BLUE MOON'S
BALLPOINT PEN

"Actually Zea, that Nathan..."

"Mbak Zea, sorry to interrupt. There's a guest in front."

Alice was standing in front of me. Stop Brian from continuing his sentence.

"Who's Ma'am?"

Brian who heard the words of Ms. Alice immediately stood up from his seat. Like knowing something. Leave me and walk towards the door.

"Whoa ya Ma'am also forgot his name. My hurry just now. He said he should meet up soon. Something's important."

"Yasudah Ma'am. Let me make sure of it myself." My speech.

I left Ms. Alice and headed towards the direction Brian left. Don't know why, but Brian who left earlier looked very scared and worried.

"Who's Bri?"

I patted Brian's silent shoulder. He just stood in front of my door, and looked at a man behind the fence.

"Nathan?"

My slightly loud voice called out Nathan's name, leaving the silent Brian shocked.

"Oh, Zea!! Since when are you here?"

"Since. Why are you here? That's Nathan out there, you said you were worried. Why don't you just go see him now?"

Brian was silent. Not from where he stood.

"It's okay. I'm not worried anymore. But it looks like Nathan wants to see you Zea?"

"I'm not sure about that." Saying slowly.

"Come, we'll go there. As usual, he always refused to go inside." I continued my sentence.

Brian just kept quiet, following my steps from behind towards where Nathan was standing and waiting.

"Zee?"

Nathan looked at me smiling.

"Hey... Why not come in?"

"It's okay. I'd better wait here." Nathan Said.

Nathan who was silent then glanced at the person behind me.

"What meda?" Nathan said it was Brian behind me.

"Hey?" Brian answered and waved his hand.

I just kept quiet, watching the two of them. Nathan and Brian looked familiar, but it was also like there was a wall blocking them both.

"What are you doing here? Go home!!"

Nathan looked at Brian in annoyance. I don't like the presence in my house.

"OKAY. Okay. I'm h-home. I'll wait for your explanation."

Brian looked at me and Nathan took turns. She smiled a smile on her lips.

"Sorry Zea, the story is not finished. I'll continue next time. Thanks for the tea."

After saying that, Brian immediately left me confused. Nathan, still upset, is seen waving his hand instructing Brian to leave immediately.

"Zea, are you okay?"

Nathan looked at me who was silent. I was still confused by the relationship between Nathan and Brian, and Nathan who had suddenly come to my house. A very strange coincidence.

"Ahh yes." I said a little surprised.

"I-I'm fine now. You don't want to go in? You said there was something important earlier."

Nathan laughed at my stammering words.

"Nothing, I just want to see you soon. It's just an excuse I made up."

"Seriously? I guess there's something important."

My voice sounded weak and disappointed. Sure oes. I thought Nathan came to explain everything. But he had no intention at all.

"Why? Are you sick?" Nathan looked at me worriedly.

"No, I've been better. If you don't have any business, you better go home. I want to rest now, too."

"Zea, are you okay? Why are you being so weird. I came to see you. But why do you seem to throw me out now."

Nathan looked at me worriedly and confused. I just kept quiet and said nothing.

"Dance..." Nathan's voice weakened.

"... I'm sorry if I'm wrong. I just came to see you." Soft talk.

Nathan walked over to me who was still silent. His hand pulled one of my hands and held it gently.

"What's wrong? I won't know if I hurt you if you don't say anything."

Nathan who looked at me silently looked worried. I don't want this to happen. But my ego does not want to budge and hold back its resentment.

"I'm doing fine. You don't have to worry." I said look at him who still looks sad.

"You sure?" Nathan clasped tightly onto my hand that was still held by him.

No Nathan. I'm not okay. I screamed in my heart. What is your relationship with May? and what's going on between you and Brian. Can't you read my mind now.

Huuhhh?!. It can't be like that. This is all impossible. I don't want to be suspicious about you and May. But my heart and mind don't think in line about the relationship between you two.

"I have nothing to do with May."

Nathan looked at me gently and smiled. His voice seemed to give warmth to my heart.

"You don't have to worry like that Zea. Just trust me. I'll never hurt you."

I looked at Nathan confused. How could he possibly know what was on my mind right now.

"Huh?! I-Yes I know. You don't have to explain it. I didn't ask you anything." I pretended not to care.

Nathan who saw me just laughed. He didn't reply to my words at all.

"Nothing funny. Why are you laughing like that?" I was upset to see it.

"Ahhh, no. You just look so funny now Zea. I miss you so much."

Nathan pulled my arm, dropped my body into his warm embrace.

"What's wrong?" I asked him who hugged me tighter.

"none. I was just worried and missed you so much."

Nathan kept hugging me tight. His hands rubbed my hair occasionally. He also landed a kiss there.

"You're not ashamed? Now we're on the side of the road. There might be people passing by and watching us."

It does. Sometimes I see people passing by and look at us. Some laughed, and others teased me.

"It's not in what. I don't know them and I don't care either. They don't know that I miss you so much."

Nathan said it out loud. Proud of him and the feelings he has.

"But I care!!"

I pushed Nathan away, releasing his arms from my body. Nathan, who had been forced to give up his arms on me, looked annoyed.

"Look.!!"

I pointed at someone who had just passed us.

"You don't live in this house, so you don't know and don't care. But I live here. They knew me. I'm ashamed." I said more annoyed.

Nathan was staring at me. His grievous face had disappeared and was replaced by his guilt.

"I don't know that. In the future before hugging you, I will pay attention to the surroundings." Said slowly. His voice sounded anxious.

"Maha."

I laughed hard at Nathan who felt guilty.

"Why are you laughing!!" Annoyed annoyed.

"I feel guilty already. Wh why? Does this feel funny to you Zea?"

"No. Excuse me. Sorry." My words held my laughter.

My stomach is already so sore it's holding my laughter seeing Nathan's pouting face.

"I'm not gonna laugh at you. Now let's go in. Don't just stand here."

I pulled Nathan's arm, and took him inside. A smile seemed to decorate his face.