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83 : (POV NEVAN) Same effect and vibration

(Flashback mode)

I lost control of myself, this sadness became more and more so every time Zia entered my dream, questioning where I was, with the look of her sad face, her screams filling my brain, every time I wake up at night.

And after that day for some reason my family began to hold events with Zia's family, the situation between us remained the same, never greeting. I miss her obviously, but not her current figure, even strangely I can think of her while she is beside me.

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"Darling.happy wake up! don't be like this Nevan!"

"Mommy...."

Again I woke up in the middle of the night, and Mommy must have heard my screams again until she hugged me tightly, while wiping the light that began to pour on my face.

"Hiks...Mommy.I want to meet her...Nevan missed...! Mommy it's Nevan's fault... Mommy.." - Mommy..."

"Yeah.iya Mommy will get Zia for you...."

"No.no, Nevan doesn't want him...."

And as I knew my wish, Mommy rushed to Daddy, and sent some guards to take us somewhere, where I met Zia, a place where we spend time together.

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"Cric..krik...krik!"

Animal voices began to greet us, and the wind gusts became the chant of song as we reached the forest area.

"Darling...."

"Mommy, I don't need this, I'll sleep there, and you guys stay here!"

Mommy and Daddy sleep under the tent, while I sleep on leaves, repeating those memories, at least this makes me comfortable.

As I began to close my eyes, I felt movement beside me, with a quick movement I used both my hands to cover my face, "Zia what is you? ...Zia please answer! ...Zia's? I hope everyone comes back when you're still next to me..., Ziaa?"

I raised my hand slowly, as my eyes opened, but it wasn't Zia I saw, instead, "Nyitnyit? turns out it was you!.mmhhh did you miss Zia? I am the same too! but Zia changed Nyitnyit, she is no longer the Zia we know, she forgot me and of course you too, she did not keep her promise!"

Nyitnyit was silent as if he understood what I was saying, until the night got late and I fell asleep.

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As usual in the morning no one dared to bother me, my parents also watched from a distance, they gave me a place to play all day.

Now I'm putting together houses exactly like the one Zia used to make.

"Tok..tok! Zia it's Vanvan, I'm visiting Zia, please open the door...Zia?" I had the lyrics aside and there was no figure, the shadow was repeated, when he was still beside me, "when I knocked on Zia's door, exactly as you asked, but why did you disappear? have you forgotten me, Zia? I'm sorry Zia, I'm sorry...."

My cries could not be contained anymore, until the balance in me began to waver, I lay down hard enough that some bodyguards ran over.

"Master...Young Master...."

Out of nowhere I began to think that they were a gang of criminals, empty-handed, I used my strength to beat them up.

They took it for granted, probably because the effect I was giving was painless, and at that very moment I realized something, if I was still weak.

I ran away, until I reached the brink, I looked down, this is the place where Zia fell.

"Young Master don't do that!"

All were screaming hysterically, but I responded normally, because my intention was just to look.

Greb!

A pair of hands immediately pulled me away, and after that Mommy approached me with a frightened face.

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We went home and until Mommy's house was seen arguing with Daddy, it was definitely about my behavior that they started to think was strange, until Doctor Jenni came to visit, I was relieved to see that figure, she said, although the first impression when I knew him I was upset.

How not, my family just called him special, telling me if Doctor Jenni is a fun and exciting person, do they think I do not have a friend until I have to tell him.

Then from that day on he always met me, asked me about it, and he could also spend hours in my room just to ask things, I was uncomfortable, obviously uncomfortable, he was too cool, he was too cool, but slowly I got used to telling her. I think he's a good listener, and he always gives me solutions.

Until the moment I felt like a helper, thanks to him my parents wanted to follow all my wishes that they initially thought was strange, including sleeping in the forest. And that was a few months ago, because now Mommy is actually showing her face to Doctor Jenni, her head bobbing signifies something she can't take anymore.

"Nevan! Mommy and Daddy have already decided that if you are going to move to the city of J, living with Grandpa there, we will also follow soon after finishing business here!"

The decision was made, although it was hard for me but there was no choice, so I had to leave my memories here.

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Arriving at Grandfather's house I was greeted with great joy, my room on the top floor and so amazed I saw the interior there. A room nuanced nature, and do not forget also the roof that can open up at night will show a sprinkling of stars. I like it, he likes it, he knows my comfort, at least it's like a forest packed like a room, I can be calm, and very comfortable.

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"Young Master...."

My eyes looked at the well-dressed man, he looked down respectfully then looked up his head while smiling warmly.

"Like a stranger," my inner

"Include my name Daneshav, Young Master can call me by the call of Danes. I am the new driver in this house."

"Ohh well, I'm Nevan. Please take me to this area, I'm going to practice."

I spent the day practicing martial arts, honing my skills in the culinary world, and now comes the day I wear my Junior High School uniform, and it turns out that two of my best friends also attend the same school, coincidence or not? I don't know, because when asked they only answer if the family moved because of work.

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"Geonevan.. I love you!"

"Geonevan, my heart is only for lo!"

"Geonevan, happy birthday!"

Being the center of attention is common to me, although being surrounded by many women does not mean I am interested in them, it does not mean I stray, it's purely because in me there's still a sense left for a figure in my childhood, a guilt that I don't deserve to be happy, or a deep sense of love, until my heart was entirely devoted to him.

Back in time went so fast, and now is my last year as a junior high school student, at my increasingly teenage years I understand more and more what love is.

And at the same time I realized that if I was crazy about him, the days were increasing, even now just thinking about those memories my heart was able to beat fast.

"Yeah.., we're in school again!"

"Udah kayak triplets know not!"

"Van, you don't mind if we become your rivals again?"

"Cockfighting! you think Nevan cares?"

"Mending us in, and make the atmosphere of GUARDIANS High School uproar will be our good looks!"

"Yoyoy.bro! WOII THE OLD INHABITANTS READY YOUR HEART YAAA! WE'RE COMING!!!"

That's how my two best friends, always noisily talking about unimportant things and making me ashamed, but even so they have a big share in my life, to make me able to look back at the outside world, so, like playing or just taking a vacation abroad.

"Lo Geonevan's name, right? know me Yesi, deputy Osis."

I just nodded my head, I don't think it's necessary to waste time on making small talk with him.

Greb!

Plaque!

"Don't do your demeanor!" snapped at me, looking at him cynically and just passing by.

One year I passed with achievement, until my name became known and increasingly valued of course, but all the same, I was not interested in them.

"Woii.., where are we going this semester?"

"Where are you going to Japan?"

"You want to find a girl?"

"Try on, anyways our age is enough to be fine!"

"Gue's not coming."

"Tumben Van, are there any other events?"

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"Heiii my brother...Nevan!"

"Guilio's...."

"Yeah.I'm Guilio and you're my most handsome cousins! ahh increasingly enviii.., although you can just grab the hearts of my girls, but.. I will keep ngajak lo out! so ayooo.. my bro!"

"Where?"

"Udah come! Have fun!"

Guilio, he is my cousin who lives abroad, every time he comes back he always invites me to have fun, and now the more mature the fun stage is different.

"Drink bro!"

This was the fifth time he offered me a drink, but I always refused, not without reason because the last time we went to a place like this, he made me half conscious until I poured out my heartache.

"Hayyy.., don't put a hungry look on my cousin! He's a different class! not the same as you!"

"Such a handsome, dong acquaintance...."

"Van..," Guilio gestured for me to stare at the girl with the material-less look.

"Send him off or I'll go!"

"Wow.wow calm Nevan, calm down! this is the type of lo, right?" he said, while thrusting his smartphone to show a figure I know.

"Gue knows, I know Nevan.. and I also know Grandpa Toreno's company is cooperating with his family's company right? so just relax bro.. tomorrow you will also meet d___,"

"Gue's not interested! i unplug!"

"Where--loh where? just a little gu__,"

"Lo's grown up, right? I don't need to be!"

I just passed by, leaving the people who showed me their disappointed look, My Mood was instantly destroyed when talking about Zia, I was still annoyed given her haughty attitude, she said, but I also have a very deep longing when remembering his former figure.

Meeting with Zia was not difficult for me, often we were together in one event, whether here or abroad.

And at one time when we were also paired to dance, me and he were both impressed forced, so that the music accompanied our steps, suddenly I pulled away, I couldn't go on, because his old shadow always haunted my mind.

"If you had not forgotten me, Zia...."

This feeling again enveloped my heart, instantly I felt choked, and only one place could make me comfortable.

I arrived before sunset, and my arrival began to be greeted by a hairy figure that seemed to show a row of teeth.

"Hey Nyitnyit! Yes, I miss you too...! these are fruits for you! Ohh, has he ever been here, Nyitnyit? mmmhh, of course not, right? he forgot about us! and damn it I still remember it clearly!"

Nyitnyit and I went back through the forest, we played together to sleep on a makeshift bed.

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Drrrrrrrrttt!

The sun was shining, the dazzling light and the ringing of a smartphone in my pants pocket was leaning on me.

"Hallo?"

"Van, where are you?"

"Why?"

"Don't tell me you forgot that today we're going to bas__,"

Tut!

The call was cut off due to the connection, and I rushed towards the car.

Riding in a tired condition, fortunately now I have entered the area of J city, but unfortunately the signs of congestion like welcome in front there.

"Haaaahhh.." Drowsiness also attacked, not only my eyes and even my back also felt sore. I turned around and looked for an alternative path.

About five seconds later the red light would stop my car, the grumbling intent halted as several teenagers took to the streets to hand out a brochure.

I grabbed a hat and a mask, I didn't want any more gaping gazes for me, but that's exactly what happened.

My eyes were locked when one man knocked on the windshield of my car.

Crrrrrttt!

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"Good afternoon, I am the set of MERPATI High School, and we will hold a performance, if you would like to come yes, more info is in this brochure, thank you...."

As if I had no words to say, I just kept quiet until the figure moved away.

I felt that something had pierced my heart, forcing my heart to race faster, he made me freeze, so that my eyes could not escape from it.

Tin!

Tiiin up!

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Tiiiiiiiiiin!

The rear car horn made me realize and then stepped on the gas lever again, my eyes still looking for his figure from the rearview mirror, I saw he wiped the sweat on his forehead, I saw, and as electrocuted as the pseudo-vibration radiated to my body.

I wanted to go down and give him an umbrella, make sure he wasn't exhausted.

But desire is desire without action, my logic still dominates so that I am not rash anymore, and choose to leave.

"Why did it suddenly become like this?"