Lara's Pieces (When the Ex Returns)
We Should Study Together

I know he loves me so sincerely. I remember the beginning of our marriage, it was very difficult to unite our hearts together. A heart that is still both hurt by the past. The sixth month of our marriage, we realized what love meant. I was really made to fall in love by the attitude of Mas Aska who so simply gave love to me. Not exaggerated, but warms and soothes my soul. Peaceful and comfortable with him.

“I'm sorry, Sal. I can't leave Zura alone, and I can't leave you either, Sal.” Mas Aska hugged me tightly.

“I know that, I love you a lot too, Mas. I allow you to marry Mbak Zura, yes I must be sincere, I also do not want you to take care of it without any bond,”.

Right, I have to study sincerely, I must be able to accept this situation. Maybe if Zura wasn't like that, I wouldn't allow Mas Aska to marry her, but I understand how Zura is doing now. All Zura needed was Mas Aska and Afifah. Let it be, let them get back together, instead of me being selfish and continuing to feel jealous when Mas Aska is close to him, I better allow Mas Aska to marry Azzura.

“I'm going to take a shower, take care of your wedding needs. And, talk about your good intentions to your family, Mas. After I finish the seminar, please marry Azzura,”.

I let go of my husband's embrace, I went to the bathroom, finished my crying. It hurts, but this is the path I have to choose, rather than divorce again, I do not want to divorce again, even though the circumstances are like this.

Somehow why did I easily give permission to Mas Aska who wanted to marry Azzura? Though I hate this situation so much, I hate being cheated on, I hate my love being divided, so hate it. But, why would I allow Mas Aska to marry Azzura? Is it because Azzura is sick? Yeah, maybe because of that. I understand how the person who is in the Azzura position feels.

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I didn't leave the room until noon. Even I left my breakfast. I had wanted to go out for breakfast, but I saw Mas Aska, Azzura, and Afifah having breakfast together with a warm atmosphere, and like a happy family. I abandoned my intention to have breakfast with them. I had just allowed Mas Aska to marry Azzura, but Mas Aska had already forgotten about me. He should have been pleasant to take me to breakfast together, but instead he had breakfast with Azzura and Afifa, I was forgotten.

It's only the first time, and I just got my permission. Just got permission to forget about me, what if you are married? Will he forget me? Until noon Mas Aska is still cool outside? I don't remember I haven't been out of the room at all. Is this what is called fair? Is this what you call loving? Just the trivial thing that he used to do until he forgot?

I came out of the room neatly and was about to leave for the seminar. I approached Mas Aska who was accompanying Azzura on the terrace. It felt so sticky that they got my permission to marry again.

“Mas, I'm leaving now, huh?” pamittu.

“Away, Sal? What time is it?” ask Mas Aska.

“It's almost ten, I've been waiting in the hospital, the car that will take us to the station is ready said my friend,” answered me.

“You sure you don't want me to drop off?”

“No need to mas,” I replied.

If he wants to drive me, why not get ready? It's so weird of you, Mom! How do you remember to drive me, take me to breakfast with him he forgot?

“You haven't had breakfast yet, Sal?” ask Azzura.

“Iya, no. Later on the train, all lunch,” I replied.

“I said yes?” pamittu. Then kissed Mas Aska's hand, and the second time he didn't kiss me on the forehead. Did he forget, or did he feel bad for Zura?

“I say yes, Ma'am?” my pamit to Zura.

“Iya Sal, be careful,” she replied.

“Be careful huh, Darling?” said Mas Aska.

“OK, no one has forgotten this, Mas?” ask me to go fishing, because I want to see if he's sensitive or not.

“Nothing, forgot what, Sal?” ask Mas Aska.

“Oh yes already, I'm leaving, Mas. Taxis are waiting too,” I said.

I took my foot to the taxi I ordered. I asked the taxi driver to put my suitcase in the trunk.

“Iya why, Mas?”

“Some forgot, sorry.” Mas Aska grabbed my body, and hugged me.

“What's forgotten?” I pretended not to know.

“I love you.” He said, then kissed my forehead and kissed the sparkle of my lips.

“I love you too, Mas,” I replied with a smile and then kissed her cheek.

“Come I'm coming.”

“Where to go, Mas?” my many.

“I want to take you to the station,” he replied.

“Then Mbak Zura? Later alone dong mas?” my spoken.

“There are sisters and aunts, she is not alone,” she replied.

“Ra, I take Salma to the station first!” mas Aska shouted, and Mbak Zura nodded his head, waving his hand.

“You guys be careful!” his yell.

I nodded, and smiled at Mbak Zura then we got into the taxi, Mas Aska sat on my side and hugged me.

“Say your friend, meet him station only, bias right?” said Mas Aska.

“Iya can, Mas,” I replied.

“Use the train what time?” tanyakanya.

“That's half twelve,” I replied.

“We can eat first, you haven't had breakfast, right? I'm not good to call you, because you were crying, I know how you feel, and maybe you needed some time alone, so I didn't take you to breakfast together.”.

“Other times don't do that, huh? I'm hungry, I was waiting for you to take me to breakfast, because I was out, but I saw you three were so happy. I'm afraid to bother you guys,” he said.

“You don't either, Sal. I was told by Zura to call you, but I know how you are, so I decided to go with you, accompany you to breakfast outside, before leaving. It's not ten yet, so it's still worth it for breakfast,” he said. “We both learned yes, Sal? Don't feel bad for each other like that, we have to open up to each other, I rebuke when I forget my duty to you, honestly my mind is not careless, Sal. I'm confused, I'm fucked up, my job's all neglected. Don't be like yesterday, you didn't remind me before you left for seminar.”

“Indeed remind what?”

“To kiss me like that. I know you reminded me, someone forgot or not, I deliberately answered no one forgot, let me know how your face expression,” said Mas Aska.

“Ih likes it! Don't be so again!” my tukas.

“Makanya remind me. Because lately my mind hasn't calmed down, Sal. Rebuke me if I'm wrong, Sal. Don't just shut up,” he said.

“Iya, I will remind and admonish mas if mas is wrong,” I replied.

I tightened my arms to Mas Aska. I understand now, I must not feel that Mas Aska is unfair to me. We are still learning together, to live the lives of the three of us.