A Hot Selebgram
Opening Memories of the Past

The next day, after Ditya left for work, I also went to the place where the bad memories were still stored until now. I walked slowly to the Bridge of Love. I try to remember what happened back then.

I remember walking past a woman who was crying. That woman is Agni. He held a piece of paper containing the results of his diagnosis. I saw a little bit of the name of the hospital there. Surely the results are not good, as evidenced by He who constantly cries while lamenting the paper.

I didn't linger seeing Agni. I then walked towards the side next to it, deliberately giving it a bit of distance. At that time, my mind was upset and I was too sad to find out that Arya was having an affair with Anggi.

I have no spirit of life anymore. I wanted to end my life but a million considerations were on my mind. What about Papa when I'm not around? How does Papa feel?

If I don't jump and still exist in this world, I will continue to be insulted by Anggi and Arya of course. I will continue to see the affection of those who make my heart hurt even more later. I will accept humiliation for the sake of humiliation again from the two of them.

Then suddenly I felt my throat a little scratchy. I don't have any drinking water. Most of them were crying so my throat was dry. I remember I had a candy bar given to me by a taxi driver. Instead of coughing, I'd rather eat candy. There is no harm in eating sweet things before I end my life. I opened the candy and threw the wrapper away.

Wrap the pink candy and fly, I don't care where I fly. Then, while eating the sweet candy, I thought of my life which was not sweet at all.

Such a deep feeling of betrayal made my heart constantly feel pain and sadness at the same time. I don't want everything to happen to me. I'm shy. I've claimed to be Arya's lover, but all this time I've only been used by her!

Then I felt sure of what I was going to do. I'm just gonna kill myself. Papa will definitely be fine with Aunt Sofie who has always loved him because of the treasure. Papa wouldn't stupidly give up his entire fortune to Aunt Sofie.

I'm sure, after my departure Arya will definitely be very happy to see me go. He has got Anggi who has everything compared to me. No one will cry over my body when it is found. No one will be sad to lose me but Papa, no!

If only I could return to this world with a brave soul to face all the problems. I wish I could live happier in this world. If I could marry someone other than Arya who has been so mean to me and use me alone? It was all just a dream that never materialized.

I want to jump down. I want to get out of this world. I glanced to the left and to the right, no one noticed me. No cars or motorcycles passed around this Love Bridge. No one will ever know if I jumped off this bridge.

I also started climbing the bridge. On the count of three I will let go of my hand and fall down and then I will drown with the river water that will somehow take me where.

One...

Two...

Ti-ti

I haven't jumped yet, a hand reached me and blocked my path.

Agni.... That selebgram attracted me. He nagged me and asked why I should waste my life?

I'm upset. I was annoyed at everyone including Agni. Who her? Why should he interfere in my business?

I don't want to hear advice from anyone anymore. I just want to go and forget everything. I just wanted to hide the shame and hurt that was lingering inside me.

I went into the water and realized soon my death would come. I don't want to try to breathe anymore. I wanted to leave this world, but again Agni tried to save me. With his swimming ability, he pulled and led me to the riverbank.

I began to lose consciousness because a lot of water was getting into my lungs. But I still saw, as Agni slipped and finally fell and was carried away by the current. Then I don't know what happened again.

Wasn't it! It wasn't me who killed Agni! I'm not a murderer! Agni died from falling into a dipper, not from falling down with me from the bridge.

I have to explain everything to Agni's family. I have to tell his family that I'm not the killer. Where should I find Agni? I wiped away the tears that were dripping down my cheek. Quickly, I stopped a taxi and I went to Bima's house.

I immediately ran and went into Bima's room. The child as usual is choosing products that we will endorse.

"Male! You have to help me!" I entered without a greeting and immediately sat next to him wearing a headset. He was surprised by my arrival.

"Ngagetin is a child! What the hell is going on? I'm choosing endorsements for you to take! Don't like that shit! Now I do not have heart disease, but if it is kept the same you later on can I really have heart disease know!" namel Bima.

"Bim, will you help me?" ask me with the most serious facial mimic.

"Help what? If I could, I would help you!" reply Bima.

"But I'm asking you to be able to keep secrets. Just know it. Believe me, I have no evil intentions."

"Yes. I believe in you." said Bima. "What do you want to help?"

"Do you know any of Agni's selebgrams who were said to have died by suicide?"

"Think. He was quite famous at the time. If not wrong, he became one of the influential selebgrams. The content is also good and educational. Why indeed? Tumben so much do you care for each other's business?" ask Bima full of search.

"Can you find out what his origins are like? I want to know where Agni lived, what her childhood was, where her family was." I deliberately asked about her family last, so that Bima did not suspect. I just want to know who his family is.

"You why the hell? It's getting weird to know? You wear nyari know about people who have died. Why try? Did you know Agni before?" Bima turned out to be suspicious and lodged a protest against me.

"Maybe... Maybe I know Agni. You can help me, right? If you don't want to help me, will I find someone else?!" threaten me firmly.

"Wrink! Ja. I'm gonna find out. You sit down first!"

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