A Hot Selebgram
Early Change

I think I've been asleep for a long time. It's time for me to wake up. I opened my eyes slowly, getting used to it as a dazzling bright light hit my eyes. I was a little confused to find myself in a white room. Am I dead already? Am I in heaven? But heaven won't accept people who die by suicide, so where am I?

The smell of the disinfectant and the sound of the doctor calling my name made me realize that I was in the hospital. I'm not dead yet. I'm still alive!

"Without? Can you hear Papa?" asked Papa with his voice trembling with tears.

I can only answer "Yes." weakly.

The doctor began to check on me. I slowly began to remember the events when Arya betrayed me until I committed suicide. I remembered the wounds and grudges in my burning heart.

Papa was so happy when he found out that his real daughter had come to her senses. He hugged me affectionately, making me feel guilty for wasting my life just for the sake of that damn man.

I wiped my tears and realized that I had not worn my glasses. I feel like there's something else inside me. Why can I see clearly? When Papa gave me my repaired glasses, I didn't need them anymore.

Miraculously, as if the river water was able to make my minus eyes heal in an instant. I can see without the help of glasses. Though I should have had a lasik operation if I wanted to lower the minus in my eyes.

Wait, river water? I remember that I killed myself. What about the girl holding my hand? He saved me, what's his fate now?

I also asked Papa how Agni, a beautiful selebgram who was instrumental in saving me. I wanted to thank you but Papa said Agni was dead. He died saving my life?

I was so devastated when I heard it. So, I've made someone else die for helping me? Why is my life like this? Why am I such a bad person?!

I cry regretting what I did. Why should I make someone else die? I should have just died! Me! The weakest and most useless man on earth!

Papa panicked to see me so shocked and crying hysterically then called the doctor, I was given a sedative injection and fell asleep. As I fell asleep, I saw some fragments of the story in my dreams. I dreamt that I was a selebgram. I dreamt that I could be healthy and run free.

Then I woke up. I realized, it wasn't my dream. Is that Agni's dream? Why do I dream of becoming Agni?

I feel very indebted to Agni. After the hospital, I asked Papa to take me to Agni's grave. There I apologized to Agni and cried regretfully.

Papa then took me home. I feel guilty and hurt. I don't want to see Aunt Sofie who keeps pretending to be nice to me just to find Papa's face. I also don't want to meet Anggi who has already cursed me!

Papa doesn't know that Anggi and Arya's affair that makes me desperate to kill myself. Papa who was so indifferent to me and more concerned about the company is now very concerned about me.

Every night I start having weird dreams again. I'm dreaming to be a selebgram tonight. I could speak in front of the camera with confidence and I woke up happy.

"Lara, eat son. You have to eat to be strong and heal." Papa said.

I stared at the food Papa brought me. Strong? Yes, Papa was right. I must be strong to take all my revenge!

"Father bribe you, son!" said Papa lovingly.

"Ehem!" the voice of Aunt Sofie. "Let's just have Pa bribe Lara" said Aunt Sofie, who again sought attention in front of Papa.

"Don't! Just papa!" regardless of where the courage that came from within me, I now dare to refuse Aunt Sofie's request, in front of Papa again! Things I've never done before.

"Papa's love, Ra. Let Auntie take a bribe!" Aunt Sofie started acting like I was the child she loved, but it was she who had been mendzholimiku all along. Forgot if he ever threw my face in a dirty rag?

"Whoever bribes, or Lara won't eat!" wow, I even threatened Aunt Sofie! So great of me!

"Have it, let me!" papa said he took food from his wife's hand. "Eat a lot, baby!"

Aunt Sofie felt humiliated in front of her husband by me the Cupu. He clenched his hand holding in anger and walked out of my room.

I smiled happily. Why haven't I fought Aunty Sofie and Anggi for a long time? Why should I just shut up to see them treat me so arbitrarily?

Papa bribed me while looking at me sadly. Papa thinks I'm still sad over Agni's passing, I think of Papa's fate. I don't want Aunt Sofie to fuck Papa, the only parent I have.

"You know, honey, sometimes fate is cruel. But do you know why you survived and the boy didn't?" ask Papa. I shook my head.

"Although he survived his age will not be long. He has stage 4 blood cancer that makes his life soon. His decision to save you was a worship service that He did in the last moments of his life. What you need to do is not lament the situation. He was not angry and wasted the opportunity he gave. You just have to prove to Agni that the opportunity of life that He gives, you will make the best use of it. Show Agni that you deserve that chance!"

Yes, Papa was right. Agni gave me a second chance and I don't want to waste the opportunity she gave me. I must be strong and avenge Anggi. I should also be able to protect Papa from Aunt Sofie's evil intentions.

"Pa, can Lara ask for something?" my many.

"certain. What are you gonna ask for?" ask Papa Handaka. I have a request means there is a spirit of life. This is what Papa wants in me.

To carry out all my plans, I need capital. "Lara wants money with Papa. Lara wants a better car than Anggi."

Papa scrunched his forehead. His humble daughter asks for money and a car? I don't usually act like this. "What do you do, honey?"

"Lara wants to enjoy life, Pa. May it?"

Papa pulled out his ATM card. "His "pin is your date of birth. Wear it! Papa knows you'd be wise to wear it. If it's a car, Papa will have Papa's secretary bring it for you. What car do you want?"

"Ferrari!"

Papa Handaka was very surprised. "Wow! A ferrari?"

"Can you, Pa?"

"certain... Sure, Honey! Sure did! As long as you are happy, Papa will be happy!"

I hugged Papa lovingly. In my heart I am determined to protect Papa and to destroy those who have hurt me. "Thank you, Pa. Papa don't worry, Lara will use the trust that Papa gave her best!"

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I opened my closet. "Well, why is my shirt all geeky? I have to modify it!"

I remember my dream of being a selebgram. I took her HP and started recording as I modified my old clothes.

"Hi's Beautiful! I'm Lara Handaka going to document my make over from being this cute to being cool. Today I will modify the old clothes I have! Follow me on!" I didn't think that I could talk like a selebgram used to talking in front of the camera. I am usually shy and nervous.

With the camera still on, I picked up a blouse with a typical '70s balloon arm. I have several clothes in the same style, understand that they are all relics when my mother was alive.

I took the scissors and cut the sleeves into sleeveless clothes that look much more fashionable.

I checked my pants in my closet. The cutbray pants I used to wear were also remodeled. I cut the pants up the thigh. I then put on the pants and the sleeveless blouse that I modified. The results were so cool in my body. Wow, I really do have another ability in me!

"Where? Cooler, right? This style can be used when hanging out with your friends! It's not old anymore, is it? Still wondering if I want to see my next change? Keep going!" I spoke again in front of the camera.

I put the camera facing the glass. My hair is so limp because it always wears hair oil. "This is okay, beautiful! I changed a little!"

I took the video as I walked into the bathroom and washed my hair with shampoo. After that I dried it with my hair dryer and my hair I tied a horse.

"It's better, yeah, it's beautiful! At least for a while!" I moved the camera to the front of the mirror. I'll make content about simple make up.

I turned on the camera again and displayed my face as I made-up with the makeshift tools. Wearing lipbalm and seeing my better face.

"Where's my appearance? Better isn't it? Curious about my next appearance? Follow the story of Lara Handaka.... Bye-bye Beautiful! Muachh!" I ended the video after giving kissbye. All this I will edit and later I will upload on my social media and Youtube of course.

I don't know why I'm so happy to video myself. I feel like what I do will inspire others. So that no more cute girls are insulted and betrayed just because of appearance, as I feel.

I put my phone away when Auntie knocked on the door and told me it was time for lunch. I went downstairs and went to the dining room. There is already Anggi, Aunt Sofie and Papa of course. Everyone was surprised to see my new look.

"Bi, want the juice!" without waiting for aunt's answer, I took the juice in the tray that aunt brought.

"That's my juice!" yelled Anggi, not accepting what I was doing.

"Pig! You can ask Auntie again!" Aunt Sofie scolded Anggi for yelling in front of her husband.

"Not a Aunt. Lara will return it. Lara's not drinking yet!" I walked over, and then I acted as if there was something on the floor that made me almost fall...

Byurs....

The juice in my hand I spilled all over Anggi's face.

"Oh my goodness Anggi! Sorry yeah... Excuse me... I didn't mean it!" I put on a guilty face.

"It's okay, Ra. Let Anggi clean up later!" again Aunt Sofie is not defending her son even looking for the face of her husband.

"Sorry, Aunt. Lara was willing to slip, Lara's hand was not strong enough to hold the juice. Understandably, Lara's pain has not recovered properly!" my reasons sound so convincing.

Anggi just dumbfounded to see my acting skills. His mother did not defend him. He must have known that I had lied and now he was the victim!

Papa then approached me who was still putting on a face pretending to be sorry. "It's okay, honey! You just healed. It's nothin. Anggi is not angry with you. Let's eat!"

Papa led me until I sat in the dining chair, Papa then spoke to Anggi who was very upset because his face was wet but should not show his irritation. "You get changed, Gi!"

Angry Anggi left the dining room with a wet face and hair with the juice I spilled. Just like her mom doused me back then. I smiled in my heart. "This is just the beginning. I will change and will repay you for what you have done to me! Just look at it later!"

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