My First Love Story
Episode 116's

Quarter life crisis feels this phase is what Kezia is experiencing. He was alone on the edge of his bed with an uncontrollable mind. He never imagined, again he had to be in this condition. If it was the request of the master that made him have to take an extreme decision this time Angga's statement just now that should make him choose a step that might be the opposite of his heart.

Pretend, certainly not that easy two words he did. On the one hand he does not want to hurt someone and on the other, his heart revolts imagining he is starting to make way for a mistake he might regret.

Still vividly remembered in Kezia's memory as Angga looked at her expectantly for Kezia to reciprocate his feelings. And it is not that easy to eliminate the figure of someone who is the reason for making big decisions.

Arland, remembering her name alone made Kezia have to massage her chest tightly. He left after hurting a man's sincere feelings, of course 10 years can not just erase his regrets. But, he was not ready if one day he regretted for ignoring someone's feelings.

Kezia was suffocated in her weeping. Why should he stand between two blades that would both hurt him. Can he choose to be selfish?

Satisfied with her deep cries, Kezia grabbed the phone that was on the dresser. He tried to call a number that he had memorized.

Call connected. Nervously Kezia someone over there answered her call. He walked back and forth while biting his own finger in a waiting time that was enough to make him riled up.

"Hello.." a woman's voice rang out in Kezia's ear. Kezia was stuck, his shoulder face turning grim. It's not the voice he wants to hear.

Kezia fell on his bed with a sudden empty mind. His lips were mute without being able to say a word.

"Haloo, sorry who's this with?" said the woman broke Kezia's daydream. Kezia could only wipe away her tears that were dripping back without any excuse. Not a single word could come out of his mouth.

"Sorry there's a guest" said another voice behind the woman.

"I was on the phone for a while, ask her to wait." said the woman.

"Well, ma'am." Looks like the interlocutor woman understands the woman's orders on the other end of the phone.

"Tina, please ask the driver to send this file to you. And for a second, you should bring me your personal cell phone."

Kezia listened to every sentence of the woman clearly. It felt like he realized who the woman who was receiving the call was. With trembling hands Kezia ended her call. It would be foolish to hope that Arland would wait for him in obscurity. And so stupid as he wished Arland was still alone while it was clear he was leaving Arland after hurting him.

Kezia could only bow while cupping his face with both hands. It's useless if he has to survive?

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The breakfast atmosphere looks ordinary without any awkwardness for Mahesa, Anna and Indira. They certainly heard the Kezia and Angga debate last night but no one commented on it. Maybe they didn't want to make Kezia feel uncomfortable. But this is what makes Kezia feel like a bad person.

The debate he had with Angga was certainly a bit much might hurt the people before him. But everyone behaved as if there was no frustration whatsoever.

“Indira, where's Sean?” asked Mahesa who started to sit in her favorite chair..

“Emm theirs..”

“Pagiii momy, nena, popo and Mima.” greet Sean who just came with Angga.

He was wearing his full gym clothes and looked sweaty.

“Morning sean..” says Kezia while helping little body Sean get on the chair.

“Where are you from?” ask Anna.

“Dada ngajak sean mornings sports in front. Very exciting nena, tomorrow sean want to take another walk..” Sean looked as cheerful as ever.

“You gag cape nak?” Anna rubbed Angga's shoulders gently. He was very worried about his favorite son.

“Engga mah, angga well only. All right, I'm hungry, can I have breakfast now?” Angga looked at Kezia who was sitting in his place. Kezia quickly took a breakfast menu that a few days ago asked for Angga.

“This sister. And this is for the champion mima.” Kezia put each one of the breakfast bowls in front of Angga and Sean.

“Thanks mima, muech!” Sean lands a kiss on Kezia's cheek. Kezia rubbed Sean's head gently. His little guy is very sweet.

“Ahhh, you make me envious of key,,,” protest Indira.

“Sean also love momy if momy is not fierce.” exclaimed Sean while threshing his tooth tooth tooth tooth tooth tooth. They laughed at Sean's adorable behavior. “Mima, is mima sick?”

“No dear, does mima look sick?” Kezia asked back.

“Yes, the face of the red mima as when sean was sick with fever..” Sean watched Kezia's face. He is indeed a sensitive child, he can catch the unusual expression that Kezia shows even though Kezia tries to look okay.

“ Oh, no, this is just hot from the kitchen.” elak Kezia just any.

Angga who had been staring at Kezia, also felt the same way. Perhaps his last night speech had left Kezia confused and misbehaved. As he sat down with Kezia, Kezia was seen to immediately turn his eyes to make Angga feel uncomfortable, he had to put an end to this awkwardness.

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The distance Kezia made in fact could not really keep him away from Angga. After almost a day he did not meet with Angga and chose to remain silent in the room, at this time he clearly had to meet Angga to deliver his medicine. Kezia looks hesitant when he has to knock on the door of Angga's workspace which feels like a distance that limits them.

“Include..” Angga's voice rang out shortly after Kezia knocked on his room door.

Today Angga does not go to the office because of his condition that is not really healthy so he chose to do his work at home.

The door opened, and Kezia walked over to Angga.

“Kak, here's the schedule for taking medicine.”

Kezia put the tray he had brought before Angga. He equipped it with a glass of water and a snack that he prepared so that Angga did not feel nauseous.

“Aah yes I forgot..” Angga immediately folded his laptop screen.

“Thank you Schnucki...” Angga said while looking at Kezia but Kezia just nodded slowly as she turned her face away and rushed away.

“Key...” Angga tried to hold Kezia's hand that was about to pass away. Kezia stopped his steps, indeed he was not ready to talk more with Angga.

"Please don't be like this. Don't torment me for missing my schnucki a while ago. Please, go back to being a schnucki like I was before I said I loved you. Keep smiling and don't look away from me. I need you, I want you next to me."

"Son, I gag can be like that. I can make everything seem okay. I can also gag to pretend like you asked. I gag want brother disappointed and hurt." - Kezia's dream.

Angga moved to approach Kezia. He stared at the pair of beads that looked watery.

"Okey, I'm sorry I pushed you too much." Angga's hand was raised and touched Kezia's face. He rubbed the clear fur that began to wet both cheeks Kezia. "Don't cry, I can't see you like this." Angga's voice rattled. "If you can't pretend, then give me a little chance to open your heart. Look at me as a man who loves you not as your brother. I know it's hard, but I'm sure I can make your feelings change and slowly you'll start accepting me. I beg..."

Kezia was just speechless he still needed time to digest Angga's words.

"Key, I know I'm too mean to have you by my side for no reason. So marry me. Follow me until the end of my time, hem...."

The eyes of the two were staring at each other. Kezia saw great sincerity and hope in the eyes of Angga. He did not want to make the light in Angga's eyes disappear. If indeed Angga was destined to be in his life, what could he be? Maybe he should start to open his heart.

*****

The snow that fell more and more rapidly made the cold more and more ambush. The Mahesa family gathered in the living room while enjoying the warmth of the conversation with each other. Little Sean seemed so engrossed in playing his cars here and there.

It was seen Angga coming down the stairs while holding the hand of Kezia who was beside him. Can no longer be hidden, Angga's face looks very happy when a few minutes ago Kezia said he would open his heart to Angga. It felt like the world was back on his side, no matter how long it took him to live as long as there was Kezia next to him he was ready whenever God called him. He was happy, very happy.

Indira was stunned at her place when she saw the unusual sight. “Am I going to have a sister-in-law soon?” terka Indira with sparkling eyes. Angga nodded confidently. With Kezia standing next to him, he smiled faintly at Indira's question. “Astyachaaa.. Why gag from dulauuu..” cried Indira who was excited while running to hug Kezia.

Anna and Mahesa are no less happy. Anna approached Angga and hugged him tightly. Angga kissed Anna's head warmly and alternately Mahesa hugged Angga while patting her shoulders.

“What mommy can already prepare everything?” Anna was the most enthusiastic among them.

“What's this fast aunt?”

“What else are we waiting for? Aunty can't wait to soon have a daughter-in-law especially that you love. Aunty has also wanted to see you live happily.” said Anna with tears haru. He rubbed Kezia's face lovingly. How grateful he was finally able to see the sparkle of spirit in the eyes of Angga.

Kezia turned to Angga who was standing next to him. Angga just smiled with a small nod. It seemed, Kezia could not refuse everything. He hopes, maybe his love for Angga can grow over the time they went through together.

“I haven't ngabarin my parents aunty.”.

“Do not wait long, om who will contact him..” Mahesa said with enthusiasm.

Sure enough, Mahesa immediately pulled out her phone and immediately made a video call with Martin. And it didn't take long for Martin to answer his call.

“Good morning big master... How are you?” greet Martin kindly.

“Good morning mr. martin. Is Eliana's mother there?” ask Mahesa.

“There's a master, wait a minute..”

Martin immediately called to Eliana who was not far from where he was sitting. It looks like Martin is at the dinner table and Eliana approaches with her body still wrapped in an apron.

“Halo good morning bu eliana, how are you?” greet Anna kindly.

“Good morning big mistress, my good news.” Eliana looked excited she immediately opened her apron.

“Pak martin and bu eliana, we plan to invite mr martin and bu eliana to Germany. Do you not mind?” Mahesa immediately conveyed her request

“What's the lord, is your daughter okay?”

“Quiet, Mr. martin's favorite daughter is fine. We intend to have a family meeting here. Can mr martin come?”

Martin and Eliana looked at each other. They looked confused by the request of the man before him.

“Bu eliana, with great care we want to ask for a mother's daughter for our son, Angga...” explained Anna expectantly.

“What? Is our zia...” Eliana could not continue her words. Mahesa pointed her phone camera at Kezia.

Kezia smiled faintly as he looked at the faces of the two people he missed so much. “Mah... Can you come here?“

There were tears on Eliana's face. He could only nod in response. She never thought this day would come, the day Kezia was asked to be someone's wife.

“Yes dear, we will be there.” replied Eliana stammeringly.

Kezia nodded then bowed. It turns out that so many people are happy with the decisions they make. If he had previously followed his selfishness, perhaps he would never have seen that smile from the people before him much less Angga.

Angga clasped Kezia's hand tightly, as if he would never let go. He was grateful that soon his last hope would be realized.

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