I Select Another Door of Heaven
Choosing to Survive

Long enough for Rianti to be in that place, the tightness in his chest slightly diminished after shedding many tears in that place.

As Ashar's time passed, Rianti decided to search the mosque before returning. Fortunately, he remembered this place very well. Rianti walked down the road to a residential area not too far from the place. A few minutes later he arrived at a mosque and immediately took ablution and performed prayers.

Just before Maghrib Rianti had arrived back at his house. The state of the house is still dark a sign that no family members have returned home.

Chequek...

The key to the main door was opened, with Rianti's footsteps walking into his house. With no intention of turning on the lights he walked up the stairs one by one towards his room. Although his chest was a little relieved after shedding tears but deep in his heart the wound was so gaping that he could not help himself to not shed tears when passing the stairs where right on the wall of the stairs photos of his wedding to Nathan.

Kumandang adzan magrib awakened Rianti from his reverie. He also beristighfar aware himself so as not to dissolve in sadness that will only make it worse. Rianti is aware that life does not always give what is in accordance with expectations, before he had experienced the ups and downs of life struggles.

Left by the father when he was not able to be financially productive because he was still sitting on the bench of High School, he painstakingly finished his school in order to find a decent job because it must be the backbone of the family. The condition of the mother who is not okay after the death of the father makes him have to fight alone, find a livelihood for the family and the cost of school for his two younger brothers.

Everything Rianti went well, without complaining despite the occasional temptation to give up. But with his determination and firmness he could pass through all that until the iron horse prince came to care for him.

But the gang man has been a hero in his life and his two younger siblings in fact today he is also the one who gave wounds so deep that the infinite pain Rianti felt.

Rianti chose to rise, as before he was always able to be a good player in every role he was playing. Rianti tried to be ordinary, carrying out his duty as usual to welcome the return of the husband, although in his little heart whispered that maybe his husband will not come home tonight because it is the first night with his second wife.

The roar of the car again jerked Rianti who was sitting alone at his dining table. He stepped up and walked towards the main door.

From the curtains that opened slowly he could see the husband's car was parked in the usual place. The knock on the door pulled Rianti to open it immediately.

The figure he had been thinking about since then was now standing right in front of him. Rianti looked at her with an uncharacteristic gaze, she wanted to look at her husband's face carefully. It could be that after this his eyes will no longer be able to look at the face that has always given him strength.

"Wa'alaikumsalam Mas, Alhamdulillah, welcome Mas" Rianti also grabbed the husband's hand and kissed him.As usual he grabbed the bag and the husband draped on his shoulder.

"Mas want to take a shower first or..."

"I'm gonna take a shower, baby, but for a second..." Nathan clasped Rianti's body into his arms, sipping at the top of his wife's head that he missed so much all day. In his heart was at war between being honest now or waiting for the right time.

"Buck..."

"Beauty, I'm so tired today. Hugging you like this I felt tired of yawning away" Nathan whispered right in Rianti's ear.

Rianti is currently in Nathan's arms from behind as she is about to pick up the clothes that will be prepared for her husband. Rianti's heart beat was increasing, the shadow of the incident last afternoon in the hospital made his chest tight again.

"Never leave me dear, only you are able to give me peace in my every fret. I love you, I love you so much Rianti Auriza Zahra" Nathan said in a trembling tone of voice as if holding back a cry.

Hear the words of love that her husband uttered make Rianti's heart warm, she can feel the sincerity of every speech of her husband. Her heart and mind went back to war, her mind asking for her to retreat but her little heart whispered if her husband needed her the most.

"O Allah, nourish my husband's body, strengthen himself in the face of trials. Emitting his sustenance, allow me to accompany his process of struggle. He loves me more than he does, he really is the best human being after my parents." - presumably Rianti in his heart, after thinking with much consideration Rianti decided to be quiet at this time.

She did not start any discussion about the problems that happened to her husband, she would not force Nathan to speak honestly. Let time decide everything. He leaves everything to the Supreme Owner of all problems and solutions.

For now, Rianti will try to survive as best she can, pretending not to know what has happened, Rianti believes her husband must have a reason why breaking his promise not to be double, but if fate wants him to surrender, he can't do much.