Loving You in My Way
CHAPTER 125

After getting a spiritual flush from his father and eldest brother everyone now returns to their respective rooms except the Judge who now chooses to go to his office.

The handsome man pressed down several times on the mobile phone screen and called out to someone with anxious feelings.

The ringing of the five calls was just picked up by people across the phone and relieved the man who was now moving towards a large window that leads to a swimming pool that looks calm that night.

"Hello, Assalamu'alaikum yub" he said to the receiver.

"Wa'alaikumsalaam Bang, tumben called at this hour instead of there it was night. Is there a problem ?" ask Ayyub.

"There's little you want to ask, doesn't it bother you ?" ask the judge to make sure.

"Not at all Bang, what is it ?" ask Ayyub.

"Look Yub, you know you now have a life of your own but can't you take us to Neera ?" the judge asked carefully because at this time he knew his sister was having a lover.

"What do you mean by brother ?" ask Ayyub who does not understand the problem.

"Please take us to Neera, is there something you should talk to her about ?" the Judge directly.

"What is it exactly, why did you suddenly want to meet him ?" confused Ayyub.

The judge told me everything that happened in the house from the beginning they saw Neera being told until the past mistakes were revealed which became Neera's suffering so far.

"Astaghfirullahaladzim, I don't know all this time he's been through it. I felt like I was failing to be her husband" said Ayyub, who heard his brother's explanation.

"Here is Jub, all is past. It's not just your fault. Even Papa and Brother also just found out" said the judge encouraging his heart.

"Alright Bang, later Ayyub will try to find it" said Ayyub lethargic.

"Remember a little difficult Yub, I saw earlier in the news like he is currently in England" explained the judge to his sister.

"Good bang" replied Ayyub.

He knew his wife's whereabouts, but now was not the time to reveal it. He still kept this to make his family appreciate Neera more because they knew how hard it was to meet Neera.

"Yes, tell Abang later if there is news and if you can go home. Papa is in a bad state right now" said the judge.

"Yes Bang, Ayyub try to go home in the near future" replied Ayyub.

"Alright, Brother hang up the phone first. Assalamu'alaikum" the final Judge.

"Wa'alaikumsalaam" Ayyub answered, ending the brief call.

Ayyub had broken his heart to find that his wife had been suffering in her own home.

The wife who used to always welcome him with a smile, serve him very well and always speak polite words it turned out to hold a burden that was so heavy.

Just imagine Ayyub could not bear how innocent girl he had edited before he had taken to the hell of a luxury masked life.

Who would have thought that behind his small body Neera had to survive alone in the waves that increasingly swayed his life.

It seemed that Ayyub did not have any more face to face his wife, at once he doubted whether he could take care of Neera after what the woman he loved was going through.

Whether Neera could be happy with him even during this tribulation he had received. If sorted from beginning to end then it can be ascertained Neera who always fought alone without any himself.

Is it worth it to be Neera's companion. Can Neera accept it once more after what happened last time, the mistakes she made continue to hurt her wife.

Can he guarantee that his family will never hurt Neera again. Can he be the shield that protects his son and wife and most importantly will Neera return to her arms when she believes there are far better men out there who dream of Neera and treat women it's like a princess.

Why should he know this truth now. Yes, even though he knew the great woman who became his wife would not even want to demonize his parents.

But why at that time he did not say everything, Neera only said that he left because he was accused of infidelity in the hotel and threatened by Vina and her family.

Not even once did he talk about the torture he had endured in the Emperor's household.

However, may if he is selfish this time alone, it is not possible without Neera. He would lose his way if Neera was snatched away and taken away.

How he will survive while his soul has been forcibly uprooted, Neera and the triplets are his life. He could not imagine if they had to separate and forever he could not see his son and wife again.

Let it be this time, Ayyub will thicken his face and he will rest even if it is necessary to prostrate an apology and ask Neera to stay by his side.

This time he promised to put his wife first. Pay more attention to Neera and keep her heart as good as possible. He would bandage Neera's wounds with himself.

The greater the guilt, the higher the desire to go home and embrace his lover.

'God help me this time, give me and my wife strength. Put us together in this beautiful knot of marriage. Give us a bright path in the face of all these household tempests. Guide the servant to be the best husband for Neera and enable us to face this ordeal with your guidance. Only to You do we ask and only to You do we ask. God of all Nature. Amiin' do'a Ayyub.

Meanwhile, in other parts of the country, a woman is sitting contemplating the problems that are now pressing her heart.

It is impossible to let the problem drag on like this, is not always what he does when dealing with Ayyub.

Always avoid and run away from problems. Contrary to how it works to deal with problems in work. At that time he will immediately solve the problem.

Perhaps the love and fear of losing so much made him a coward. To be honest Neera could not afford to have them split up but she also had to prepare for the worst possible situation.

Neera thought about this carefully, weighing the bad good. If they get back together whether he himself can break away from the shadows of the past.

Nor could Neera guarantee that Ayyub would not make the same mistake in the future. She was afraid that one day her heart would never forgive again.

Whether the Ayyub family would accept him and the triplets or even they repel him back. Neera should be prepared for that possibility.

However, if he chooses to give up whether his heart is ready to let go. He must be able to stand on his own because nothing else will sustain and protect them.

Neera also had to think of the fruit of her love that would grow without a father figure on their side. A month apart has made them fall ill because they miss their father. What happens if they are separated forever.

Maybe he should face the Instructor to find a solution to the problem he faces. Ask for instructions on which decision to make.

Only between himself and God. The Lord knows his heart. Nothing else, Neera only kept it to herself because she did not want to burden anyone including her parents.

Then that night he made fun and indulged with his Lord. On the prayer mat in the silence of the night he raised his hand to convey his heart. Looking back in a blob of his feelings and begging to be given strength and patience.

After pouring out everything now his chest felt a little airy, his mind was also calmer.

Finished teaching Neera to clean up the prayer equipment and save the Qur'an then do a series of skin care and lie down with triplets on the mattress.

When to close your eyes for a moment, rest the body and mind that have worked hard today. May tomorrow be better than today.