My First Love Story
Episodes 104

In this 3x4 meter room now Arland is located. He sat on the bed looking at the necklace in his hand. He bowed lethargicly with various thoughts flogging in his mind. Did Linda really leave him? It seems that Arland still can't believe everything.

The shadow of Linda's face, her smile, her voice, her embrace were so clearly drawn in Arland's eyes. It was on this bed that Linda lay last in pain before finally returning to the creator and reuniting with the ground. There was no time for her to accompany Linda through her most difficult time. He was alone in his breath and frightened when he had to part with the people he loved.

Arland can only sob. Her tears broke without her being able to hold. Linda left at a time when she couldn't be happy. Linda left at a time when Arland was slumped with his ego at a young age. Linda left at a time when Arland needed a shoulder for her to lean on. Regretted? Very! But it feels to mourn he has no right.

In her left hand was a letter that Linda had left to her sister, Mila. The last letter Linda wrote to Arland. Some of the writing has been wet by Arland's eyes but every word recorded clearly in Arland's mind without he can forget a single word. He imagined Linda sitting in front of him, looking at Arland while saying her last messages.

"For Arland mamih's beloved....

How are you, son? Don't you miss mamih?

Mamih knows, we are currently both facing difficulties.

Forgive me for not being a good mother to you.

You face everything yourself and you can only send prayers to accompany your steps.

Mamih tau, arland's a strong boy. Remember also the papih message that we gave you the name arland, so that you always keep the promise, the promise to always be okay and pass everything strongly.

Mamih still remembers, when you promised not to need anything and would do everything yourself.

As a mother, my heart is broken because you have to risk your future for the value of rupiah.

At the same time, I feel proud. Mamih saw the baby mamih had grown into an adult male.

Thank you for never regretting what happened to our family. Thank you for always staying even if you know, everything feels difficult.

Arland's a strong boy and mamih believes it.

Son, mamih put also mamih's favorite necklace in your hands. Later, put the necklace on Kezia's neck. If one day you feel tired of chasing and surviving or you feel your feelings begin to disappear, hold this necklace and remember when you choose to lose it all for the sake of the beautiful girl regardless of whether you stay together or live each other's lives.

Mamaih you love me son. If there's another life after this, just be a baby. I will try to be a good mother for you.

With love, mamih."

Arland again sobbed with his shoulders moving up and down. It felt like his world had completely collapsed and he was so desperate with everything he faced. Linda's gone and Kezia, I don't know if she can reach it or not. Everything feels so heavy. Can he survive?

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He remembered the figure of the woman who left him when he was only 9 years old. He left because he could not survive in the condition of his family who was in short supply. Still vividly remembered when Ricko left his mother on the streets and chose to go with a man in a luxury car. Arland reluctantly extended his hand when he was the one who was the most enemy in the school. Arland still had compassion and gave him help. Both Arland's parents loved Ricko like a son. From then on, their families began to get close and help each other.

"Lo gag need to be sad he went ninggalin lo, at least one day you can still find him and invite him home. It would have been different if he had left because God had already asked him to go home. You want to hate half dead, gag is useful. Mending now you learn really-really and one day take your nyokap home."

Arland's words back then echoed clearly in Ricko's head cavity. In fact, it is now Arland who is experiencing everything. He couldn't even ask for a little time to say that he loved Linda very much.

Ricko sighed harshly. So far Arland has fought very hard.

"Land, lo nginep in my house ya.." bargained Ricko who was worried about Arland's condition.

Arland shook his head and slowly his eyes began to open. "Gue needs kezia next to me." he said.

It felt like Ricko's breath was blocked, he did not even dare to ask if Arland managed to meet Kezia or not in Germany there. But hearing Arland say he needs Kezia next to him, he must just want to be alone in his room looking at the ceiling of his room decorated with Kezia's photo. That's how Arland feels for Kezia.

Ricko turned his car toward Arland's apartment. He glanced at his best friend who had no idea what.

"Gue squirms him in the park again studying." The first sentence is said from the mouth of Arland. He tightened his grip on the necklace in his hand, making Ricko divide his focus on the streets and his best friend. "Gue that is urgently and*******takes it feel like the farther away I have to get close to kezia. I think I'm a pretty decent gag for him."

"Lo by the way what the hell, who says lo gag deserves?" timpal Ricko tries to encourage his best friend. Arland turned his gaze at Ricko with a cold look.

"Lo flatter me there is also a limit ko." said Arland, closing his eyes.

"Gue is no longer flattering lo land." Ricko said. "Lo hasn't tried anything to be worthy. Like ato do not make kezia, depending on your business that has not started this. Try it first, after all if kezia is not a lucky woman who dapetin lo business, there must be other women who are more worthy of lo." Ricko's sentence this time sounds nyeleneh but it seems right.

Arland smiled faintly. "Another woman?" ask him to himself. He could not even imagine what kind of woman could replace Kezia in his heart. Kezia left too much of an impression. The pain of being left behind by Kezi was so sweet to Arland as he knew the reason Kezia had left his side.

"Kezia doesn't go because of her selfishness she goes to protect things. At the very least, he wants to protect us and you want arland." said Martin at that time so imprinted in the heart of Arland.

Yes, the wound Kezia left behind was too beautiful for her to remove.

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