The Former
EXPLAIN IT TO ME

Indri dragged me out of Rey's nursery. He pulled my hand violently.

"Brakkk" the sound of the door that Indri closed tightly.

We were both outside the room. In the hallway, Indri pushed me until my body hit the wall. His hands and body are squeezing, making me unable to wiggle.

"Two years I got fooled by Lo's behavior! Two years also I can bear this pain! Because what? Because I want to know how much Lo loves Vino! Just when do you want to play with Vino's feelings? Same when?" indri said attacking me by shouting right in my face.

Indri's look scared me. He was like a hungry lion finding its prey. The breath of my Breath and the breath were mutual, the faster it was, making a clear grain as large as corn kernels popping up on my forehead. I turned my face. Indri pjn rewinded his body that had been squeezing me.

"Lo know how I feel about Rey now? Not because Rey got hurt, keep me Jeblosin Vino in jail! It's not because I love Rey dead! Wasn't it! Because Rey's rich man, don't pantes to defend!" he said again in a rather slow voice but a little on the press.

"Vino doesn't pant for Lo! If you still hope to do the same with Rey, stay Vino! And you want to know, why did I take Jeblosin Vino to jail? Because Vino himself told me!" he said with a grin at the end of the sentence he uttered.

Indri's statement surprised me. I don't fully believe what Indri said. His statement is just a meaningless joke.

"Hahaha .." I laughed quite loudly with my hands like I was brushing against the air.

"Lo think I believe that's the same as Kebulshitan Lo? Indri, Indri .." I said, who would not stop laughing.

Indri just shook his head with a smiling face like he was mocking me. Actually I'm still thinking about what Indri said about Vino. His words seemed to twist themselves and repeat in my ears.

'Why can Indri say that? What exactly don't I know? What mean?' my mind is curious.

I saw the vanished Indri go into Rey's nursery. While I, choose to go.

*****

['Bun. I still have a lot of work in Bandung. I'm not going home tonight. Tomorrow afternoon, I'm home again. Tomorrow morning, around 6 o'clock tell Pak to pick up Mamah at the airport, '] Vino said through a message I read.

Though I was eager to ask about it when Indri said something that until now managed to make my mind centered on him.

'What happened to Vino? Could he have been lying all this time? Even if true. Wh-wh-what for? Vino has always been sweet towards me. Nope! No way! Indri must be making things up, 'my mind is talking.

Indri managed to make my feelings raucous. Until I forgot to reply to Vino's message. I turned my anxiety around by stepping foot into Maya's room to take her to dinner.

"Tok tok tok" I knocked on the door.

"May ... Eat yuk. Ma'am Iyem already nyiapin tuh," I said a little screamed so that my voice blocked by the door was heard by Maya.

"Yes, Bun. Just a moment more ... Responsibility," said Maya whose voice sounded faint.

"Yes already. Don't dawdle. Wait at the dinner table!" I said to go to the kitchen.

It's been 10 minutes Maya didn't even come out of her room. I wonder what Maya is doing. Just now I'm standing, Maya's here.

"What are you doing, May? Waiting instead of spit," said I who was scooping rice onto Maya's plate.

"So late in the afternoon, I fell asleep, Bun. So sleepy. Schoolwork I haven't done yet" he said smiling.

"Pantesan." I said to throw out the dishes I had filled with rice and side dishes.

"Well, Bun. Which father? Not home?" he said the new ones realized Vino didn't exist.

"Dad's coming home tomorrow afternoon. There is still unfinished work" I said as I chewed.

"Keep, Grandma so Bun's here tomorrow?" ask Maya again.

"So. Sir come tomorrow morning pick me up," I said still with my mouth filled with food.

"Eh uh uh, I said it. Eat first, then later chat if it's already abis," said Bu Iyem with his hands pointing at the food on our plate.

Me and Maya just chuckled with laughter.

*****

"Hemm." I said with my mouth full of fried rice made by Ms. Iyem.

Before long, my plate was empty. I drink mineral water that I've been pouring into a glass.

"Assalamualaikum," a voice sounded from the front door.

"Vaalaikumsalam. Uh, Grandma! Bun, Grandma came with Bun.l," said Maya who immediately kissed Mama Renata's hand.

I approached him immediately too. Kiss her hand and welcome her to my house. Even though I don't like her very much, butj I'm just acting normal to appreciate Vino's feelings of great respect for Mama Renata.

"Your friend how are you? had breakfast? Here yuk, sit down" I said in pleasantries.

"Alhamdulillah. Healthful. That's it, it's breakfast,"

I smile.

"Bu Iyem's. Make Mamah a warm sweet tea."

"Yes Mom. Not all of you?"

"No ah, Mom. Abis eats really full on the stomach."

Then I sat down. Mama Renata and Maya.

"May. Can you please move the comic to the room? Grandma wants an important talk with your mother."

"Yes Nek. Yeah, I'm going to the room."

"Yes. Thank you, dear."

I'm rattled. What he wants to talk about. His view looks serious.

"What is your relationship? How's things?"

"meaning Mah? I'm the same as Vino?"

"Yes that. You are weird. What you think. Who are you the same? Anything but Vino?"

"Eh. Not Mah. I'm just as good as Vino."

Mama Renata laughed after hearing my words. Like hiding something.

"You're stuck with your love. Until you forget, your real love is in front of you. You knew? My mom has never liked you before. Just because Vino loves you so much, Mom always pretends to like you."

"What do you mean by that?"

"You're a habit. Never be sensitive to the same words and insinuations of people. You are a traitor! It is appropriate that the traitor be betrayed!"

I don't even understand what Mama Renata said.

'Betrayal betrayed? Meaning what?' I still mumbled confused.

"I seriously don't know what Mom said. If Mamah came here just to make me and Vino break. Mama's got the wrong address! Mending go home, the presence of Mamah is not harhepin the same as the people here!"

"You told Vino to come here! So if you mind, please talk to Vino!"

Mama Renata immediately went to the room that had been provided for her. While I, still fixated on thinking about Mamah's words.

'What does all this mean? indri's words, Mama Renata's words. They're making me dizzy'