My First Love Story
Not my wish

“Sore mah..” greeting Kezia to Eliana who is busy arranging food on a plate.

“ Hay dear, have you gone home son?” Eliana asked with a cheerful face. Kezia just nodded then sat his body in front of Eliana.

"Why you son?” Eliana asked as she continued to pay attention to Kezia who was so lethargic.

"Gag papa mah, zia just tired aja.” Kezia answered while slapping his body on the dining table.

"Maahh, Mamah.” cried Martin from the living room.

"What's the reward?” Eliana asked as she approached Martin.

Martin came in a very light step. On his lips there was a smile.

"Well, the papah's office just called. He said they were sorry for accusing Papah of being a no-no. They even asked Papah to return to work and will pay compensation for their allegations. How do you think?” Martin asked with a glowing face.

Kezia was just speechless to witness the happiness Martin felt, because everything was just a trick.

Martin's company didn't really do what Martin thought, it was just a compensation for the choices he made.

"Well, if there are other job options, will Papah continue to work there or accept another job?” Ask Kezia seriously.

"Zia, what are you talking about, son?”

" No mah, zia just think, papah company is so easy to dismiss papah and ask him to work again. Why don't they do an investigation before questioning the integrity of the papah who's been working there for years?” kezia said seriously. Eliana and Martin were silent. Martin tried to digest

what her daughter said.

"Father will consider this offer son. After all, the age of papah is already young again, dashing easy to find work for papah." said Martin who tried to be realistic, although in fact he also questioned the conditions that occur today.

Hearing Martin's answer, it felt like no one could debate kezia. "Well, pah, zia go up first yes..” said Kezia with gontai steps.

"Rest son, don't forget to come down later for dinner.” Pinta Eliana rubbed Kezia's head. Kezia nodded and left Eliana and Martin.

*****

Kezia put his body on the bed. Her tears were unceasingly melting from her eyes. His conversation with Irene this afternoon, kept turning around in his head. Why time turns laughter into tears.

"Should have, I never started it all..” Oozed Kezia in his regret.

The shadow of Arland flashed in the space of his imagination. Kezia closed his eyes, recalling every moment he had with Arland that might only be a memory.

His phone kept ringing in his image. Kezia picked up the flat object that was beside him. He saw 11 missed calls from Arland, 6 missed calls from Dena and 1 video call from Angga.

Kezia wiped the tears that fell on her cheek. He repeatedly raised his face so that his tears would stop flowing. He pulled both of his cheeks to get used to smiling again. Kezia. Then dial Angga's phone number and make a video call.

"Hay schnucki ..” greet Angga who is leaning on his bed. His voice sounded hoarse.

"Hay brother, sister is sick again?” Kezia asked while slashing her eyes.

"Gag nothing, I'm just tired of running out of road therapy.” explained Angga while justifying his body position. “ Your eyes are swollen, you cry?” Ask angga while watching Kezia closely.

"Ooh yeah? Though I gag nangis kak, maybe because tired aja..” Kezia replied while turning his face. “ Tumben brother contact me, instead of delaying the chemo schedule?” Kezia asked to switch the conversation.

"Yeah.I feel good gag, suddenly inget you. You're all right?”

Kezia just nodded. He was still trying to hold back his tears. For some reason when we are sad and someone asks our condition, it feels like we really want to cry as it evaporates all the turmoil lodged in the chest.

"I'm fine." said Kezia.

"Heemm. You gag good at lying schnucki..” said Angga while smiling wryly.

"Why is big brother so pretentious huh, why?” Kezia asked who was getting annoyed because Angga's guess was right. Angga.

"You think I'm your brother, so tell me. Walopun I gag can help find a solution, at least I can listen.” Angga said earnestly.

Kezia lowered his head, he indeed needed someone to listen to him. Slowly Kezia began to recount the events that had happened to him. Angga just listen, no comments no justification.

*****

"Dear how is your olympiade?” Eliana asked, breaking their silence at the dinner table.

Lately Kezia looks more quiet and often daydreaming. Martin and Eliana catch the bad news of Kezia's attitude.

"Zia leaves after mah. For the science of about 8 people and 4 companion teachers.” said Kezia lazily.

"Is arland coming with me?” Martin asked enthusiastically.

"No reward, he's not an olympiade team.

"Well, even though papah has nitipin you same he loh.” Cetus Martin

"Yes zia small children everywhere should have a guard.” Kezia answered while feeding a spoonful of rice and side dishes to his mouth.

"How many days are you there?” Asked Eliana who looked worried.

"3 days mah. Later zia will often tell news to mamah. Only if zia gag tells you, don't worry. Maybe zia is busy there.” Light Kezia while holding Eliana's hand. Eliana simply nodded, trying to understand her daughter.

"Papah denger, if the champion 1 will be given an education scholarship until s3 and can choose to study abroad yes son?” Ask Martin.

"Yes pah, so zia wants to really.”

"Espirit yes dear, champion or not, you still pride mamah same papah.” Cetus Eliana rubbed Kezia's head.

"Yes, um..." Kezia.

Kezia mobile vibrates with 1 incoming message.

" Key, one of the group's authoritative subsidiaries again needs financial staff. Maybe your papah wants to try.”_ Anga

Kezia smiled looking at the contents of Angga's message. There is new hope in him.

"Pah, the authoritative subsidiary of the song group needs financial staff, papah want to try apply?” Ask Kezia.

"What's? Company authoritative group?” Ask Martin who almost choked. Kezia nodded with a smile. “But it's an international grade company. Usually the employees are graduates from abroad all. Papah where can rival their same” Guts Martin began to slack

"Gag is wrong dong papah try ? Who knows papah windfall.” Eliana tried to encourage. Martin pensively for a moment. A rare opportunity that I love to miss.

"Well, for your sake papah will try.” Martin cried with passion.

"Will I apply, about when?” _Schnucki

"My friend said tomorrow bring the application directly to his office. Meet you hamid.” _Female

"Ready.. Thanks for the info.”._Schnucki

Kezia conveyed the contents of the message to Martin and Martin looked very excited.

****

That morning, Kezia woke up earlier than usual. He prepared his textbooks and several times made sure no one was left behind.

Kezia steps out of the house with a tent with two boxes of breakfast made by Eliana. In front of the gate of the house is waiting for the online ojek order. Kezia immediately sat on the piggy bank and was immediately poked by the gas.20 minutes drive, Kezia had arrived at school. In front of the library already teased Tyo with his neat look.

"Morning key..” greet Tyo with enthusiasm. Since last night Kezia and Tyo have been texting. Tyo's feeling this morning was very happy.

"Snake breakfast?”

Tyo shook his head. Without them noticing a pair of eyes watching him from a distance. Tyo.

the library door was still closed and invited Kezia to enter.

"Your hair is still wet key, why are you iket?” Tanya Tyo while holding onto a few strands of Kezia's hair.

“Gag anything sister, this is half dry kok.” Kezia replied as he flicked his hair that was tied up high and showed his neckline. “ Yuk kak, we have breakfast first.” Kezia opened two boxes and thrust one of them at Tyo.

" Well thanks a lot key.” exclaim Tyo. Kezia replied with a smile. “ Emmm is really good... This makes you?” Ask Tyo. Kezia nodded while chewing the food in his mouth. “ Wow very lucky your future husband later, cooked good breakfast every day.” Tyo.

"Ah big sister, can aja.” Kezia replied once and then sipped mineral water in front of him. Tyo continued to enjoy his breakfast, while stealing glances at Kezia who was sitting next to him. They finished their breakfast and began their lessons.

Kezia's phone vibrated with the notification of a voice call from Arland.

"Call key,” said Tyo while pointing at Kezia's phone.

Kezia pressed the reject button. Tyo just smiled. Many times the voice calls from Arland came in, but none of them Kezia answered. Next, he prefers to turn off his phone.

****

"To the canteen yuk..” take Tyo to Kezia right after the break bell rang. Kezia agreed and got up from his seat. Kezia walked hand in hand with Tyo. During the trip they laughed together to talk about the abuse.

In the cafeteria is a basketball club with Dena and Sherly. Today Kania still has not entered because of guarding

his papih in the hospital.

"Today I'm the treat yes.” Tyo whispered in Kezia's ear. Kezia nodded with a smile on Tyo making the adorable teenager happy beyond measure. “ Where to sit?” Ask Tyo then.

"Whatever sister. “ replied Kezia. Tyo pulled out a chair and invited Kezia to sit down. “ Thanks brother.” said Kezia with a sweet smile.

"I pesen food first, what do you want to eat?”

"I spaghetti same orange juice.”

Tyo stood up to go order food. From another table, several pairs of unblinking eyes noticed Kezia and Tyo. Tyo soon returned and the food menu arrived.

Kezia and Tyo enjoyed each other's meals. Occasionally Tyo took Kezia in jest and Kezia laughed crisply making someone's chest almost explode.

"Hay key..” greet the new Irene. Kezia replied to her with a smile as her mouth was full of food.

"You two leave tomorrow for the olympiade?” Irene asked with sweetness.

"Yes brother.” Reply Kezia while nodding.

"Goodluck yaa. Hopefully you two can bring the champion trophy to this school.” said Irene while glancing at Arland.

"Thanks brother!” exclaim Kezia with a smile.

Irene passed by changing Arland and her friends are still not finished with the events today. Water and Fire suddenly looked so familiar.

Kezia and Tyo continued to devour their food. Tyo's reflex rubbed the sauce that stuck to Kezia's lips.

"I can do it myself..” said Kezia who began to feel uncomfortable with Tyo's attention.

"Oh sory..” Tyo said with a smile.

Suddenly, Arland stood up and approached Kezia at his desk.

"Key , I need to talk.” said Arland while staring hard at Kezia.

Kezia turned his face away indifferently as if not hearing Arland's words.

"I'm eating again. Maybe next time.” Kezia replied while gulping down water in front of him.

"I need to talk now to you!” snapping Arland while forcibly pulling Kezia's hand.

"Lo gag heard what he said?” Sontak Tyo stood up and held Arland's hand.

"Not your shit!” arland exclaimed while pushing Tyo lumaya's chest hard. And..

"DOLL!” Tyo punched Arland's cheek pretty hard. Arland nearly falls but Ricko and the Andes hold him back. Kezia was stunned but could not do anything.

" Just play your role key!” lirih Kezia to herself. On the other hand, Irene seemed to be engrossed in watching Kezia's game. Kezia clenched her hands. Withdrawing Tyo's hand and away from the crowd of his best friend.

"Let's get our brother out of here.” Take Kezia by and by. Tyo followed with a triumphant smile on his lips.

"Key wait!” arland exclaimed but Kezia did not respond. He continued walking by holding Tyo's hand.

"SHIT!!” Arland punched the table before him and cursed indistinctly. Ricko tried to calm Arland down. But it does not reduce Arland's frustration.

****

Kezia removed his hand from Tyo. He brushed his hair rough. He hated this situation but he had to play his part.

"Key, I'm sorry for the incident.” Said Tyo gently.

But Kezia still continued to walk in front of Tyo regardless of Tyo's ravings. His mind was chaotic, between not having the heart of Arland, feeling sinful towards Tyo and feeling sorry for his friends. Kezia continued to walk regardless of the surrounding people's eyes on him.

At Kezia's library, he opened his book again. He read the book in his depth, but there was no material attached to his memory. Kezia stood up again and walked towards the toilet without excuse to Tyo who had been sitting next to him.

The toilet atmosphere is quiet. Kezia stared fixedly at the image of his face reflected from the glass.

"Very sucks!” maki Kezia while splashing water on her shadow while remembering all the pretenses she had done earlier.

Pretend to smile, pretend that there is no problem, pretend that you have the heart and pretend that you do not care.

"ARRGGHH!!!” shouted Kezia while hitting the washbasin in front of her.

Kezia turned on the faucet and put his hands together to fetch water. He washed the water on his face. Kezia looked back at his face with annoyance. Take a deep breath and throw it away slowly. Kezia repeatedly did this and slowly his emotions began to subside. It turns out that sesult he has to play his part.

" Hold Key, hold on a little more pain” said Kezia while holding his chest.

Kezia walked out the toilet. Then back to the library.

"Key...” say hello to Tyo who still feels bad to Kezia.

"Yes sister.” said Kezia without turning Tyo at all.

"You still want to learn or go home?” Tanya Tyo while looking at Kezia fixedly. It seemed like Tyo understood what Kezia was feeling.

"Can you take me to the hospital?”

Tyo nodded.

Kezia and Tyo tidied up their books and rushed to a hospital not far from their school. During the trip there was no conversation between the two. Just the sound of another vehicle's horn vibrating their eardrums.

***