My First Love Story
Episode 122

Kezia has returned to his routine of caring for patients in the hospital. He chose to live in an apartment not too far from the hospital. Sean and Sarah are with him. Every day, in addition to work he busies himself by playing with Sean. Every now and then they take a bike ride to their favorite place with Angga. Sean faithfully accompanied him. Until without feeling the time of one year they just pass by. There was no more sadness on their faces. Little Sean always managed to comfort Kezia when he felt sad and lonely and the work piled up as if to be her solace.

“Hayy nena...” Say hello to Sean when suddenly a video call came into Kezia's mobile phone.

“Sean... What are you doing, where is mima?” greet Anna with a friendly smile.

“Mima is in the kitchen, she wants to make food for sean.”

“Ooo… iyaa. Hari ini mima-mu libur nak?”

“Iya nena... would you like to talk to mima?” asked Sean who immediately got up from his bed.

“Surely dear..”.

Sean immediately ran towards the kitchen and gave his phone to Kezia.

“Hay mah, how are you?” greet Kezia kindly.

“Good news... You how are nak?”

“Good news mah.”

“Key, this afternoon you can have lunch here?”

“Sure mah, I happen to have a holiday, later I take sean to home mamah.” Kezia.

“Alright, ma'am wait yes..be careful on the road.” Tukas anna's.

Kezia ended his call after saying farewell. Seen Sean was still standing before him and looking at him fixedly.

“Are we going to nena's house, mima?”

“Yes dear, you get ready..”.

“Yeayy!!” Sean soared in excitement he rushed towards his room and put on a thick jacket. Sean is very independent, he can manage his own personal needs until sometimes Kezia confused what this child is really only 6 years old. His attitude is the same as Angga, very overprotective on mimanya.

Sean and Kezia leave for Mahesa's house. Kezia brought his own car and he was already able to drive smoothly. Along the way, they laughed at Sean's endless chattering.

Until he reached the Mahesa family home, Sean still laughed happily. At the door Anna had welcomed the arrival of Kezia who she had considered like her own son. Anna hugged Kezia and Sean alternated tightly.

Indira is currently accompanying her husband in Berlin and is pregnant with her second child. So Mahesa and Anna lived alone with the servants.

In the dining room was waiting for Mahesa. He was very happy to see Sean and Kezia coming.

“Wah see, popo grandchildren get higher..” said Mahesa while measuring the height of her grandson. Sean hugged his grandfather tightly. “Do you miss popo?” mahesa.

“Iyaa popo, sean misses popo and nena.” His mouth while kissing his grandfather's cheek.

“Alright, let's eat, so that you get higher. “ take Mahesa while pulling a chair for Sean.

“How are you doing nak?” mahesa asked Kezia.

“I'm good pah,..” says Kezia while smiling. Seeing Kezia for Mahesa was like seeing Angga live in her. Although Kezia is not yet Angga's wife, she feels Kezia is part of her family. The woman that Angga loved so much.

They started enjoying their lunch. The European lunch menu is fully featured on the dining table. Sean's babble has always been an enhancer of the atmosphere to be warmer. After lunch, they gather in the family room to enjoy their dessert.

“Key, there is something you want to convey..” Mahesa said with a serious face.

“Iya pah, what is it?” kezia calmly responded.

“This...” Mahesa thrusts a large brown envelope on Kezia. “Open...”

Kezia picked up the envelope that was in front of him. A file that says his name in German. Kezia opened one by one the file.

“What is this pah?” Kezia scrunched his forehead.

Mahesa smiled faintly before starting her sentence. “Son, you always dreamed that you would have a special hospital for cancer patients that you built yourself and that too has become one of the dreams of the host that he told Hendra a few months before he died. Papah asked, please wake up the hospital and make your dreams come true. Papah is sure, the pride will be very happy. In addition, please take care of the legacy of Angga in Indonesia, the educational foundation he built himself. Papah is sure, you can continue it.” explained Mahesa expectantly

Kezia still could not believe what he heard. He looked at Anna, trying to convince himself.

Anna just nodded. Still vividly remembered in Anna's head as she met Angga when she was pinched. At that time, Angga was alone in front of the window of his room looking at a photo of Kezia which he made his laptop wallpaper.

"Honey, eat first son." said Anna while sitting next to Angga.

"Has Kezia come home yet?"

"Udah, just got into his room." Anna rubbed the head of the Angga leaning on her shoulder.

"I felt that a day was a long time if the gag met kezia mah.." lirih Angga without taking his eyes off the photo Kezia.

Anna smiled slightly, her beloved son was indeed being drunk in love.

Angga smiled slightly, as if he was imagining Kezia in front of him.

"Well, can you ask for one thing?" this time, Angga sounded serious. He looked at Anna. Anna accepts her son's request. "Well, right now I know, Kezia is trying to convince her heart. Kezia is a strong girl on his stand. If at this time she chooses to learn to love the pride as her future husband, it means a lot of things that she bet." Angga paused his sentence with a deep breath.

"Maybe at this time he began to reset not only his feelings but also the thoughts and thoughts he had built up. As he strives hard towards something, he will be very sincere in doing all the ways to reach that point and is proud to feel the tremendous effort of kezia. But sometimes the pride feels sad, maybe the pride is too evil. 2 times the pride makes kezia take a difficult decision but he never regretted it. And the pride did not want to regret the rest of this little time. If one day the pride goes faster than the pride wants, please do not let kezia down mah. Angga loved kezia more than anything. Do whatever it takes to make him not sad. Make excuses so that he has a new purpose and focus. Promise me the same pride...."

Anna still felt the warm grasp of Angga, she still saw the hopeful look of her two sons eyes. Her watery and reddish eyes felt like a dagger that slashed Anna's heart. And maybe this is the way that he will no longer see Kezia slump. No longer see Kezia workaholic just because he wants to forget his sadness. He wants to fulfill the wishes of his son.

“Honey, you are part of this family and will always be part of this family until anytime. To the young, you are his life. Make your dreams come true and live well with those you care about. Mamah hope, in the future we will always be your parents son..” continued Anna gently.

Tears were dripping in Kezia's eye patch. I don't know what kind of kindness he made in his previous life that so many people loved him. Kezia stood up from his chair, he approached Mahesa and Anna, then hugged the two tightly.

“I do not know, what should I repay the affection of mamah and papah.” lirih Kezia.

“You are our daughter, the affection we give is already supposed to be given.” og Mahesa while rubbing Kezia's back.

“Thank you mah, pah..” Kezia. Mahesa and Anna nodded. “Mah, pah, how about sean?” kezia asked as she looked at the innocent face before her.

“Indira said, if sean wants to come with you, he can come. Indira is sure you can take good care of sean. After all, papah plans to return to Indonesia as well. The company here will ask Indira's husband to take care of it. We want a break at our house.”

“Iya pah.. thanks for the trust mamah and papah. I'll take good care of Sean. And we will regroup in Indonesia.” said Kezia.

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That night, Kezia could not close her eyes. The feeling in his chest was flailing. Returning to Indonesia is something he always hoped for and feared. He was afraid that something bad might threaten him and the people around him besides that he had to leave Angga buried here.

Kezia's eyes were fixed on the Box beside her wardrobe. The box that Fritz brought in a few days after Angga died. Kezia picked it up and started opening it. It turns out that the contents are relics of Angga. There was a letter there and a diary along with other items.

Kezia took a breath, then ventured to open the letter in his hand.

“Hay schnucki..” Angga's special greeting.

“When you read this letter, it means I have gone far. Go to a place that not only has a distance but also a different world. I'm grateful, because I left when you were really by my side, never left me and took good care of me.” Instantly Kezia's tears began to trickle down he felt Angga had sat down before him and talked to him.

He rubbed it slowly, though not stopping it from continuing to flow down both cheeks.

“You know, the hardest thing I left behind was leaving you in a state of sadness. I'm afraid you'll cry alone and won't let anyone near you. I'm afraid that when you cry, you do stupid things, don't eat, don't think about your health and no one can persuade you. I put all my valuables on the fritz, he's a good guy even though I hate him a little bit because he always tries to get close to you. But I'm sure, he'll take good care of me."

"Schnucki, thank you for trying so hard to learn to love me. Thank you for running towards me and letting me into your heart. Sorry, if there are many promises I can't keep. I can only hope that we meet in the next life and that we can have each other, longer, without pain and sadness. Ilove you. You are the reason I survived. Later, marry a man who loves you and can take good care of you. When you have kids, tell him that he has a really cool uncle like me. Whoever is the one who will marry you, I hope you are happy. No more crying, no more sadness. I'm enough of the reason you're crying. Don't grieve for too long, live well and remain the schnucki I've always loved. If I may ask, I leave you alone, he will love you and take care of you. Always happy schnucki, I love you, love you so much. _With love, Angga.”

Kezia folded back the letter he had in his hand. He was back in his tears. The same cry as Angga left. He opened the Angga notebook that was there. Everything about Kezia and Angga was clearly written there.

"There's a bad girl who's been bothering me, I can't sleep in the pain of chemo and forgot to turn off my phone. Why is he bothering me?"

"I feel comfortable when I hear his voice, God why do I want to always hear his voice?"

"Today, the first time I saw his face. Very pretty, adorable. When he finds out about me, will he leave?"

"Sucks, this girl keeps popping up in my mind. Makes me keep daydreaming and not good at eating."

"He was crying, I was upset because I couldn't calm him down"

"Lord, he's in love. Why am I so jealous?"

"Look, he's so passionate about learning. Try it baby, I hope we can meet. Huh, honey? :D"

"He knew I was sick, but never once did he step away or show me his pitiful look. Why is she so beautiful?"

"I see it, I can see it directly. Shit, why does that guy keep getting close to her?"

"What was his first kiss? He looks so scared, don't let that guy ruin it."

"I shook his hand. It feels so soft and warm. Today I can walk, for there is him before me."

"This stubborn girl accompanied me when chemo, she made me no longer feel pain. God, I think I'm in love."

Kezia continued to read one by one historic moment for Angga until the early hours of the morning. Kezia smiles occasionally, but occasionally he cries. Until the time Angga will go, he covers his pain, so that nothing can ruin his happiness.

"I'm in pain. My body feels dry without blood. Hugging him makes me strong. God, can't you just let me stay like this a little longer?"

Kezia laid down his body, tightly hugging Angga's notebook written in his own handwriting. Kezia closed his eyes, hoping for an instant that Angga was in front of him.

“Kak, I miss you..” Og Kezia.

He turned his body back, slowly his eyes that were still wet were closed in the cold morning air.

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