My First Love Story
Episode 84

Kezia walked while holding Arland's hand which was beside him. Arland smiled faintly looking at Kezia who seemed unwilling to let go of his grasp. For a few days now Kezia has always shown his feelings without hesitation, making Arland every night unable to sleep well. His mind was always filled with all about Kezia, until it felt almost crazy for hallucinating so often.

They arrived at their favorite park bench. Kezia pulled Arland's hand and invited him to sit down. Arland looked closely at Kezia, but Kezia kept looking ahead, not knowing what he saw. Arland grabbed the haircut that covered Kezia's pretty face and slipped it in Kezia's ear.

“Are you so happy with this graduation that you have to cry everything?” Arland asked without taking his eyes off Kezia.

Kezia turned his head, then looked at him with a smile.

“Where am I a crazy gag, squirm her smile like gini.” wafting Arland in heart.

“Key, I'm so happy, we're finally graduating. We can begin to realize our dreams, enjoy every day together, share stories, help each other tasks and encourage each other.” Arland said as he softly kissed the back of Kezia's hand.

Kezia turned his face away. Her chest feels tight. How much he wanted to do everything Arland said. Kezia's lips trembled, enduring the cry that was so difficult for him.

“Jadii... After this you want to continue school where?” Asked Arland who still admired the creation of the god who was beside him.

“Germany!” sahut Kezia without hesitation.

“Mhiu, do not joke dong.. Sekolah much... Gag all school to china country aja, let me bring me duck pecking?” canda Arland while pinching Kezia's squash.

Arland laughs to the edge –pingkal.

“I gag again joking land..” said Kezia while staring at Arland with teary eyes. Arland's face changed.

“Ayolah... joke you cute gag..” Arland start to look panic.

“Land, I told you, I gag again joking..” Kezia began to get upset and let go of his hand.

Arland's face grew tense. His warm gaze turned into such a cold gaze.

“What is your choice?” lirih Arland's. Kezia turned his gaze forward, then nodded. He could not see the gaze of Arland that he would miss so much.

Eventually, his defense collapsed. The clear granules warmly melted on Kezia's cheek. “You will leave me key, alone?” continued Arland with a chest that feels tight. Kezia did not answer. His shoulders shook with the sign of his tears breaking, yet there was not the slightest sound, it was truly heartbreaking.

This is the second time Arland feels the loss, which is after the departure of his papa. The pain feels the same. Suddenly and unexpectedly.

“I, release you land, you gag need to wait for me...” shrewd Kezia while covering her face with both hands.

There was a bolt of lightning that hit Arland's chest. He never thought that his fear had really happened. The day he had to part with Kezia all of a sudden.  He really did not prepare himself for this kind of condition.

“Do you want us to break up mhiu?” Arland held Kezia's hand. But Kezia shook Arland's hand, and closed both ears tightly.

“Don't call me that land, I beg you.” shush Kezia while sobbing. Arland dropped his back bench recline. His shoulders sagged and it felt like his body was so weak. Tears melt at the end of her eyes. A abstinence that has become the principle of Arland, it was just violated. “Life well, do not think of me..” continued Kezia without looking at Arland in the slightest.

Arland smiled. His feelings were turbulent.

“Hah, so this is the reason why some days you are very close to me key. You make me float, and now you make me fall. You are great key, you are really great.” said Arland while clapping with a slow rhythm.

“Land, I'm really sorry .. I gag ever intended to hurt you a little bit, I just..” Kezia sentence stopped.

There is no way he is telling the truth. He recalled the threat of Irene, if Irene could not get to Arland, then not only Kezia would be destroyed but Arland as well.

“What's free?! It's just entertainment for you that can drive me crazy and now I'm really going crazy! You satisfied key, you satisfied?!” gertak Arland's. Kezia did not answer even looking at Arland alone he could not.

“You made me fall in love with you, but today you made my heart die key. Your game worked well.” Arland continued with a strong emphasis on his words.

Arland immediately stood up and intended to leave kezia.

“Land, wait... Dengerin first explained me...” Kezia held Arland's hand firmly but Arland quickly shook it. Arland quickly walked away leaving Kezia and Kezia could only cry by squatting down holding his chest which felt very tight. “Land,., sorry I.. But this is the best for all of us..”. He was crying alone, while Arland went somewhere.

Kezia took his phone and searched Martin's number.

Kezia hugged her phone tightly. Today, he lost it all. His life and his happiness. The only man she cared about, today had truly hated her. There really is no hope anymore.

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“Bro, where are you going?!” ricko shouted as he saw Arland immediately grab his backpack and head for his motorcycle.

Arland started the engine immediately and ran it at high speed.

“Yang, Cepet chase Arland!” sherly's exclaiming ricko.

Ricko immediately ran towards his bike, and rushed after Arland. Before long, Kezia was walking with shaky steps. Kania immediately approached Kezia and hugged her.

“Gue go home first..” said Kezia stammeringly.

“Key, I'm anther ya...” Sherly hold Kezia's hand.

Kezia answered nothing. Sherly immediately retrieves the keys lying on the desk, then walks Kezia and her two best friends to the car.

During the journey there was not the slightest sound between them. Kezia stared out the window with tears breaking. His gaze was fixed on the vehicle going back and forth, crucifying each other, while his three companions, just looking at each other, did not know what to comfort Kezia.

Until he reached the front of Kezia's house, Sherly stopped the vehicle. Kezia got out of the car.

“Key...” call Dena with an anxious look. Kezia stopped his steps.

“Gue leaves at 8pm tonight.” said Kezia without looking at the faces of his three best friends, then passed away leaving them.

Kania, Sherly and Dena looked at each other. The worried rails were clearly drawn on their faces. However, they could not catch up to Kezia either, because at this time Kezia would need some time alone.

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Arland motorbike turned into the apartment area. Ricko continued to follow him. Arland parked the motorbike at random, then got off and walked into his apartment unit. Ricko ran after him. With all his might, Ricko managed to catch up to Arland while getting into the elevator. Ricko looked at Arland who was standing next to him. His face looked cold and chaotic. His eyes were red with a hardened jaw. His hands clenched tightly.

“TING!” the elevator stopped on the 16th floor. Arland immediately pressed the access code of his room and opened the door immediately.

“ARRGGHHH!!!!” arland shouted while slamming his backpack then ruffled his hair in frustration.

Arland was sitting on his living room couch, with his hands supporting his head.

Ricko sat next to Arland and kept looking at his best friend. Just this time Arland looked so messed up. Ricko didn't dare say anything. He just wants to accompany Arland, and make sure his best friend doesn't do dangerous things.

After Arland's breath sounded calmer, Ricko took the drinking water from the refrigerator and gave it to Arland. But Arland shook it and made it fall and break to the ground. Ricko didn't protest.

Arland got up from his seat. With gontai steps walking towards the bathroom. Shortly afterwards, the sound of falling water soaked Arland's stocky body. Arland was crying. In the tonjoknya bathroom pottery covered by ceramics. His hands were bleeding and carried away by running water. It didn't hurt Arland.

15 Minutes later Arland came out of the bathroom with a circular towel around his waist. He picked up a polo shirt with knee-length boxer pants. He walked out of the room into the kitchen. At the dining table, looks Ricko who is playing his phone. Some food on the table. But Arland ignored him and just took water from the dining table.

“Land..” Ricko stared at Arland standing before him. Arland did not reply, nor did he look. “Kezia leaves tonight at 8.” Ricko.

But Arland did not respond to anything. Arland put his used drinking glass in its original place, then returned to his room and closed the door of his room loudly.

Arland stood in front of a window overlooking his garden of memories with Kezia.The shadow of Kezia sobbing before him again appeared in the Arland image space. His feelings are mixed. His anger still did not subside.

“Land, you still have a chance to meet him first... don't take lo nyesel!” ricko exclaimed from behind the door of Arland's room. But Arland still remained sculpted as if he did not hear Ricko's call.

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