My First Love Story
Episode 115's

“Schnucki... schnucki..” Angga melodious voice teased Kezia who was sleeping. He stroked Kezia's hair which covered part of her beautiful face. Kezia fell asleep overnight by lying face down on the chair next to Angga's bed.

Kezia immediately opened his eyes as he felt Angga's gentle strokes on his head and face.

“Good morning schnucki..” greet Angga while smiling.

“Forward brother. Geez I overslept..” Kezia tied her hair up high. Behind him was a table filled with food for Angga breakfast. "Wouldn't you like breakfast?" deal with it quickly.

Angga just shook his head. He was still looking at Kezia's face that looked beautiful even though she had just woken up. “Please schnucki, I'm not too hungry yet but I want to go to the bathroom, can you help me?”

“Sure. But brother's infusan is about to run out. I asked the nurse first to remove the infusion first so that it is more free.” Kezia nibbled a button into the nurse's room and not long after a nurse came. He had already brought his equipment, it seemed like he knew what Kezia meant to call him.

Angga seemed to grimace as the needle was removed, changed with white plaster covering the scar.

Kezia takes Angga to the bathroom and places him in the toilet.

“I wait outside, if need anything, big brother call me.” Kezia. Angga nodded in agreement.

Not too long Angga was in the toilet. It also comes out by itself. His steps were still in shock as soon as Kezia grabbed her hand and helped her sit on the sofa.

“Why gag call me?”

“I can kok if the road is dikit doang.”

“So you want breakfast?” bargain Kezia.

Angga. Kezia immediately took Angga's breakfast and placed it nearby. One first spoon of Kezia sucked into Angga's mouth and Angga happily opened his mouth.

“The breakfast is good, I like..” I am Angga.

“Later at home I masakin this for sister..”.

“O yes, when did you start working?” Angga looked at Kezia seriously. “I've promised to accompany you to graduation and take you on the first business day. I have gag patient.” continued Angga with enthusiasm.

“Maybe the day after..” said Kezia with doubt.

“Which hospital?”

“This hospital..”

“At lastaa... My Schnucki is about to start working. You must look very beautiful when wearing a doctor suit complete with the name tag.” Angga smiled to himself imagining Kezia on his mind.

Kezia was only glued while smiling. It feels like he is the one who is happier because he can see Angga smiling again.

“Kakakak used to eat it... I've been taking medicine.” timpal Kezia and Angga nodded with passion.

“Good morning..” greet doctor Albert from door mouth.

“Morning doc...” sahut Angga.

“Wah mr. ryan seems to have been fresher. Can I check for a minute?”

“Sure doc!”

With the spirit of Angga walked alone to his bed then lay down.

Doctor Albert began examining Angga and appeared to be smiling.

“Can I go home doc?”

“Yaa course... Doctor Kezia can treat you at home.” said doctor Albert while glancing at Kezia.

“Thank you doc...” clearly seen Angga's face so happy just because he heard can go home. While Kezia was still with his worries that he could not express.

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“Dadaaa... chest already home..” exclaim Sean who soared small welcome the arrival of Angga.

Immediately he burst into the arms of Angga and hugged her tightly.

“Sean, chest still hurts. Don't make him tired..” Indira said as she grabbed Sean's body attached to Angga.

“Nggak brother, I'm fine kok..” sahut Angga while carrying his favorite hero. “Do you miss the chest?” asked Angga while rubbing Sean's head.

“Sure! Chest don't hurt anymore, later sean also hurt.” whine Sean is so adorable.

“Today sean gag wants to eat, wait for you to go home son.” Anna chimed in with teary eyes.

“Sean don't get sick.. If sean is sick, who will take care of Mima to make the chest.” Og Angga while smiling.

“Yes, sean wants to eat now with chest and mima.” Sean immediately came down from the sling of Angga and pulled his second hand firmly.

“Soal mamih fierce!” sean sahut while sticking his tongue out at the indira. They laughed at Sean's innocent reply.

“Lain times, fine same own son sis...” Angga patted Indira's shoulder casually.

“Sucks! “ grunts Indira who smiles later.

Kezia and Angga immediately headed for the dining room as Sean kept pulling him.

Meanwhile, Anna looked at them from a distance. Without feeling the clear circle dripped on his eye pelupuk.

“Mamah why?” ask Indira.

Suddenly Anna nodded.  Indira immediately hugged him while rubbing Anna's back trying to calm down.

“What mommy can see angga with his wife and child later?” lirih Anna's.

“St... Mama don't think of anything... Currently Proud to need support and do’a us. Mom should be strong.” Indira tried to remind even though her own feelings were not calm.

Anna immediately wiped away her tears. He took a deep breath and then breathed it out. Many times Anna does it but in fact does not necessarily make her feelings calm. He could not lie to himself, he could not bear to see his beloved son endure such a severe pain.

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The back terrace is where Angga enjoys the afternoon. He sat cross-legged on the sofa with the laptop on his lap. His fingers seemed busy pressing keyboards interweaving words on his square screen. Kezia brought her a blanket and put it on her. Snow continued to fall and make the air cooler even though in front of them there was a fireplace. Put a plate of cake and a glass of milk that Kezia made himself.

“Thank you schnucki..” wail Angga while smiling at Kezia.

Kezia replied with a smile. He took his place next to Angga and a little probing work that made Angga frown.

“Kakak ngerjain what, very serious..”

“There are some jobs I have to finish..” said Angga once and then looked at Kezia. Although not recovered properly, Angga still looks excited.

“Kak, there is something I want to talk about..” Kezia said seriously. Angga ended his activity and closed his laptop and turned to face Kezia.

“Say...” this time Angga is staring fixedly at Kezia.

“There is someone who is willing to donate his marrow to brother. But, ” Kezia breathed in –in before continuing her sentence. He bit his lower lip as he began to doubt.

“But what?” timpal Angga's.

“As a condition, he asked brother to make him his wife.” Kezia filled out his sentence.

“What is she cellina ?” angga Terka. Kezia flinched in his place, how could Angga know about it. “I don't want to!” angga.

“But brother, it's a good opportunity. Sister can do the operation and have a wife who loves sister.”.

“Sort of love asking for such terms? Anyway I gag love with cellina!” about Angga who looks angry.

“But brother, you used to love each other and sister can learn to love him after sister married him.”

"Why do you keep forcing me, I gag love him!" this time, Angga's voice sounded louder. He moved from his seat with his hands clenched.

"Because I want you to stay alive!" exclaim Kezia no less hard. Tears that have been in the stool for a while this time spilled just like that. He walked over to Angga and looked at him fixedly. "I gag can squirm brother in pain. I gag can squirm big brother says everything is fine and I gag can be silent while stalling time without any effort. I gag could lose brother. I can gag..." Kezia sobbed at the end of his sentence. He covered his face with both hands. The words he tried to resist evaporated just like that.

"You're thinking about my life but you're not thinking about my feelings key." Angga's voice rang out, making Kezia look at him again.

“I love you, words that are so difficult I express are not aimed at others, it is for you." Kezia's breath choked to hear the piece of the sentence from Angga's mouth. The pitch-black Netra was so sure looking at him. I don't think he misheard it just didn't believe it.

Angga grabbed Kezia's hand and looked at her fixedly. "Not to anyone else and there will never be anyone else. You asked me to marry that snake woman so that I could live longer, is it that happy that you saw me alive but in a tormented state, huh?! Answer Me!” Angga raised his voice again. Those sad eyes now look red and watery.

Kezia was only silent with the corner of the eye that still kept a clear circle.

“I gag need surgery, I gag need cellina and I gag need all the meds. I don't take long to live, I just need you to know how I feel. You understand my feelings. If it's just one day, an hour or even a minute, you're right next to me, that's more than enough. Just once I want to be selfish, just once I want to force you. If you can never love me, pretend for a moment. Encourage me to spend my time without regret. I beg....” said Angga. I don't care about Kezia's feelings. Yes, just this once he wanted to be selfish, making kezia listen to all the contents of his heart that he had kept for years.

Kezia smiled wryly, he never expected Angga to keep his feelings for him. Just say he is insensitive or worse yet he does not understand Angga's feelings. He himself is not out of thought with what he hears and is more inexhaustible with his own feelings.

Pretend, can he do it?

Kezia rubbed his face rough. He let out a long sigh for a moment before looking back at the bowed Angga before him. “Since when?”

“I don't know. All I know, you are always in my mind and heart every day.” replied Angga who began to weaken his voice. True, Angga himself never knew since when he began to hope that only Kezia would fill his heart. And I don't know since when he felt that his heart would only be anchored in one person, yes the girl who was looking at him questioningly.

Kezia wiped her tears. The man in front of her who she had considered her own brother, apparently loved her as a woman, not as her sister. Kezia is still very worried. He has not yet decided what to do.

He stared at the pale face of Angga with a trace of an erratic feeling. He still needs to think. He doesn't want to go wrong.

“Udah malem, sister rest first. The night wind is very bad.” said Kezia while cleaning up Angga's laptop without looking at Angga in the least.

Angga did not reply, he let his precious time pass by. The atmosphere felt to be very awkward among the breeze of the night that brushed the fur..

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