BLUE MOON'S
Q&A

Aria's words kept pestering in my mind. I'm afraid to do what he says, but I don't want my relationship with Nathan to end like Luke's. I'm just not ready, if I have to accept the truth.

Alright. I'll try to call Nathan. If he doesn't answer my call, then now's not the right time to talk to him.

First ring.

Second ring...

... Ring ter..

Hello Zea?

Argg!!! Why should it be lifted anyway. That was the last ring. A little more, and I won't be asking that.

Zea ??

Ahhh.Yeah. Nathan how are you?

Why am I asking for news. Idiotically. What kind of question is that. I obviously just met him yesterday.

The news?... I'm good Zea. What was?

Don't you? He must have been confused by my question just now.

Ahh., yeah nothing. I just want to know how you are. That'sthat's all.

Haha.. Why Zea, you can't call me if you just want to ask me about the news. Justsaytheword. What was?

Hahaha, I'm right. Sorry to interrupt. You busy now?

Shameful!! It was also Nathan's fault. Why are you picking up my phone. I still have no preparation. I was confused what to say myself.

Not Zea. I'm not too busy right now. Where are you now Zea? Looks like I didn't see you on the campus, just now. You still sick?

Huh huh? Oh I-yes. I-I guess I was still a little sick earlier, so I decided to go home and rest.

Substantial. Why should I answer with such a stutter. Nathan can be suspicious, and think that I'm just making excuses.

So now how are you? Shouldn't you go to the hospital and make sure Zea. Or, you want me to go there and accompany you ?

From his voice I knew Nathan was worried about me. But, this is not what I expected. There's something else I want to ask him. Why is it so hard to start.

No need. I'm fine now. You don't have to worry. Oi, Nathan..

Yes ?

There's something I want to ask you. But I'm confused, should I ask now by phone. Or if you have time, can we meet?

Now then?

Shouldn't. I just wanted to ask you something a little sensitive and important in my opinion.

You're a little weird now Zea! Just a moment, Zea...

Why did his voice suddenly disappear. Besides that I'm in the weird again, what's wrong if I want to ask and make sure first. Fucking Nathan.

Where's dia? It's been ten minutes, but why haven't you come back. Did I just break up this call?

Hello Nathan? Hallo's?

No, it can't. I can't disconnect this call I'd better wait until he's done. If I close, all my efforts will be in vain. How long Nathan's gonna let me wait. Patience Zea.

Hello Zea? Sorry I had a little business. Where was our conversation?

Zea?? Hello??

Ja. I can hear your voice Nathan!!

My voice sounds upset. Nathan must have felt it too.

Why did you suddenly shut up Zea? I think the signal's bad.

What bad signal? You yourself have disappeared. Tell me for a minute about half an hour, too. If you know long, mending you just say busy. Make me wait for everything.

*Not Zea. So, you want to talk about ap**a earlier* ?

Should I ask now? If I had asked over the phone, Nathan might have misunderstood me by now. But if not now, I'm not sure I'll ask her again.

The zea? Why are you silent?

Its alright. I just thought for a second. So Nathan, I...

Is correct. Whatever happens I have to do this. If things get worse, Ms. Alice is also out. So no one will know that I cried alone in the room.

...I want to know, what is your relationship with May? You seem to be lying to me, don't you?

I kept my phone away from my ear. How'this? What was Nathan's answer. Should I close it now? Nope-no. I have to wait for Nathan's answer first.

I felt my heartbeat beating irregularly. The phone I had taken away from my ear, I returned it. I want to hear what kind of answer Nathan has.

...

Why is there no sound?

Hello Nathan? You still there?

...

Nathan's?

Where's she? Why not answer it? Is it possible that Nathan does have a relationship with May, so he doesn't want to explain it to me? I should have known the answer from the beginning.

Nathan Yasudah. If you don't want to answer, I don't care either. Sorry distracting.

My voice sounded weak. I've resigned and don't want to hope.

The zea? Wait !!

Nathan's scream from behind the phone made me stop my hand to disconnect the call with him.

Sorry, not like that. I was just thinking a little bit about your question, and what answer should I give you...

...I don't know how you might not believe me. I told you right from the start, I have nothing to do with May.

Did May say anything to you? What did he say?

May's? Why would Nathan be suspicious of May now. Shouldn't she be the one to explain to me about their relationship. Why bring May?

No. gabe. He didn't say anything to me. I didn't even get to meet him on the campus. How could May have told me...

...Means, between you and May there is indeed a relationship? Why don't you just explain it to me. I will understand and stop hoping for you.

Nathan just kept quiet and didn't return my words. I'm sure he'll do that. It's hard to find an excuse if your lies have been exposed.

I'm okay anyway. I'm doing fine. You don't have to worry about me, and just continue your relationship with May.

From the beginning, we also had no relationship. So I guess it's only natural that you and her are dating now.

Tears have flowed down my cheeks. Maybe Nathan can hear my voice start raucous and my sobs. I have to be strong and try to hold it. I will not be weak just because of this.

Zea, what did you mean? Who has no relationship? and who's connected to May?

....

Zea, answer me!! You can't be quiet like that.

What I should say. I can't talk to Nathan anymore. Why did he do this to me.

Nevermind Nathan! I won't talk to you anymore. Maybe, if you talk to me from the beginning. I'll take it. I'll definitely give up and let you with May.

Zea, it's not what you imagined. Listen to my explanation. Me and May don't exist...

I disconnected the call, I did not want to hear Nathan's words that would make me melt and believe him.

If it had to end like this. Maybe this is the best.