Beautiful Affair
BA #52 - Not Choosing Anyone

Alira looked at Daniel who was currently talking to the Doctor, Daniel looked very serious about handling the care of Linda's mother. Daniel not only asked Linda's mother to be given the best care but he also asked for the best Doctor and Sister.

After the incident this morning, Alira kept thinking about her future, Daniel's future as well as Ryan's.

Moreover, Alira knows, so far Daniel does seem very changed, which is why Alira never thought the least that Daniel has got his Memory back.

So far, the only thing that makes Alira upset is the tragedy of stimulant drugs and Daniel who still has a relationship with him when Alira was very uninspired even as numb.

Alira also remembered with the closeness of Daniel and Ryan so far, as Daniel who felt Ryan was the only family, Ryan always said the same thing, he said, Daniel was the only family he had.

"If I choose one of them, then both of them will still be destroyed," muttered Alira sadly.

When Daniel goes to take care of the administration, Alira goes straight to Linda's mother's nursery, kissing the woman's forehead who has been taking care of him affectionately.

"Sorry, Mom. I can't wait for Mom to wake up, I have to go now" said Alira in a trembling voice, even her tears could not be contained anymore.

"I'm so sorry about the mother and the orphanage, I don't want to be separated from you, but now I have to go, Mom. Because my existence will only destroy the lives of two men at once, a friend at once a brother."

Alira wiped away her tears then once again she gave a kiss on Linda's forehead before she finally left, and at the same time, she went away, Linda's mother shed her tears as if she heard what Alira said and could also feel Alira's feelings.

Alira sends Ryan a voicemail and he deletes the message and puts the phone back in his bag.

Alira leaves the hospital through the back door, intentionally leaving her bag, cell phone and everything she has in the hospital.

Alira wants to get away from Daniel and Ryan's life, wanting to get away from the love and marriage that just left her strangled.

"As I originally planned, I'm going to get away from you all."

.........

Daniel immediately checks into the toilet but there is no Alira there, he immediately looks for Alira out but Alira is not seen.

Panicked Daniel goes straight home, hoping Alira returns home but when he gets home, Daniel finds no one.

Daniel immediately contacted Jill who was in the orphanage, Daniel asked Alira whereabouts but Jill said Alira was not there. Daniel was getting panicked and anxious. He immediately contacted his men and ordered them to find Alira as soon as possible.

"Yes God! Where are you, Al? Are you all right?" Daniel's mumbling panicked.

.........

"I'm leaving, Ryan. I'm gone from you also from Daniel, and I'll never come back. I'm sorry if I hurt you, but I don't want to hurt you more and Daniel, that's why I left. And I hope you keep what's going on between us a secret from Daniel and everyone else. Keep that secret in your heart until you die. Because if the secret is revealed, then you will destroy Daniel and your brotherhood.

Ryan, today I realized something, Daniel sincerely loves me, he really loves me even though his way of loving is not what I want. What he did because he did not know how to love the right especially with his dark past.

Just as you changed because you loved me, she tried to change because she loved me and I could feel the change.

While me? I'm just poison between you.

Ryan, I put Daniel in, I got my husband to you, I knew he'd be crazy if I went away from him, I asked him to be aware, actually.

I also just realized today that I love her, I should have known, when I didn't accept Calista defaming her name, it was because I loved her. When I stayed by her side with all the pain, it was because I loved her. I love him in sickness and in health, in hurt and happy. But I have tarnished our love, misunderstanding that the comfort I feel for you I consider love.

I was wrong, Ryan. The feeling was just a sense of comfort, a mere escape. I'm sorry, and I didn't choose any of you, because I didn't deserve it."