I'll Throw You Before You Honey Myself
Perturbed

Mas Jeevan, I'm sorry I couldn't see you. There are many things that make me ashamed to do that. Mas, sorry in the past I was wrong and lied to you a lot. I'm so for the sake of being with you, because I'm honestly obsessed with you.

I'm sorry for my imperfect feelings. Actually, my love for you is not as great as I say. I want to have you because it is proof that I am better than Mauren, as well as a shortcut to enjoy her property. That's why, I desperately ensnared you.

As long as we're together, I've had a lot of lies. I opened a virgin, which you enjoyed that night was only the result of hymen surgery. I also lied about Mauren never thinking about a child and preferring a career. Actually, Mauren was already intending to take a break. He took just five months. If in that grace his ideals have not been realized, he will release it for the sake of pregnant your child. Mauren loves you so much, Mas.

Besides, I also lied about the money I took from Victory. Actually not only twenty-five million, but eighty million. That's what made Mauren angry and ended up trapping me.

All this time, I've always been jealous of Mauren. We were friends, but far, far away. She is beautiful, rich, and anything she wants is always earned. As for me, it takes a lot of effort to keep up. The one thing that made her even more envious and resentful, she had you, the husband who loved her so much. As for me, my boyfriend cannot accept my situation. From there I was determined to seduce you and take you away from her. I'm sorry, Mas.

In the future, don't see me again. In addition to shame, I also want to reflect on my own mistakes. You also changed. Make this a lesson for your life. If you come back with Mauren, love her and love her, don't cheat anymore. If you are married to another woman, do not make the same mistake. As bad as your wife is, she's so much better than your cheating.

Again, I'm sorry, Mom. May you be happy.

- Elsabila Zaqia

Jeevan clenched and squeezed the paper tightly. Pain, disappointment, hatred, and no idea what other feelings were mixed in his heart, which was obviously uncomfortable and stifling.

"Why? Why does it have to be like this?" jeevan Sesal.

Crushed already the pieces of smiles that were still tucked in between mute. Elsa's honesty brought a bitter thing that made her fall into a greater sense of regret.

"Mauren," Jeevan's inner.

He recalls and recalls his ill-treatment of Mauren. A wife who sincerely loves him, who is willing to accept his shortcomings, even willing to abandon his ideals for his sake, is betrayed so vilely. While the other woman he chose, it was no different from the poison that was present to destroy it.

"I'm so stupid. I could have judged Elsa more sincerely, when in fact she was just obsessed with envy and hate. Why am I blind and can't see all that? Why?" Jeevan growls inwardly. If he did not remember that he was still on the bus, would have shouted loudly for the sake of venting the tightness.

At this moment, Jeevan's eyes were already hot. The memories related to his past with Mauren are really painful.

"If I were not a man, I would be crying now. My wife .. That stupid I hurt you. Forgive me, forgive me," Jeevan's inner voice with tightly pursed lips.

As his feelings grew increasingly tight and his eyes grew hotter, Jeevan lowered his head and covered his face with both hands.

"Hopefully he is happy now. Even with someone else, I will try to be sincere. Because with me, he suffered so much. Well, it was a good choice for me to walk away from her life, because I was just a selfless man, who returned his love with a wound" Jeevan said.

"Are you all right, Mom?" ask Indira who knows since when she woke up.

Jeevan was unable to answer and only responded with a soft slit. Jeevan was afraid his tears could not be dammed again if he opened his voice.

"You drink ... or what?"

Again Jeevan shook his head. There was nothing he expected this time, other than calmness and solitude. Because everything has happened, it has fallen apart, and it cannot be returned. Her marriage has run aground and the woman she loves is already in the grasp of others. As sick and as painful as anything, he must be sincere and patient in accepting reality.

"I'm sorry, Mauren," Jeevan said.

Those words were thrown sincerely from the bottom of the deepest heart. Even so pure, Jeevan to feel wet at the end of his fingers. She's crying!

Meanwhile, Elsa's condition is not much different from Jeevan. He huddled in silence, lamenting over the claustrophobic and regretting the past.

"May Mas Jeevan be aware and not repeat the same mistake the next day" said Elsa.

His hollow eyes still opened perfectly even though it was late at night. His body that was much thinner than before, was covered only by a thin blanket, which absolutely could not dispel the cold.

"Hopefully after getting out of here, I still have a chance to live better" said Elsa.

"Not sleeping?" mita asked in her cold voice, which was lying not far from Elsa's place.

"Yes, this is going to sleep." Elsa looked down scared, then closed even though she was not sleepy.

Although she never did anything, other than asking firmly and staring intently, Elsa was afraid of herself. To him, Mita is like a terrible figure who can at times take his life. Excessive, but that's what he feels.

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Mauren's eyes glowed when he arrived at Paris' de Gaulle Airport. After traveling almost twenty-four hours, he finally arrived at the destination of—Paris.

"Not in vain is it tired?" Rendra smiled while embracing Mauren's body from the side.

Mauren also smiled while nodding slowly.

Moments later, Rendra and Mauren walked towards the pick-up spot. Coincidentally, Rendra's comrade was already waiting there. He also helped Rendra find a place to stay.

Rendra and Mauren walk together, with Rendra carrying all the belongings.

"Want me to help you?" tawar Mauren's.

"No, honey, you must be tired" replied Rendra.

"You're tired too." Mauren looked at her husband.

"I'm a man" said Rendra.

"What difference?"

"Males are obliged to protect their women. If you're still tired of yourself, I'll lose the role of dong." Rendra answered quickly.

"But ... You often make me tired," seduced Mauren.

"That's different, tired of delicious. You're also a demen, right? Don't say no, you asked for it." Rendra stared mischievously.

"What hell! Don't be so loud, shamed people know!" mauren said with a crisp laugh.

"They don't understand our language, honey."

"Yes, yes." Mauren smiled broadly.

"You mostly think it is, so do not focus on the surroundings" said Rendra with his intention.

"Anyway yes!" Mauren replied by pinching Rendra's waist.

They laugh together too. In fact, until arriving at the place of Rendra's friend, the two still joked.

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