The Former
FEEL WEIRD

"I want to tell you what's important, Rey, could you give me a minute?" I said I made Rey stop the mouthful of cake she was trying to feed into my mouth.

"What did you say? Tumben really you want to talk first. Usually just talk about what he wants." asked Rey astonished.

"I want to end this relationship!!" I said short and a little firm.

Rey looked at me. It was like looking for answers in my eyes for what he just heard. It's hard for me to hold back Rey's gaze, I put my face down, my eyes are a little dewy. It is undeniable, our relationship is already deep. Two years is not a time to briefly undergo a relationship that is very torturous if you miss approaching. Rey held my hand gently.

"You're all right? Don't be kidding, let alone ngeprank." said Rey who considers my words only guyonan.

Rey passed, leaving me. I saw him heading into the kitchen. Rey then brought back the canned drink in both hands.

"Now, drink first." said Rey thrusting a drink at me.

I clapped his hand, refusing the drink. Rey closed her eyes, confused.

"I'm Serious. I want us to break up!! I want us to break up!!" I said with a little emphasis at the end of the sentence.

"No! I don't want to! You belong to me!" said Rey a little scream.

Rey looks angry at me. His face was like holding back emotions. I know it's not easy for Rey, nor am I. But I have to finish it right away.

"I have Rey's family, I want everything to go back to normal like when we haven't met. I don't want to sacrifice them Rey, I beg you. Take Me off, put Me aside." I said trying to give Rey some understanding so she would listen to me.

Rey was silent. Put a drink on the table. And sit glued. I turned my face to the ceiling of the house, trying to hold back my tears that felt like they had wanted to spill. I don't want Rey to see it.

"Your future is long, Rey, and my future is in my family. We can't keep going." I said trying to weaken Rey's heart.

Rey hugged me, tightly. I whispered a soft-sounding word in my ear.

"Udah, don't talk anymore, don't say anything more, I know you love me, that's enough to dispute the seriousness of your words." Rey whispered right in my ear.

I pushed Rey's body into my arms. I don't want Rey breaking my heart anymore. I just want to finish this whole thing. I just want Rey to listen to me, and accept my decision. Although I know, it's hard, it's hard.

"Darling .. come on .. Don't do this, this isn't you, this isn't the Tasya I know. Don't confuse me. You why? If I'm wrong, you're talking, don't do this" Rey said slowly and anxiously.

"It's not just you that's wrong Rey. Me!! I was wrong too. Even I'm even more guilty if we keep continuing all this." I said with emphasis and a slightly trembling voice.

"I am wrong .. hiks .. hiks ... hiks." My tears broke. Breaking the silence in this magnificent house.

Rey is getting anxious to see how I am right now. This time he saw me like this. Rey approached me, trying to calm me down. His hands began to touch the hands I was wearing to cover my sobbing face.

"Enough!! Don't touch me!" I said sniffle and put his hands away violently.

I stood up, trying hard to wipe my tears. I want Rey to see the earnestness of my words, the earnestness that I really want to get away from her. Rey seemed angry at my treatment. His white face is now red. Makes me feel a little anxious about what Rey is doing. But it didn't make me back off, my resolve was already very mature. All for the sake of my family, for those I love so much.

Rey forced my hand, grabbed me, and kissed me violently. I saw Rey, who was like an insecurity, scaring me even more and trying to escape from her arms. But hard. Long enough Rey kissed me. My tears are getting spilled, unthinkable Rey would do this rude thing to me. Even though we're used to it, Rey scares me this time. This isn't the Rey I know, it's not the Rey I love. Before long, Rey let go of her crib. Looking at me meaningfully.

'PLAAAKKKK'S'

A pretty tight slap I threw on Rey's cheek. My hands feel hot, but still lose to the heat of my heart. Rey pulled back my hand, carried me forcibly, and took me to one of her rooms. Rey's angry energy I really can't fight. Rey is getting crazy. Tangisku.

'Bruuukkkk's'

The door is closed and locked. Rey and I are in the room. Slammed me into bed. My feelings were unsettled, as Rey looked at me passionately. Although it's not my first bed with Rey, but this time I'm so scared. This is not the Rey I know. Rey was never rude to me, Rey never forced me. I hate Rey now. But I can't do anything about it.

*****

Rey raped me. This time not out of love, but lust. Rey raped me.

Sakiiiiettt. The man I love, treats me like this, just because I asked him to stay away and forget me. I'm still crying. My anxiety and fear became more, how about rey not want to end this relationship?

If only time could I turn, I would keep this heart only for my husband. My regret is too late, and my tears are in vain. For almost two years, I've always had a husband-and-wife relationship with Rey. But only now do I regret it, when Rey brutely forced me.

"Bre*gsek You Rey!! B*have!!" I cursed while crying loudly.

It feels quiet and quiet in this house.

'Where's Rey? Is he still here?' batin asked.

Without wasting any more time, I quickly moved on. Look around the house, find where Rey is. Rey is no more.

'Maybe he's out to eat, ' I murmured.

I saw the clock in my hand, showing it at 16:00 WIB. Means it's now 17:00 WIT. I hurried, leaving Rey's house. I booked a taxi online to So*ri Bali hotel.

In the cab I kept daydreaming, imagining the new events I was going through. Not wanting me to leave her, Rey forced me to rape me. My sobs got louder, as the shadow of Rey treating me harshly turned around again. I'm afraid Rey will come back to find me.

'What if Rey comes to Vino? What if Rey tells Vino about our relationship? What about Rey.... Aargghhhhhhh.' My mind guesses, very anxious.