The Romance of Earth and Blue
SECTION 42 – Not Forced

Bima held my hand that was about to stand up to my friends. I stopped and looked at him confused. In front of me was a different Milky Way than usual. Kaali, there are no eyes full of ignorance. He was only Bima who this time looked at me as seriously as when he was learning new things.

I let go of his hand on my arm. “OK. So what?”

“Emang should I repeat?” tanyakanya.

“Why do I like me? Though your attitude does not at all describe people who are in love again,”. That's pretty logical, right?

“Au-“ Bima looked at me with a gaze that I did not understand. “I want to look for your attention only. I don't know how to get to know you. You were too unreachable at first.”

“Why should I?”

“Yes why is it like you don't deserve to be disliked?”

Why is he upset by the question I asked? “Not it yes?”

“Gak. You are the best person for me to like.”

I let out a rough breath. “Bim, are you sure you're not wrong? I have never met anyone who likes but always makes sprains. If it's nosy okay, like you said that it's just for attention. But everything you do is terrible, making my phone almost gone, hiding books, and many others. Things like that are too childish, I actually become not like you,” I said honestly.

“Sorry. I try not to be that bad again,” he said this time in a low voice.

After that we both kept quiet. This time I felt a great awkwardness. Oh come on, we've spent a lot of time alone working on projects and there's never been such a bad time at all.

“I know how. You haven't completely forgotten Blue. So want to jump you soan not really possible yes,” Bima chuckles. “Then I just want to reveal it. At once apologize if you are not comfortable with my messiness all this time. After this, there is nothing. No need to be awkward.”

Bima smiled.

Honestly, when he said everything, it made me feel guilty.

“Bim, thank you for being honest. But I'm sorry, like you said, my feelings are only for Blue. I haven't moved on. And you are my precious friend. I don't want our friendship to be so tenuous if entering the love-love affair like this. I'll give you a damn.”

I hurried to get my backpack and ran out of class. I have absolutely no desire to look back. Bima, sorry yes.

But my steps stopped when not far from where I was standing, I saw Blue and his friends.

“Blue takes off single time. Let's buy it, right? Finished taxes? Isn't it Ren?” said Alan with a voice so loud that echoed in the hallway of this already deserted school.

Behind her are Rena and Blue. Rena whose face blushed in shame and Blue who greeted her with her laughter. “You want? Yes come on,” said Rena.

“Wih, no mistake, Ru. Tau gini from the past right.”

Blue just chuckles.

So they're official? So what did I hear that wasn't a misunderstanding like Blue said? So Blue was after Rena a long time ago huh? They are a good fit, a good match.

My heart was like it was pierced when I found out that fact. By accident my eyes and Blue met, he looked surprised to see me who could only sculpt.

I immediately turned around to hide my tears and re-entered the classroom so as not to meet them.

“Bima, let's make it,” I said directly.

Bima looked surprised. “But you don't like me.”

I approached him. I don't know why there's anger in my heart. I'm jealous. I also want to prove to Blue that I can also be like, I can be with other men.

“So want to not?” myrag.

Blue came down from his seat, he was standing right in front of me making me have to look up to look him in the eye. From this close distance I just realized that Bima was very high and I only reached her shoulder.

“You think I don't know why you suddenly jumped? I heard what Alan was talking about outside. You just want Blue bales, right?”

I really can't believe that everything I think can be fully read by him. I want to hide everything alone. I finally couldn't pretend. I shed my tears in front of him. I don't care how I look that's probably messed up by now.

I just want to cry to get rid of my pain. “Izin hugs you,” whispered Bima.

Before I answered, he brought my head closer to her.

“Earth?”

My crying stopped for a moment when I heard Blue calling out to me. But where is it possible? Obviously, he was walking towards the parking lot. When I was about to turn my head, Bima held my head.

“Bim, off,” my word. Bima finally let go of her hand. But when I looked at the door, I found no one. Yeah, I'm a fool. Where could Blue come and find me.

I wiped my tears. I want to go home. But the thought that I would meet them made me doubtful.

“Why don't you want to be my girlfriend? Though a moment ago you said that you like me,” I asked slowly.

Bima sighed. “I don't want you to lie about your own feelings. If we keep going what? Just for the Blue manas? What if Blue doesn't care? If it doesn't work? Have you ever thought about my feelings too? No one wants to be a wanderer, Bumi.”

The words that came out of it made me feel even more guilty. Bima's right, I'm too selfish. I only care about my own purpose.

“Do not feel guilty,” Bima touched the top of my head. The touch is different from Blue. “If you need someone to make Blue jealous, tell me. I'd definitely like to help you. And one thing, Earth, I haven't given up. This is just the beginning. I'm still trying to make you like me. I know it must be hard, it must take a long time. If you're afraid to tell me let me stop. Because if you ask, I'll be horrified.”

I was down to hear everything.

“You want to go home, right? Let me drive you if you are afraid to meet Blue,” he said again as if he could read my mind.

In the end I just nodded and followed his long steps. But fortunately, during the trip we did not meet with Blue or his friends.

“You sure you don't want to transfer to home?” bima asked once more as I asked her to drop me off in front of the bookstore.

I nodded with certainty. “Daddy's office next door. Later I go home with dad,” I explained.

Bima finally nodded.