Dusk Sky
It Ends When I Wake Up

Dusk stared blankly at the reference paper and the next examination room. He never thought a day like this would come his way.

Not only was his eyes blank, his mind was also blank. Don't know what to feel. Because honestly Dusk is not ready for today.

In contrast to the husband whose smile did not fade even a little after the doctor Imanuel gave a letter of reference that drove them to the obstetrician.

Yep. Doctor Imanuel diagnosed if the Dusk pain is natural because of the baby's birth. Or she was pregnant young. And for more details, later the obstetrician will explain.

"Baby Anna will definitely be very happy, Ayy, if she is born. He was not lonely because there was a friend." so happy, Baskara did not realize the look of his eyes wistfully in the two beautiful netra of the wife.

For Baskara who is an only child. Having many children is a blessing. Because he did not want his son to feel as lonely as he was.

He wants to have a family like his wife's. Where there are mothers and children who love each other and take the time to be together.

Dusk forced his smile to respond to the husband's endless speech discussing their second child-to-be.

Baskara continued to chatter about what gender their second child would be. What will his face look like, whether it looks like Dusk again or will look like him, or maybe a blend of their faces. And many other things that Baskara said enthusiastically.

"Kok diem anyway, ayy? you still dizzy?" tanya so Dusk did not look as enthusiastic as he.

Still with a forced smile, Dusk nodded and leaned his head on the husband's shoulder. Right now he really needs a backrest. To convince and strengthen himself. Even he still considered this a dream and it would end when he woke up.

Entering the office of the obstetrician - who previously also handled her pregnancy when pregnant baby Anna - the doctor immediately performed several tests and examinations.

It did not take long, the doctor confirmed the diagnosis of Doctor Immanuel earlier. That Dusk is really a two-bodied. Her pregnancy is now two months old. And the content is a little weak because Dusk does not maintain his health. Too tired and stress that ultimately affects the content.

Lucky medicines that during this Dusk consumption is safe for pregnant and lactating women. So it has no effect on their fetuses.

"But our son's gonna be okay, isn't he, doc?" baskara's face that had been looking sparkling, now changed with worry.

"If Mrs.Senja can maintain a pattern of rest and eating well, and regularly take vitamins, the fetus in the womb will also develop well."

Baskara squeezed his wife's fingers cold. He thought Dusk was worried as he felt now. Didn't know that cold hand, that paper-white face has been around since Dr. Immanuel gave the diagnosis.

"Don't worry, ayy. The second baby will be fine. I'll take care of you and make sure you're healthy to the end."

Dusk did not respond. He was still staring at the screen nanar featuring a fetus that was only the size of a peanut. His ears are also deaf from the explanation of the doctor who is explaining about breast MILK for baby Anna.

On his way back to the apartment, Dusk also kept silent. Throw his eyes out the car window. I don't know what they pass because the mind of Dusk is not in place.

"What do you want to stop by, Ayy? You have signs of cravings. Not rich when pregnant Anna, so who knows now also want that?"

Baskara who was focusing on the steering turned his head when he did not get a reply from his wife after a while.

"Aeyy?" call her soft and still get no response.

"Iaaang.." he called again with the right hand that changed the lap of the wife to grab the hand of his wife who was there.

"Yes, why?"

"I should have asked. You why? how do I talk to you and daydream?"

Twilight shook her head and kept her hands away from her husband. "I'm not pa-pa, mas. Konsen aja nyetir. I don't want to die young." she replied trying to be as normal as possible even though her tone still sounded strange.

But Baskara who did not want to extend it obeyed his wife's will.

Arriving at the basement, Dusk first got out of the car and stepped towards the elevator door. He already wanted to quickly get to his unit to hug his little daughter. He wanted to apologize to his little girl. Apologizing for the carelessness she and her husband did.

He himself did not expect to give baby Anna a sister when the little baby was not even six months old.

The difficult experience of having a child in her first pregnancy at that time, made Dusk decide not to use any pregnancy delay. Because she does not want to be later when she is ready to have a second child, it will be more difficult to get pregnant than the first pregnancy.

For that he is confident just not to use any procrastination tools. I did not expect that she would get pregnant after a few months of giving birth.

A new elevator takes him up after Baskara - who catches up with him - comes in. But Dusk still did not want to look her husband in the eyes. Either angry or afraid of tears spilling and her husband felt guilty.

Arriving at the unit, Dusk went straight to the room where baby Anna was asleep. Ignoring Maureen and her mother who asked her how she was.

That's where Baskara saw something strange with his wife. Because Dusk is not the type of brash child who will be impolite as before to older people.

And come to think of it, he saw not his wife's smile except the forced smile that he had just realized now.

"Why with the kid?" maureen's mother asked Baskara.

He who had previously been trying to interpret his wife's attitude all day, immediately gasped and violated his wife's condition.

"Pregnant again?!" Maureen exclaims frenziedly. I can't believe the news he heard. Banging in disbelief. For those of him who still do not want children, imagining he in the position of Dusk, he was already horrified. What else did his best friend experience for himself.

Unlike Maureen's more experienced mother. "Now I know why the boy behaved like that." he muttered looking at the door of the room with sadness. His murmur could still be heard by Baskara and Maureen.

"You mean mom?"

Maureen's mother looked back at Baskara and said. "He must have felt very guilty about Anna."

Baskara eyebrows fused with a frowned forehead. A sign that he did not understand what the mother of his wife's best friend said.

"He was busy in college. Had to leave Anna and not see for yourself every first development that the baby could."

"Feeling not enough in bestowing his affection. And the most make him feel guilty must be because of ASI. The baby was still so small to get a sister."

Baskara. He didn't even think about how baby Anna would feel from that position. He is selfish by only assuming baby Anna will be happy because it will get a playmate. Not thinking of the needs of his little baby.

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