Madaharsa
Chapter 4. Still Linked to You.

The atmosphere in Mada's car was quite quiet. I who do not know what to discuss finally chose to keep quiet and enjoy the atmosphere of the night that still looks crowded.

I occasionally glanced at Mada who seemed focused on the streets. From this close distance I could clearly see his dazzling firm jaw. Mada looked gallant even though his body was not large. Only then did I realize, Mada was now really mature. It was clear, because our age had entered the head of three and I still imagined the figure of Mada teenagers.

I also silently watched Mada's two fingers holding the wheel. There was not a single ring around there, a sign that the man was not married.

I try not to feel happy, because Mada may not be wearing her wedding ring.

Thinking about it, I became restless myself. Want to ask directly I did not dare because Mada would definitely consider myself presumptuous.

The feeling of being able to enjoy the moment with Mada, suddenly changed to weigh on my heart.

"Boring huh?" Seeing me daydream of all the bad possibilities of Mada's status, made the man rebuke me.

I flinched in surprise and smiled thinly. "Not really. I love silence like this" I replied.

"I knew. Therefore, I deliberately did not turn on the music ... You've heard enough noise at the party," said the man as he continued to look at the streets.

I laughed, though I didn't know what I was laughing at. Could it be because he still remembered the little things about me, or the others.

"I didn't expect you to remember my habits." I finally got the courage to make a sound. I want to see Mada's reaction.

Mada stopped her car right at the traffic light, then turned her head towards me. "Of course I still remember everything about you, Binar."

The breeze of the wind seemed to sweep away my hair, when our eyes met together. His voice when calling my name carries its own vibration that I cannot afford to dim.

My heart really hasn't been able to shift Mada from its place. She was the first love I could not forget.

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"We've arrived." Mada stopped the car right in front of my house. Dad's car is still parked in the yard, which means, you really didn't pick me up.

"It's a good thing I didn't leave you" Mada said as if she knew what I was thinking. Hey, why is she now more like a psychic?

I grimaced. "Thank you for driving me. Sorry to be such a hassle" I said unkindly.

"No problem." Answer Mada.

"Then I go in first. Again sorry for making you late, your wife must have been waiting."

Mada just smiled at my words.

Heart melos. Mada did not refute what I said just now, which means he really already has a wife. Suddenly empty soul.

I got out of the car in lethargic steps, then stood right in front of the fence waiting for Mada who was turning his car.

My mind is really tangled. Unknowingly Mada stopped her car in front of me. "I go home first, Bi," he said gently as he opened the car's glass.

I nodded, trying to display the best smile I had. Let me enjoy our farewell moments once more, for tomorrow I promise to forget them.

"Be careful."

Hearing that I scrunched my forehead. What happened to Mada? Why would he want to talk about us when he's married?

"All right." Instead of asking the point, I even agreed to Mada's invitation. Aih, how brazen my mouth is, why would he prefer to obey the contents of my heart that still wants to be with him!

Mada smiles. "I don't have to worry about someone you're with right now, do I?" ask again.

I get the point.

Of course not, Mada! I'm the one who's worried about that! I don't want to look like an ex-teaser to people's husbands!

"No!" firmly answer.

Mada was silent for a moment. "Okay, because I am too." Mada then honks her horn once, then leaves for me.

I was overwhelmed at the place while busy digesting Mada's words just now. My face flushed red as soon as I realized what Mada meant.

Stupid mada! Why didn't he argue when I was talking about his wife? He was really smart to make my heart waver.

Shame about my bad thoughts that could haunt, I rush into the house. Apparently mom was scolding my sleeping father and forgot to pick me up.

"Shine, you're home, son!" exclaim mom worried. The woman was holding both my arms while watching my body from head to toe.

Dad also held me. He apologized for not hearing a short message and phone call from me. The two then charged me with various questions.

"It's okay, Dad, Mom, I was home with a friend" I replied.

"Who?"

"Who is he?" ask mom and dad almost simultaneously.

I was silent for a moment. Father and mother will definitely be excited if I mention the name Mada. Of course because they knew about our relationship first.

"Mada." Answer's short.

It's true what I thought before. Father and mother are now seen laughing and frenzied themselves like the teenage gossip boy. They asked Kronlogi how we could go home together.

Not that I was upset, I laughed. They are funny parents and I love them so much. I also told him briefly about our meeting there, until how we could go home together. Not to forget about Mada's invitation to come to his studio.

"Well, I'm so glad to hear that! Yeah, right, Dad?" said mother to father while hitting his back.

Dad nodded his head. While I grimace. Dad even unconsciously, hoping we can re-establish the relationship that had run aground.

Hearing that, my eyes turned soft. "It can, Dad? If you can ...." I intentionally did not continue my words.

As if aware of what he said, I immediately apologized. "I'm sorry, Daddy. Father ... Dad, just want to see you happy like everyone else in general," said the father is not happy.

I smiled knot. "I'm, right, happy to have such amazing parents." I embraced the bodies of my parents together to reduce the sadness that had appeared.

Just once I wanted to forget everything about myself now and live as a Binar five years ago.