

“Tell me what I want right now, other than wanting to get in touch like that? Tell me what you want, Mas? I will listen and try to accept it,” I said with a slight wipe of my tears that had condensed in the corner of his eyes.

“What are you talking about, Sal? It's not clear you, discuss this early in the morning! Husband asks it to serve, Sal! You deserve to be left married again when you were!” erang Mas Aska's.

“So now you will marry Azzura again, after I can't give you this morning? Marry her, I realize, I can't be selfish, marry her, maybe she asked for the last time. I'm not gonna ask for a divorce from you. I will prove what you say will be fair, and fair as to what, I want to know,”. “Sorry I listened to your conversation with Azzura earlier while you were in the back garden. Marry her, don't ask for permission after you seduce me like that,”.

Aska was silent, I spoke like that. He looked at me who was lamenting my own fate. Twice I have to be like this. I thought a storm like this would never come again, but it was even more devastating.

“Let me marry her, Sal. I'll be fair to you both.”

“Iya marry her.” I answered without thinking. I was stunned after confirming Mas Aska's request, with tears falling along with the wound in my heart that was gaping again. The wound that was dry, healed, now wet and gaping again. It hurts so much, the second time I've experienced something like this. But, this time I will prove as fair as what Mas Aska treats his two wives.

“You are sure of your answer, Sal?”

“Iya, I'm sure, I've decided. You can talk about all this with your family, asala not with my mother. Let my mom not know about this. I will be disappointed with you, and maybe I will think why I am so stupid now, because I can accept you who will marry again, while with Dimas I choose to go, although Dimas guaranteed my life, and until now he still guarantees my life, but it's all his business with my mother, he said all that to make amends to me, he said all that to make amends to me,” I said frankly to Mas Aska, because he did not know that Dimas had always given me rights, even though I was married, he did not want to stop giving it.

“Two years why did you just say Dimas is still bearing your life, Sal?”

“Because I never considered all that. I never thought she was in my life again, even though mom kept persuading me to come back to her. After marrying Rani, she asked my mother again, to be her second wife. And you know the second wife must take precedence. Rani herself also asked me to go back to Dimas, but I couldn't accept what was called polygamy, being mixed up, and what else was the term. I chose to leave, and let him give money to my mother, after all, the mother and mother Dimas worked together to develop their bakery that stood since Dimas's parents were still there. His mother Dimas was my mother's best friend. Dimas did not want to break the line of the legal system, therefore Dimas was also still close to mother, he was considered like a mother's own child, even though he had failed me,” explained me.

Aska just silently listened to my explanation. It is so. Dimas is still on good terms with his mother. But, I've warned my mother not to give me any news about Dimas. I do not forbid mother still close to Dimas, on condition that no longer need to tell Dimas what kind of situation to me. And, right until Rani died, she was in an accident until the road was wearing a cane, mother did not tell me about her condition at all. I'm sure you know, and I might as well take care of Dimas when Dimas gets into an accident.

“I didn't eat a dime of Dimas at all. So did mom. Mom used the money for her life absolutely out of my salary now, and the share of the proceeds from that store. Not eating from the results of the Dimas. Mom just kept Dimas's gifts, including the security deposit Dimas gave me after we got divorced. Mother also does not want to use the house that Dimas gave, car, villa, and company assets mother just let it go. For my mother, it was the wound of my heart. Mom still cooperates in the store because she promises her best friend that none other than her mother Dimas, mother has promised to raise the store together, even though later one of them has gone.”

“I will prepare everything to marry Azzura, Sal. And, please, you don't go, Sal. I promise I'll be fair to you both. Let me accompany Zura for the rest of her life. You know Zura's situation, right? You're the doctor who handled it, you sure know it.”

“Iya, I know. I'll let you marry her, Mom. I'm not going, where else do I have to go? My livelihood is here. I'm on duty in a hospital belonging to your extended family, how can I leave? If divorced with you I will still live here, there is no way I will return to my hometown,”.

“Sal, I love you so much. Love you so much, Salma,” said Mas Aska solemnly.