We, From The First
#26. We Are Breaking Up!
"There will be a point of disgust even for a struggle. The wait also needs an end... WIN OR LOSE! After this, hopefully there will be no more regrets that become the cause of all the tightness."
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During this week, Nana did not stop thinking about the decision she would take. After going through such a long thought, and after he was finally able to weigh, Nana also made up her resolve to release Nico. Just like his promise as he expressed his feelings for the last time on Nico back then.
It's not just about Nico slowly getting away from him, it's not just about him starting to realize that Nico's heart was never for him. Nana thinks that even if Aira does not come back in Nico's life, she will still make this decision.
Because for Nana now, to make her mother happy, and to be able to get out of all the difficulties of her life is a dream that she must fulfill first. And he wants to focus there.
After all, Nana knew very well how Nico had been. Although Nico never really loved him, he knew that Nico was very good. He would not have the courage to hurt someone intentionally. It was better for Nana to end their relationship first. Because just in that way, Nico would not hold any regrets in him.
Nana doesn't want Nico to think that she hurt him. Nana didn't want Nico to continue living in that thought. So, just let Nana stop him.
Nana then looked at the back of Nico who was sitting right in front of her. Not long after, he got up from his seat and approached Nico.
"Nick..." Call slowly.
Nico who was finishing his History record immediately took off his earphones and looked at Nana who was already standing next to him.
"Why, Na?"
"I want to talk to you. Now." Now."
"But, Na. I'm rubbing my catetan now."
"Nic, if I don't talk right now, I'll change my mind." Timpal Nana with a serious tone.
Nico seemed to think. Not long after, he seemed able to catch the signal that Nana gave. Nico then took off his pen, and followed Nana who had walked first to leave the class.
Right now, they were already standing face to face in the school garden. The place where Nana used to express her feelings for Nico. The place where Nico used to say 'yes' to her, and asked her out.
"What are you talking about, Na?" Nico stared right at the two eyes of Nana who was also looking at him.
"Nic, I got a scholarship to continue my studies in Germany. You know, I've been making this my target for a long time?"
Nico nodded slowly in response. Suddenly, his feeling began to feel uncomfortable. He then said, "it looks like you have a decision..."
"Yes. I have a decision!" Nana answered confidently without the slightest hesitation.
Before continuing, Nana was seen letting out a long sigh. He even clenched both of his hands.
"You should know this, Nic. Whatever I'm going to say now, or whatever happens to us after this, it's not your fault. It's not because of you, or because of anyone. It's purely from my decision, wanting to focus on my goals, and being able to achieve my goals."
"Ma..."
Nana then lowered her head for a while. He sighed softly, and raised his face again, venturing into Nico's eyes.
"We broke up, huh?"
This time Nico was a little taken back. He also realized, that no matter how hard he tried so far to be able to accept Nana fully, he always failed. He always loses against his heart. But even so, Nico was already used to Nana. Letting go of him suddenly and suddenly like this, would still be a difficult thing for him to do.
"I really appreciate your efforts all along, Nic. I know all the work you've done for me. So even if you don't succeed now, it's not your fault. Hm?"
"I'm sorry, Na." Answer Nico slowly. This time it was his turn to bow his head.
Nana also grabbed one of Nico's hands, she slightly lowered her head to see Nico's face more clearly.
"Thank you, yeah, you wanna try? I'm sorry, because I could never really put you on one of my priority lists."
"I understand."
This time they looked at each other, then both fell upon each other. Maybe they were just pretending to be strong over the decision Nana had chosen. But hopefully after this, there is no more regret that becomes the cause of all the tightness.
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Upon returning from school, when entering his room, Nico's attention was suddenly drawn to Nana's gift located at his study desk. Nico recalled that he had not yet opened the gift.
Nico steps up to his desk. He took the gift and sat back on his bed. With a heavy feeling, Nico also opened a gift from Nana. It turned out to be a basketball keychain. A pretty simple, yet understanding gift like Nana.
Nana who always understood the hobby of playing basketball Nico. Nana who always understands what is in Nico's heart and mind. And Nana who always understood for all things Nico. However, he only understands Nico. He never really knew how to win Nico's heart.
Nico then reads the greeting card Nana wrote for him.
Dear, Nico...
Happy birthday, Nico. May you live long. I am one of those people who always hope that happiness will always be with you every step of the way. I will pray for it every day.
Sorry, yeah, just give me this. I love you as always, Nic.
^^^Love, Nana^^
After reading the greeting card, Nico took the keychain from its place, then looked at it with sadness. Both of his eyes suddenly felt hot. The words that Nana wrote in the greeting card, as well as the simple gift that Nana gave, somehow made Nico's heart feel sad.
One thing that makes Nico's heart feel so full is the striking difference between the gift given by Aira and Nana. They are similar, but they have very different lives.
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While being focused on learning, Nana's phone suddenly shook. He just received a chat from Nico with a photo attachment. Nana shifted her focus for a moment, then opened the chat that Nico sent.
Nana had already typed a few sentences to reply to Nico's chat. But after he thought again, Nana decided to remove it and did not send a reply to Nico. In addition, Nana also removed the heart mark that she pinned behind the name Nico in her contact list. Nana puts her phone back on the table.
A few seconds after that, Nana's tears suddenly fell on top of her notebook. Slowly the sounding. Both his shoulders are shaking.
And, Nana spent the rest of the night with her long cry.
To Be Continued...^^^