The Former
VIRGIN WIDOW

"Square"

I opened Maya's unlocked room door. On the bed, with her favorite hellokitty motif sheets, Maya slaps her body with her hands propping up her chest and head raised. From a distance it was like reading. But when I approached, it didn't. Maya is looking at her portrait on the album. Portrait of her being a baby, even while in the womb. Yes, the portrait of when I was pregnant Maya. I could not feel my nose suddenly shady, and my eyes began to dew.

"Darling ... What'd you? Waiting at the dinner table. Yuk, out!" I said, suddenly, I was sitting on the bedside.

Maya who saw me was already beside her, was a little surprised. He soon closed his old album. Then, sit.

"Well, why am I eating together? At most also the same father Mother will be diem-dieman continue to fight deh."

"You misunderstood. Mom and Dad are fine now. But Mommy has to pretend to outwit Grandma. Because there is still a lot that you have to finish this way. You still don't understand, don't understand. Mother promises, after eating, Mother will tell you all these misunderstandings,"

I give pinky promise (the pinky promise) at the end of the sentence I say. Hopefully, Maya wants to hook her little finger. Maya did not reply. But before long, he smiled.

"OKAY. Promise!" she said by hooking her little finger at me.

In the dining room there are already Vino, Miss Iyem, and Mama Renata. We accelerated so they wouldn't wait too long.

"You guys! Rich people have no ethics! If you don't want dinner, then. But don't keep us here for long" said Mama Renata, who made me want to throw her out of the house.

Maya and I glanced at each other, pursed their lips, and then sat down with chuckles.

"Look, Your Wife and Son Vin. Not at all reformatin Mamah. If later You and He separate, tell Maya to stay with her Mother."

Vino who was drinking was choking when he heard Mama Renata say.

"Same father Mother will not separate. They're doing fine. Grandma Hang should have left this house. I hate Grandma. Bad granny!"

Maya runs away from the dining table. I followed up with my quick steps. But late. Maya has closed the door to her room.

"Tok tok tok"

"Open the door, May! Don't do this. Kasian Dad, later even thought and more sad. You should eat. Don't listen to Grandma's talk. I don't think Grandma exists."

"I don't want to. Mother who eats. I'm not a laper. All evil. No one cares about me. Not Grandma, Dad, even Mother. Everything's evil!"

"May ... Don't talk about it, son. Quickly open the door. Mother wants to come in."

"I'm sleepy to sleep. Don't bother me!"

I can't force Maya whose emotions aren't stable. The more I force Him, the more He will surely rebel. Maybe Maya needs some time alone.

"Yes already. But if you are laper, go to the kitchen. Don't hold on."

I passed by leaving Maya with anxious feelings.

*****

"Drrttt ... Drrrttt ..." My phone rang.

I was sitting in the lobby of the office holding a cup of coffee in my hand, quickly placed it on the table when I knew there was an incoming message for me.

['Where, Yes? Problem Lo same Vino? I thought to myself, Sya! Can we meet up? please!']

I read a message from Dimas. I was still angry with him, still disappointed. Just to get back at the message, I'm reluctant. Especially if you have to meet him. I ignored the message. I just don't want any more problems to arise.

"Drrttt ... Drrrttt .." My phone's voice rang again.

This time the call came in. It was written on the screen under the name 'Dimas'. Apparently Dimas didn't give up on being able to contact me. I swipe the red dial on my phone screen. I refused his call.

'Memory, Dim. It's not my intention to avoid. But according to me, this is the best. I don't want to feel more for me. You have to throw away that taste.' I murmured softly.

['Gue is not papa. Enough with Lo do not contact me again, it will be much make Me more okay!']

I had to return the message. So that Dimas would no longer disturb my mind.

The day is getting brighter. Office employees are getting more and more. I invited myself to go back to my desk. Just entering the study, I was surprised by those who were gathering and whispering while looking at me with a strange look.

'What is this? Why do they look at me like they see ghosts? What exactly happened?' batin asked.

I wanted to ask, and scream why they were like that. But my tongue is muddy, like I don't want to say anything. I dismissed all the prejudices that were on my mind. I threw my body in my favorite chair. PC button Immediately I press. Lit.

"Crazy. Ms. Tasya .. hot really, Mom. I also want Mom to play Mom!" Arya came up to me suddenly saying impolite words.

"What does Mr. Arya mean? If you speak politely, sir! Don't be as good as getting out!"

"No need to be a hypocrite, ma'am. I speak according to the facts. As I just saw in the hot movie Bu Tasya with her affair."

"Deegggg!"

Like a huge stone dropped from a height and directly hit my body. My body went limp. What I'm telling you is really happening. A video secretly recorded by Rey has now spread and gone viral. I don't know what to do. What will happen after this, I can't imagine.

I came back crying. Hearing the words they said to me. I'm shy. Shame on a stamp like *******.

"Ih. I didn't expect Miss Tasya to be like that."

"That porno is a man! Rich pecun pay. There's a video!"

"So much the same affair. In the video. Ckckck!"

"Gil ... It's so hot that Miss Tasya is in bed!"

"Beautiful anyway. But my heart is not as pretty as her face."

"The husband and his son. Must be so ashamed of his depraved behavior!"

And many more. It feels like this ear cannot accommodate the many insults that are uttered to me. I went, escaped from the noise of gossip for me.

I was alone in a parked car. I opened my phone to see how virulent my videos were. I was crying, disgusted with myself. My life seems to be over. There's nothing more I can do.

'How do you think Maya knows? Maya will be very disappointed. Agra ... Sorry Mother, Baby.!'

My tears are getting worse. My crying is not held back anymore. I was crying, very hysterical. My life was meaningless at once. I feel so eager to end this life.

"Drrttt ... Drrrttt ..." the sound of my phone ringing again.

I saw the name calling in front of the phone screen. 'Rey's'. I kept my phone quiet until it stopped ringing. A phone call from Vino came in. Immediately I answer his call.

"Hello, Bun. Assalamualaikum?"

"Getishalight."

I fell silent after answering the greetings from Vino. My lips are not strong to speak. The more I try to talk, the more cries I let out. Finally, my cry broke in Vino's ear.

"Mother ... Don't cry anymore. Hitherto. We face it together. Some office people say you're gone. Where are you? I'll pick you up?" vino's voice sounded very soft.

Vino's attention made me feel guilty. I don't deserve to be defended. I just made Vino so hard and embarrassed. Which husband can survive all this.

"Bune ... What are you doing? Why silent? Mother ... Ja,"

Not done yet Vino spoke. I hit the red dial ending the call. I'm turning on my car. I held the steering wheel I held. I squeezed. Very fast. Indri's smiling face flashed in my shadow. I hateit. I'll drive my car, which I don't know where I'm headed either.