Madaharsa
Chapters 20. Birthday of the Bar.
There is nothing that hurts Mada the most right now, other than seeing the girl she loves lying in a hospital bed in a state of concern. Mada's heart is clearly broken knowing what really happened to Binar.
His soul was suddenly rolled up by the mounting feelings of guilt. Moreover, when Binar did not also welcome his hand. The girl even had to shout loudly to reject the presence of Mada and expel him. However, Artanti tries to convince Binar to meet Mada. Kendari actually Endra did not agree, but thanks to his wife, he also agreed to the presence of Mada.
Now there are only two of them there. Dissolved into a suffocating silence. Binar chose to throw her face away, as Mada looked at her deeply. Binar could see there were many things implied on Mada's face.
"There's no need to feel sorry for me, I don't deserve to be pitied!" said the girl was cold.
"Who loves you?" mada.
"You! I know very well the meaning of your gaze! That's why I hate that other people know."
Hearing the words of Binar, the look on Mada's face increasingly looks cloudy. "I never pity you!" emphatically.
Binar. The tears that had fallen soaked the girl's cheeks. Mada was about to help, but Binar fiercely brushed off his hand. He returned angry and expelled Mada while saying he did not want to meet her. Some items were even thrown by Binar towards Mada. However, Mada tried hard to hold Binar by hugging him tightly.
I don't know how many times Mada said sorry to Binar. Sorry for ever leaving him first, sorry for not returning and choosing to resign to their relationship, sorry because it is not he who invites them to return to the past, and last ... sorry that Mada was unaware of Binar's condition.
Barin was crying hard. His originally rebellious hand was now firmly gripping Mada's clothes. The two cried, channeling each other's feelings.
Binar could no longer hide from Mada.
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Since their meeting at that time, Mada almost every day visited the hospital to accompany Binar. Not infrequently he even stayed there alternating with the Binar family.
Mada's family had known about Binar's condition and had visited him some time ago. Wilhelmina and her husband did not forbid Mada to focus on accompanying Binar, what else they knew how much she felt about the girl. And vice versa.
Still attached to Wilhelmina's memory, Mada's tears that he had not seen in years, that night flowed profusely down his cheeks.
In his arms, Mada asked permission to continue to be able to accompany Binar.
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A few days later.
Today is the thirty-first birthday of Binar. It had been since the morning of Endra and Artanti asking what Binar wanted to do to celebrate his birthday.
"There's no need to do anything, Dad, Mom," replied the gentle Binar. His face was now increasingly thin and pale, with a weight of only thirty-nine kilograms. Instead of a wik attached to the head of Binar, the girl actually wears a hat made by the mother. He no longer wants to wear wik because it is too troublesome and a little loose.
"It can't be, son," said Artanti.
Binar smiled faintly and returned to shake. The girl then looked around her room to find someone. "Where's Mom?" ask Binar.
"Ah, Mada permission today does not come because there is an office business. Maybe it will come at midnight" replied Artanti.
"We really don't want to celebrate?" ask Endra. The father also opened his voice when he realized the sad look of Binar. Maybe he felt disappointed because on his birthday, Mada did not come.
"Yes, Dad." Binar lay down on the bed. Artanti helps envelop her body and lets the girl sleep.
Just in the afternoon, Binar was awakened by two nurses.
"What's up, Nurse?" binar asked in astonishment, because the two nurses asked him to come along. This afternoon he had no schedule.
"There is further examination, Binar," replied one of the nurses who was his age.
"What check?" ask Binar again with a worried look.
"Only regular checks in the lab. You don't have to worry" said the other nurse.
Even Binar would not obey them. With his wheelchair he went with the two nurses to the first floor. However, when out of the elevator instead of heading to the laboratory in question, the nurse instead pushed the wheelchair Binar an empty room that is usually used meetings and events held by the hospital.
"Nurse, why are we here?" ask Binar wonder.
The two nurses did not answer at all and only smiled.
The room they entered was completely dark. The frightened binar asked to return to his treatment room. A second later, the lights of the room were bright.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" A group of people who were in there simultaneously said a piece of the sentence.
Binar. Because dozens of people who were there were relatives and friends during the school of Binar. Not only that, the two parents of Binar, Kak Genta, and both parents of Mada (with Mada himself) were present there.
Mada who holds a birthday cake walks over to Binar.
"Happy birthday Bi," said Mada Lirih.
"What'sthis? You tell them all? I'm ashamed!" whispered Binar with wet eyes.
"There's no shame, dear, Mom and Dad told them. You know, you're so lonely here, right?" Artanti Ijut came forward to Binar.
Binar. He felt very lonely in the hospital. However, the girl was too afraid to tell others. That is why he is no longer active in the school chat group, because Binar does not want to be looked at with pity by them.
Mada suddenly made a sound, singing a happy birthday song in a pretty vibrant tone. The room was boisterous again because they all sang the song.
After singing the song, Mada thrust the cake in front of Binar and asked him to blow the candle that was still burning.
In one breath Binar blew the candle out. His Do'a is only one, which is to hope that everyone who is there, especially the father, mother, Genta, and Mada, can continue to be happy even without him later.
I love all of you. Inner Binar.