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Leaving Indonesia

Lara

Maybe because I was too focused on my sadness because of Ditya, making me not pay attention to the suspicious movements of Bima. Yeah, Bima's like keeping a secret.

"What are you hiding, Bim?" my many.

Bima did not answer. He looked nervous and several times threw away his eyes. "Later I tell you."

"Can't you now?" my insistence.

"I promise I'll tell you. But not now.

I intend to urge Bima when I feel my stomach churn. The nausea and the desire to vomit were so great in me.

I stood up and ran to the bathroom not far from me. Ueeekk...

"Ra, are you okay?" asked Bima who went into the bathroom and patted my back to be more relieved.

Ueeekkk...

I just enjoyed a warm fried banana made by Bima, now I have all vomited.

"Drink some warm tea first, Ra!" Bima gave me some sweet tea and I gulped it out. It felt so good and warm in my stomach.

"You haven't eaten yet so nauseous. Should have eaten porridge or soft texture. I'm mistaken. Even nyuguhin you fried banana. Sorry, Ra!"

Bima is really good. I feel I have chosen the wrong life partner. If only my love was only for Bima and not Ditya...

"Don't feel guilty, Bim. You are not wrong. Indeed, I have been lazy to eat and even nauseous. I'm drinking warm tea, it's good in my stomach."

"Drink! I brought you again! Or buy dinner now?" bima asked attentively.

I feel sad. Usually the attention to me like this is Ditya, but now even Bima.

"Well, how about weeping again?" ask Bima.

"I'm sorry, Bim. I regret marrying Ditya huaaa..... If I had known his intention to marry me I would not have been exposed to his seduction... Hua.l....."

Bima hugged me tightly again. Letting me cry in his arms. Dampened his clothes with tears that kept dripping nonstop.

"Youngpam...."

"That's it. Just live your destiny. Make your lessons better."

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"Is he ready?" ask Bima a few days later.

I'm nodding. "Passport and ticket you brought, right?"

Replace Bima who nodded. "Udah. Your last video will be uploaded as soon as we get to Holland."

"If we go back to Indonesia, I will stay in this house again. Yes, Bim?" my many.

Bima nodded and smiled. "Kapanpun. I'll tell Mama and Papa to let you stay in this house anytime."

I'm glad to hear that. Mama and Papa Bima are indeed as good as Bima. They are close to me too.

"Mh... Ra, Ditya call you again?" ask Bima.

I lifted both my shoulders. "Either. I blocked the number and I didn't activate it until this morning. Surely the detective he hired will find this address as soon as possible. Unfortunately, we left Indonesia when they found it."

"How's your company?" ask Bima again.

"I called Om Vishnu, he said the company leadership is held by Ditya now. At first, my stepmother forced Arya to lead but Ditya was convinced by her stance. Rather than a destroyed company, it is better Ditya who holds it. After all, Ditya's position is stronger even though he only has 5 percent shares, but he's my husband. His position is higher than Arya who has 5 percent shares but has not married Anggi." my story.

"Then if later Anggi married with Arya, what is the status of Ditya in the company? Wouldn't it be the same with Arya?" ask Bima again.

"Om Vishnu said the hell it will be decided through the GMS aka the General Meeting of Shareholders. According to Om Vishnu, the ability to lead Ditya is very far compared to Arya. Moreover, there is a track record of Ditya who managed to make Kusuma Corporation which was originally almost bankrupt to be successful as it is now. That will be the consideration of the directors." I told you what Om Vishnu said.

"Thank God. I trust Ditya more than Arya" Bima said frankly. Seeing the change in my face Bima also apologized. "Sorry, Ra. I don't mean to praise Ditya after what he did to you. I was just acting neutral. At least your company is safer if it is in Ditya's hands. Your Paapa shares are indeed large in number, but the decision is also based on other shareholders. I will, you still get your rights as a legitimate son of your Papa. It's yours, Ra. Live comfortably and enjoy your life."

"Yes. Why are you messaging too much me, Bim! I'm not a kid. Although I'm a fool for love, but other things I'm pretty smart!" my protest.

Bima smiled and ruffled my hair. "Yes. Lara is smart. Let's go now!"

It is with a heavy heart that I have left the house that has accompanied me for many days. I left this country that I have occupied for decades.

I'm going back. I-i promise. I still have business here. There's still my Papa's house and company here.

I left my beloved country with a smile. Flying through the clouds with a myriad of hopes. Even though it turned out that when I arrived in Holland, things didn't go according to what I expected.

"This is serious, Bim?" I can't believe when I hear Bima's story.

Bima nodded with a sad look. "This is what I've been hiding from you, Ra. Not because I'm bad. But because I'm afraid. I'm too afraid to hurt you. I'm too afraid to face my own destiny."

"But you can tell me the same story, Bim! You can share with me! I'm your best friend, Bim. What do you think I've been with you all this time?" I said full of emotion.

The fact that Bima was hiding something as important as this made me angry. I feel not considered by Bima even though all this time I have hung all the same Bima.

"Sorry, Ra. Forgive my cowardice. I didn't mean it that way. I'm just too scared. I've been very comfortable with living with you. I feel I have achieved a dream that I have always considered only as empty wishful thinking. You made me dream, Ra. But I must wake up soon. I can't live forever in a world of illusions that makes me more and more entangled and dragged deeper!" Bima even cried. Crying out. The thing I haven't seen since I last defended him when SD was from bullies.

Bima who I thought had turned into a strong man where I could take refuge was not what I imagined.

I wiped my tears violently. "Why Holland?"

"Because I want to spend the rest of my life in my grandfather's homeland. Will you grant it and give me the most beautiful memories for the rest of my life?"

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