BLUE MOON'S
STOMACH CRAMPS

"Nathan how?" I asked Brian who had just come out of a room.

They didn't allow me to go in and meet Nathan at this time. My eyes, which had been crying since then, were now reddened and swollen. Feelings of fear, worry and regret were mixed in my heart.

Guilt for not listening to his words. My selfishness has caused regret and hurt to Nathan. I just think about my heart and my feelings. There was no waiting for Nathan to explain.

If I had listened to him. Maybe nothing will happen like this.

My heart continues to murmur and condemn my selfish nature.

"It's Zea, it's okay don't cry. It wasn't your fault. Nathan's condition is still unstable."

"You're not hurt, are you?" Ask Brian. His eyes looked at me from above and below. Make sure I'm okay.

"What really happened to Nathan? Why did he suddenly change until that one minute..." I stopped my words and went back to sobbing. Thinking about what happened to me before.

"You know, I really regret it now. If I had known Nathan would be in such pain, I would have listened to him. To be honest at that time my heart was eager to approach her, but my body did not want to move..."

"... and not long after that, Nathan's face turned very scary. The dark atmosphere inside the room, caused me to be able to see the light from behind her body very clearly. He held out his hand, like shouting for help. I'm sorry." My words are trembling

Tears flowed back down both of my cheeks. Brian, who saw me back crying, gave me a handkerchief out of his pants pocket. Sometimes his hands touched my back and gently patted him.

"It's not your fault Zea. Nathan is currently seriously injured. He just forced himself on, knowing you were here." Brian tried to calm me down.

We were both standing at the door of the room. Alvin's in the room looking after Nathan.

When I found out that Brian left Nathan and I was alone. Alvin rushed to see us. But his arrival was too late. Nathan screamed in pain and finally fainted.

"Can I come in?" I looked at Brian who was still standing in front of me.

Hearing my question, Brian slightly widened his eyes looking at me.

"You sure? But you were scared of Nathan?" Brian asked me doubtfully, not believing my will.

"I just wanted to, when he realized I was next to him. Regardless of my feelings, I just want to repay what Nathan did to me before."

Brian just kept quiet hearing my words. After that, he went back into the room. Leaving me still standing outside, with no answer at all.

Why does my chest feel so tight now?

Though I myself told him I would give up, but why am I now afraid of losing him.

I'm sorry, I'm not sure what to do right now.

"Zee?"

Brian's voice calling my name stopped my daydream.

"Why are you crying again?" Said worried.

I didn't realize tears were back in my cheeks. The shadow would be left alone by Nathan suddenly bursting into my head.

Fearful. The fear of losing someone who was always there for me.

"Come in, Alvin let you in and look after Nathan. He also feels guilty to you for the previous incident." Brian continued his sentence.

The door of the room suddenly opened, someone came out from inside the room.

The man looked at me and Brian took turns. I didn't look too much at the man's face. Now that I had met again, I realized that the man had golden-yellow eyes. Very bright and clear. Like a jewel.

"You don't know him yet, do you? Let's introduce this to Alvin." Brian looked at the man and I took turns..

"And this.."

"I already know him. You don't have to explain." Alvin stopped Brian's words.

"Zoe." My reply, extended my hand, welcomed his hand in the air.

"Emm, I don't know if you remember it or not. But for the first time I'm sorry. I'm just worried. Let's wait for Nathan to explain." Alvin said and let go of his hands with me.

"What's Nathan really doing?" I looked at Alvin and Brian in turn.

"I don't know what's going on. Nathan told me earlier that his condition was still unstable. Then Brian told me that Nathan was hurt, so what exactly is he?" I asked the two of them who were still silent.

"Me or you?" Alvin looked at Brian.

Brian moved his eyes, glancing at me who was still silent.

"You." Brian said briefly.

"Bahhhhh.." Alvin breathed.

"If only this. I must have gotten the gum." Alvin's Complaints to Brian.

"Mistake yourself you ask." Answer Brian casually.

*****

"So, where do I start?"  Alvin stared at me.

Alvin invited me into the room, where Nathan was currently asleep.

"No problem here? Nathan's afraid he'll be distracted and awake." I looked at him worried.

"It's okay. Better here. My legs will also ache, if I have to tell a long story while standing." The answer.

"But right?.."

"He won't wake up until tomorrow. The effect of the medicine I gave him was very strong. So if you want to scream as loud as you can, he'll still fall asleep like that." Connect Alvin.

The room Nathan occupied was very spacious. European-style paintings have filled the brown walls of the rooms. A spacious bed with poles and curtains at every corner.

Alvin and I were sitting on a couch, right in front of Nathan's bed. So that I can see it clearly. His pale body was lying on the bed.

"You don't have to look at it that way. For now, he's fine." Alvin stopped my daydreams.

Ever since entering the room, I kept looking at Nathan who was lying down. I hope that he will soon come to his senses and forgive my mistakes.

"So, where should I start? Or do you have something to ask me?" Alvin looked at me.

"Emm, we're not waiting for Brian first?" Many doubt.

Alvin was silent. He looked at me for a moment, then turned her to the other side of the room.

"no need. I'm enough. Because he won't know that either."

Before we got into the room, Brian told me to go in first. Because he still has other business. But I didn't know he wasn't coming back.

"How dare he leave me alone with Alvin. I haven't known him for an hour. Basic Brian!!" I was upset to hear Brian wasn't coming back.

"Maha." Alvin laughed loudly.

"You don't have to fear me like that. Just relax. If you can survive here, then you're a valuable person to Nathan." Alvin spoke up.

"Maybe there was a misunderstanding between us. But I'm not the one who hates change." Say again.

"Ask me. As long as I know. I'll answer it."