A Hot Selebgram
Daydreamed

Lara

I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I didn't realize that Ditya had returned home. "Who? Why are the lights off, honey?" ask Ditya.

"You're home yet? I fell asleep, so I darkened the lights." I lied to Ditya. In fact, so much I was too engrossed with my mind I did not realize that the room lights since I had not turned on.

"Yes. You I came home was not there and was sleeping in this dark room." said Ditya. Fortunately, he didn't know that I was just daydreaming.

"Would you eat or not? Or take a shower?" ask me about Ditya.

"I think I took a shower. My body is so sticky. All day back and forth to some places until the dryness and heat. I'll go straight to the dinner table if I'm done showering." replied Ditya.

"alright. I warmed up what I was cooking. You take a shower, the towel I put in the bathroom and the change of clothes later I provide on the bed."

"Ready, Honey!" He complied and went straight into the bathroom. I don't want to keep daydreaming. My work is waiting. Now, I have to serve my husband who's gone home from work.

I picked up a change of clothes for Ditya, a t-shirt and shorts that looked comfortable when he wore it at home. After that, I went to the kitchen. Take the side dish I cooked and also warm the honey tea for Ditya to drink in the microwafe. I saw the clock in the living room, it turned out to be almost nine and a half.

It's late, and Ditya just got home. I have been busy daydreaming ever since until I don't know the time. I kept thinking about having a double personality. I was afraid that my unstable nature like this would one day hurt Ditya. However, to speak honestly to my husband, I honestly could not. I was too scared to lose everything.

I'm waiting for Ditya to arrive at the dinner table. I tried to remember again what my advantages were after waking up from a coma. One thing that bothered me was a strange dream. Why do I dream of Agni so much? Then, I seemed to have known some places even though I had never been there.

A chicken noodle meal with Ditya, for example. I even saw a silhouette and felt like de javu was there. In fact, I've never been there at all. Is this my subconscious? Or was it my other personality who had been here without me knowing?

From what I've read, people with multiple personalities like not realizing they've been somewhere. They assumed they had never been to that place before. In fact, another personality is taking over his body and making him go to that place. Over time, his memory began to disappear. Because it is only owned by one personality. This is what I don't want.

"That's right! Dreaming moved! It was in the room, now in the living room. What the hell do you think, honey?" tanya Ditya who has now taken a shower and joined the dining table. The smell of soap immediately smelled. It was fresh and fragrant like when I just came home.

"No. I just thought about Bima's words again this afternoon. I was in Bima's place and we were selecting for some products that we would endorse. Maybe I'm tired because daydreaming has become the most delicious thing." I said reasoned.

"Anyways, daydreaming is not good. Stay focused on yourself. I do not want, your attitude and your personality changes if you daydream later. I like you like this. You are gentle, loving and patient." why did Ditya discuss this?

I became suspicious. It seems, Ditya has also realized that in me there are other personalities who are very different from me. Then what should I do? Ask Ditya directly? If he thinks I'm crazy what?

"Why the hell? You still daydreaming? Is your problem really that heavy? Here, same story me. We are now husband and wife. We have to shoulder the problems together" said Ditya wisely.

"It's no problem. I'm just thinking about it again. Bima also said what you told me. Exact same. About me who is sometimes gentle and also me who is sometimes brave. Yes, my personality is like this. Sometimes I am very brave. If you could choose, what would you like me?" I served the honey tea that I had heated for Ditya.

He drank it and I knew he loved my honey tea. The body is tired, need honey intake to keep the body's endurance so as not to get sick easily. Natural honey is also good compared to using additional vitamins.

"Your nature is different? Hm. if I can be honest, I really like your attitude as it is now. Innocent, innocent, and meek. But I also like your bold and firm attitude. Indeed, within each person there are two different personalities. Example me. In front of employees, I must act as a strong leader and dare to make every decision. But behind them I am still a Ditya. I love you, I can show you the other side of me. That's a natural thing. We just don't know each other yet." said Ditya wisely.

It is also true what Ditya said. We need to get to know each other better. Including myself, I need to get to know more about my true nature and personality. Especially after the suicide attempt at that time, I felt myself was completely different. I don't know what the cause is. Sometimes strange dreams come almost every night and make me seem to know her past Agni.

Honestly, I trust my own gut feeling more. I believe more that in me there are two different personalities and two different people. The words of Ditya I regard as mere entertainers. I'll figure it all out.

First of all, I'm going to the Bridge of Love. I will remember the memory of the events of that time. Although it hurts, I have to face it. I can't keep dodging and letting these two personalities bother me for long. I had to recover some of my buried memories from being too painful.

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