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Bima My Best Friend

Lara

"You're not serious, are you, Ra? You must be kidding, right? No way, Ra. There's no way you're going to kill yourself and there's no way Agni could have saved you! The world is not that small! You must have told a story, right? You must be acting again, right? Where do you want to cast? Your acting is very natural!" apparently since I told you Bima absolutely did not believe what I told you.

"You don't believe what I'm saying, Bim? To be honest, I can't tell this story to my Papa. It's our family secret. I just told it to you. Wh why? Because you are my best friend! This is a disgrace to me. This is the biggest failure of my life, Bim. I regret what I did. But I can't go back to the past. Everything has already happened. I regret. If it wasn't for me committing suicide, Agni might still be alive today!" I was not strong and finally shed tears, I cried sobbing.

Bima. He took a tissue and stretched it out to me. "To be honest, I find it hard to believe it, Ra. But I know, you're honest. This made me not want to believe it. How can you, who I know so well, are patient and like to defend me, not even be able to defend yourself? Even you lost and finally decided to end your own life?! I'm the angry one! I'm angry at myself. Where was I then? If we meet before you act recklessly, I will be the first to ban you! I'll save you too, not Agni! I'll jump off that bridge and I'll probably die!" bima said with fire.

"No! I don't want you to die because I'm Bim... I don't want to huaaa.." My crying just got louder.

Bima approached and hugged me. "I'm sorry, Ra. I'm sorry I met you so late!"

O Allah the Milky... Why are you so good at me? I thought, you will scold me for what I did to Agni. But apparently not, you blame yourself. How lucky I am to have a friend like you Bim!

Bima then released her embrace to me. He wiped away the tears on my face and tried to calm me down. "I believe your story. I'm sure it wasn't you who killed Agni. You've never done that bad, Ra. I know you! Now, you calm yourself. Let's think about what you should do next."

I according to what Bima said. Yes, I have to think calmly and clearly to decide which step forward I should take.

"It's all happening, Ra. If you want to make up for your guilt, you should be a regular donor at the Orphanage where Agni grew up. Because, what I saw Agni before was a donor there. They must need a donation of funds from you because they have lost their donors." suggested Bima.

"Aren't you the one who advised me to call the police, Bim?" my many.

"Mh... That's... I changed my mind, Ra. I just want to talk. I don't want one world to blaspheme you. You won't be strong, Ra. I don't want you down anymore!"

How good Bima is to me. He doesn't want me to get hurt again. I am very lucky to have a friend as good as Bima.

"To be honest that's not all I'm afraid of, Bim."

"What else? Dream trouble? Maybe it's because you feel so guilty about Agni that you dream of Agni."

I shook my head. "Not that, Bim. It's not because I feel guilty."

"Then?"

"You said it yourself, I have two different personalities. I was like this after I killed myself, Bim."

Bima tried to calm me down again. "Isn't it because you want to live more bravely, Ra?"

"No. Something is even stranger. Do you know the day we first met? I just bought a car with Papa and I've never learned to drive. At all. Surprisingly, after challenging Aunt Sofie and Anggi I was immediately able to drive. Smoothly without learning."

I nodded confidently. "I'm so sure, Bim. Where do you think I can make up? This innocent Lara where can it be, Bim? Then make accessories, talk fluently in front of the camera and act. I can't do all that, Bim. It was as if Agni was taking over my body!" I said while shivering in horror.

Bima scrunched her forehead. "Honestly, if the problem of your acting skills in front of the camera I was hesitant from the beginning. You're so good as you're so used to."

I opened Agni's social media. Looking for an accessory he made and showed it to Bima. "Look at this, Bim. Different motives but the model is the same. I can't make accessories, Bim. Mama just taught me how to sew clothes in a simple way. Not making kayak gini accessories!"

Bima looked at the photo I showed. He turned back silent and looked like he was thinking hard. "You're right, Ra. Too many irregularities. I will also assume that half of you are Agni. But is that possible Ra? What makes you guys like that? Is it because of debt problems? It feels weird! If only Budi's debt, you can pay with you to become a donor! And you can go back to being who you really are."

That's true what Bima said. I might have to pay my debt. The trick is to become a donor at the Orphanage. Thus I can become Lara completely and a part of Agni's self can go away from me. But, am I ready? Can I face the bad guys around me without half of Agni in me?

I was thinking in shock when I found my HP ringing. "Ditya?"

Geez! I'm preoccupied with talking to Bima until I forget to go home! Stupid lara!

"Yes, honey." I replied.

"You're still at Bima's house?" ask Ditya without further ado.

"Yes. Excuse me. I'm on some important business. I'm going home now!" I said not feeling good.

"Get out! I'm in front of Bima's house now!" said Ditya who immediately hung up his phone.

Huh huh? In front of Bima's house?

"Why, Ra?" ask Bima.

"Dityas. He's in front of your house! Die me, Bim! Ditya must be angry with me! I haven't come home and I haven't given it up at all! I'll go home first, Bim! We'll talk about it again tomorrow!" I'll get my bag and get down.

"I'm taking you, Ra!" said Bima who followed my steps from behind.

I went down the stairs and found Ditya's car parked in front of the house. He opened the car window and looked very angry.

Huft...

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