The Former
INCEPTION

"Rey ... We're wrong about this, I'm afraid the people I love are disappointed and leave Me..!" I said after sipping out the canned drinks I took from the white bag containing food and drinks that Rey previously bought at the minimarket.

Rey only glanced at it, refocused on the steering wheel.

"We can't tolerate this, it's enough, I don't want to put my household down just for a moment's pleasure and lust!" Add me again by slightly tilting my sitting position facing Rey who was driving.

But Rey remained silent. Ignoring my talk. He thought my words were just an outpouring of emotion that I let out and would just disappear like I already did.

"I want to go down here, free to talk to you, you won't understand how I feel! You won't understand what I'm doing right now!" I said full of emotion.

Rey, who had just been quiet, began to open her voice.

"You what the hell? Always like this, always want to retreat. Come on Tasya, keep calm.. We have so far established a relationship" said Rey while pulling over her car.

Rey and I were silent, silent. Rey looked at me, deep down. My eyes that have been glazed since, shed tears that felt so warm on the cheeks.

'If only I had listened and listened to what my husband said that prevented me from attending my High School reunion ceremony, I might not be at the point where I was so worried.' I murmured inwardly.

Yeah, Rey was my ex-boyfriend when I was in my white, gray uniform. Rey wasn't my first girlfriend, but she was a very attached figure to my heart, arguably my most beautiful ex. I know Rey loves me so much, everything she does always makes me smile and happy. Rey never once let me down and angry. He's always there, He always knows what I want, He can always make me feel good and want to stay by his side.

But fate said another, after graduating High School, Om Indra (Papa Rey) transferred the task to Surabaya, and automatically Rey continued her school there. Once Rey asked her parents to stay in school in Jakarta, but they did not allow, Mama Papa Rey wants Rey to study in Surabaya, live with them.

Back then, we were Los contact, no word, no word breaking. Until I graduated college, and worked in the same company as Vino, my husband. After giving birth, I quit my job to focus on taking care of my daughter. And I went back to work at another company when my daughter Maya was 6, and she's 9.

"Loh ... Hah? How are you crying? What's the matter with you?" rey said wiping my tears, made me wake up from my past daydreams.

"I'm tired of going home." I said briefly.

We have been in this forbidden relationship for quite a long time, since 1 week after the High School reunion event, about 2 years.

At first we just wanted to finish our relationship hanging for a long time, but Rey teased me with her attention that could always make me subjugated long ago. And ever since then, we've always met spending time with intimacy like lovers. Our relationship is out of bounds, so I'm willing to give it all to Rey.

"Come on, it's still morning. Are you allowed to not work, and want to go home? at the House? Okay, we go to my house, yes, rest first there if you are tired." take Rey while turning the car back on.

As usual I can't refuse, just keep quiet, a sign I'm agreeing to her invitation. Rey has indeed silenced my heart, silenced me so as not to turn away from it. I admit this feeling really torments me, I want to always be with Rey, but I don't want to leave my family either.

*****

"Dad, tomorrow's off, right?" asked Maya after sipping the milk I used to prepare at the table to eat for her.

Every weekend, Maya always never forgets to ask. Vino, his father is not always on holiday at the weekend, since rising to the position of assistant president. Weekend time is not infrequently spent by meeting his client2 outside the city and even abroad.

"Dad doesn't know honey, later I see the schedule first in the office, hopefully tomorrow holiday, Maya indeed go where?" dad explained and asked Maya, his favorite daughter who he always followed his wishes since childhood.

"Yes want a holiday Well, last vacation was We 2 months ago. Full father has no holiday." I said ketus weighted vino questions that Maya should answer.

"Mother Ihh, who was asked who answered who" said Maya who was no less grouchy, with a sweet lips and a cynical eye glancing at me.

I laughed in a loud voice, followed by Vino with his laughter while his hands were clenched and covered his mouth while wanting to cough.

"Mother! Daddy's! Very soon, the photo tomorrow I want a vacation, 2 days! I have to take a leave of absence. Don't want to know, Mother too!" cerocos Maya angrily.

Maya drains her remaining milk, then puts on her school bag that she had previously placed on the chair against her body. Maya passes and vanishes unseen obstructed by the main door of the house. Maya is spoiled, the only child who always prioritized her wishes. If he has spoken A, then me and Vino should go with A. Yeah, we always spoil him.

"Yes already Bun yuk, kasian Maya, fear of waiting forever." Invite Vino to follow him to finish my breakfast.

My household looks harmonious and always happy, not just visible, but it is true. I always numbered one for the family's interests. My home life is so perfect, I admit, I'm so good at sharing time with Rey, my love. Until now my husband never had any negative thoughts about me. I was a traitor, but it didn't make me forget my family, my husband and my daughter. Not one bit made me change.

I'm also confused as to why I could be entangled in this forbidden love with Rey. Even though we parted without a decision, and still share the same feeling, but from my deepest heart, it never took the slightest trouble to start it all. But now the truth is I was at that point.

*****

'Drrrtttt. drrrrtt.." My phone vibrated.

I saw my phone screen, there was a name that always never missed calling me. Just now that my computer was on, Rey called me.

I'm taking Rey's call to my phone.

"Yes Rey, why? Copied? Ngetting?" many ensure. Our routine every morning is like that, upon arrival at the Office, I and Rey must always go to the cafe that is right behind my Office. Just a rilex, before our brains were struggling with monitors. Rey's office isn't far from mine, it's just a different building, but it's still a row. For that reason we met often, and got closer.