BLUE MOON'S
FEEL NAUSEOUS

"Zea..., do you want another meal?"

Aria looked at me worriedly. My hands were just stirring up the bowl of porridge that was in front of me. I had no taste this morning.

"No. This is enough. I was just thinking about something."

"You sure?"

"Yes.."

I don't remember what happened after the pain hit me. Just when I woke up all my pain and worries had disappeared. Like the night before I slept very well.

"But.. How did you come so early to my house? Who told you that I'm sick now?"

Early in the morning Aria came to my house. Wake me up who was sleeping soundly and comfortably.

"Mom Alice. Last night he called me. He's worried you can't come to college today..."

"... But Zea, Miss Alice said you passed out. What was? Why did you suddenly fall unconscious?"

I know Aria is currently worried. But I don't want to dispute that anymore.

"Eitherway. I am also confused myself. After Luke left my house, my memory was clouded and disordered."

"Luke...?! He's coming here again. It seems like if he hadn't died he would never have been deterred. It is clear that all this started with him. Why is he not so shameless."

Aria's voice sounded furious. Her face hardened hearing me go back to talking about Luke to her. I don't want to remember, but somehow Luke keeps interfering with my life.

"That's it. I don't want to bring it up again. I don't know what he wants. But I don't want to be involved with him anymore either."

"really. There will be no end if we keep talking about him." Aria answered him with relief.

"Again?"

Aria looked confused at my question. I pointed at the empty plate in front of him. He came to my house without breakfast, only because he was too hasty and very worried about my situation.

"No. I'm already so full."

"Jas. If you still want to eat, go ahead. Shame won't make you full."

Aria laughed at my words. His smile again adorned his face.

"I'm sorry because yesterday we couldn't see you. But Rii, what do you want to talk to me about exactly?"

Aria was silent to my words. His face was worried. The wrinkles are visible above his forehead. Like thinking of something.

"What yes? I also seem to have forgotten what to say." said Aria slowly.

Forgot it? Not likely. I'm not sure Aria can forget such an important thing. For the trivial things he could remember.

"You sure? Why don't you be honest with me. I also wouldn't possibly hate or be angry with you if it wasn't something that would be harmful..."

"... or do you have a problem?That's why you don't want to tell me.

Aria was silent. He bowed his head. Take his eyes off me.

"It's not. I'm just still wondering if I should tell you or not Zea. I'm afraid I guessed wrong."

"What is it about? You are like this actually makes me more curious. Can't you just let me judge?"

I'm not sure what's wrong with Aria this time. Usually if he was going to tell you something, he would always be frank. He's never been this convoluted.

"How's your relationship with May behind this Zea?"

May's? What's up with him. I feel like my relationship with him has been fine so far. But why did Aria question him?

"Me and him are fine as I remember."

I nodded in agreement to Aria's question. He just kept quiet. Look at me and the answers I give.

"I met May before."

Aria looked at me who was still staring at her. Worrying about continuing the sentence or not.

"So..? What happened to May? Why are you suddenly so awkward like that."

I feel more upset, because Aria continues to convoluted and not directly tell the story.

"May..." Aria stopped her sentence. Looking at me makes sure

"Rii.. Please!!! Don't make me wonder about that. If you don't want to tell a story, stop. This made me assume more and suspect something was going on. What's the matter exactly?"

I'm pissed and fed up. What happened to Mey. Why is Aria acting like that. It's all about May, and it's always May. If it continues like this I will be a bad friend to him.

"Sorry Zea. It's not like that. I just doubt it. If I don't tell you, I feel guilty about you. But I'm also afraid you'll be disappointed."

Aria's eyes were slightly glazed. Pile tears look to have lodged in the corner of her eyelids.

"I told you, you better be honest with me. Although it hurts, at least I know that's the real thing. Than like this?..."

I looked at Aria with annoyance. But my heart refused to hurt him more with my harsh words.

"Well, I know it's my fault. I can't confirm it any further until all these things happen."

I nodded at Aria's words. Not much to comment on, just waiting for the sentence to be finished soon.

"Actually, yesterday when I went with Brian for dinner; I saw May and..."

The luke!! My heart was screaming very loudly. I'm sure it must be May and Luke. I saw them both yesterday, and Aria saw them too. Then I'm not wrong to suspect him.

"Well, I know that." I'm excited.

"I also met with May in the cinema. When I wait for you, remember? I saw him there too. But when I want to greet him. They both disappeared."

Aria, who was looking at me sadly, suddenly changed the look on her face. Both of his eyebrows were furrowed, and his bewildered gaze was directed at me.

"You're sure Zea wasn't the wrong guy? At first I doubted it was him. But after Brian asked me, I became sure it was them. Not just my eyes."

"I'm sure. I have known them both for a long time. So there's no way I can't recognize them both."

Thas right. It's been a while for me to know Luke and May. Even if I had to make sure of his back, I could tell if it was Luke or not.

"old? I'm sure you've known May for a long time. But Zea, did you know Nathan before? So you can be as familiar as you are now?" Aria looked at me in confusion.

Deg. My heart stopped beating. Why Nathan? I thought Aria was talking about May and Luke. Why did this talk end with Nathan.

"Nathan?"

I don't understand what Aria's words mean.

"Why Nathan? It's not about May and Luke. What does this have to do with Natahan?"

"Well?!"

Aria was surprised by my words. Confused by the situation we are both in at the moment.

"Luke? I didn't know Luke had anything to do with May, which I knew was Nathan and May."

"You sure there's no wrong person?"

I'm not sure what Aria said. How could Nathan be like that to me. Why did he meet with May without my knowledge.

"I'm sure Zea." Aria said it firmly and loudly. Convincing me with his words.