I Select Another Door of Heaven
The Most Beautiful Lunch

Destroyed, broken by reality and hit by the weight of the mind. Perhaps this is a picture of Rianti's current state.

Since Micah reported that she was pregnant, she came to Rianti's house more and more often because she wanted to always be close to Nathan, maybe it was baby-congenital, she said. While he was not good with Rianti if he had to ask Nathan to come every night to his apartment and wait for him to sleep. Micah finally decided to occasionally come and stay there at Rianti's house.

Rianti could not resist, let alone Nathan not seem to be able to make a decision. Finally only allow Rianti can do on the demand honey it.

Being in the current situation really makes Rianti very uncomfortable. Nathan increasingly shows his concern for Micah, Micah's pregnancy is certainly the reason. Her husband even begged Rianti to understand the state of her honey which now requires more attention from her husband.

"It turns out that it hurts, it hurts...." Rianti again closed the door of his room, he chose to spill his tears on the bed. Urung to come out when he accidentally saw Micah sleeping on Nathan's lap while Nathan's hand stroked the woman's stomach tenderly. Sometimes the laughter sounded very happy.

Rianti once asked Nathan not to show his affection with Micah if in front of him because Rianti could not resist his jealousy, however, honestly Rianti said she wished her husband was more sensitive to her jealous feelings seeing her husband's treatment of Micah.

If you can be honest at this time, Rianti also wants to tell Nathan if he is not only jealous but also insecure because until now he has not been pregnant. Feeling worthless is what further undermines the heart of Rianti.

"I have a heart and I have legs too, if you don't know how to appreciate, my feet know how to walk away." Rianti said to himself, he rubbed the rough tears that had not stopped coming out.

In the evening Rianti woke up from a caress that disturbed him.

"Eumm.mas..." Rianti squirms, she sees her husband being confined, even though his eyes are not fully opened.

"Sorry I woke you up" Nathan said with a smile,

"What time is this?" rianti asked with a distinctive hoarse voice of waking up.

"It's still a new night at one o'clock dear" Nathan slid his face into Rianti's alcove which instantly awoke from his sleep.

"Bag.." Rianti dodged,

"Your wife is asleep?" asked Rianti while trying to wake up from his sleep. Today he was very tired because of his work in the hospital, not to mention the view at home that always makes his chest tight, as a result after Isya he decided to sleep and missed his dinner.

"You're also my dear wife" Nathan responded ignoring Rianti's question,

"I want to talk seriously..."

"I miss you baby" Nathan's eyes were so longing.

"Buck..."

"Please baby, I miss you so much" Nathan stepped up the action,

Guilt also arises in Rianti's heart, some days her husband is very busy with his second wife who is pregnant, tonight he came to her and said if he missed her. Rianti was eager to refuse, but legally religion and state she was still Nathan's wife. Sin if she refuses her husband's request for no apparent reason.

Nathan is getting out of control, when Rianti is still dissolved in his daydream, he actually increasingly launched his action.

"Maybe this will be a precious moment before we part ways. Well, for the last time I will fulfill my duty as your wife, Mas." Inner Rianti who then she dissolved in the caress of her husband's affection.

After quite a lot of thought, weighing all the possibilities that would happen Rianti decided to withdraw from his marriage. He would ask Nathan nicely, hoping everything would go smoothly without a hitch.

After reflecting enough, Rianti increasingly realized that he was not able to undergo polygamous marriage. He did not want to continue to sin because of his unwillingness in sharing, however marrying two or three even up to four women was allowed for men in religion with a record of being able to be fair, he said, yet it seems she has not been educated to become the woman who can be a part of that sunnah.

At exactly three o'clock they were done with their business, at the same time they both heard Micah's cry calling Nathan's name.

With a swift Nathan immediately got out of bed after briefly kissing Rianti's forehead.

"Hufft.." Rianti's breath sounded rough, she closed her eyes with melted tears soaking her pillow.

Instead of being able to sleep, I saw the early Adzan finally invite Rianti to wake up, he went to the bathroom to clean himself and after that on the prayer mat became the most comfortable place for him to complain of all complaints and feelings.

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Ting....

Notification of incoming messages made Nathan who was focusing on the file in his hand diverted. He knew if there was an incoming message from Rianti, Nathan deliberately set a special notification for each message and incoming call from his first wife.

'Assalamu'alaikum's chat. Mas, sorry to interrupt his work time. If we spend time in this afternoon break, can we meet? There is something I want to say, but if Mas is busy, there is no need to force.'

Nathan frowned after reading his wife's message, his heart slightly poking at how could his wife send him such a formal message, just like everyone else, he thought.

"Honey, where are you?" Nathan prefers to call Rianti, he does not want to make his wife feel more and more distance from him.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Ma. I was in the hospital garden, finished praying for lunch"

"Wa'alaikumsalam, let me go there now" Nathan stood up from his seat, he would leave his job to see his wife.

"Serious gas can come? Not interrupting his work time?" ask Rianti carefully,

"Don't love, why are you asking like that anyway. I'm your husband Ri, not anyone else" Nathan's tone rose slightly, he didn't think through his wife's question.

"Okay, thanks for the time. I'll wait in the park near the hospital canteen. Assalamu'alaikum" Rianti ended his phone call with Nathan.

While in his study, Nathan was stunned, he thought there was something different from his wife's tone.

Nathan rushes from his office to the hospital where his wife works.

The atmosphere of the afternoon was quite blistering, but the gentle breeze that swayed every leaf of trees in the hospital garden made it quite cool.

Rianti postponed her meal, choosing to wait for her husband to be invited to eat with her.

"Darling..."

"Assalamu'alaikum, Mas" Rianti grabbed Nathan's hand and kissed the back of his hand.

"Wa'alaikumsalam's chat. Sorry, you waited a long time, the road was jammed." Nathan sat in an empty chair right in front of Rianti.

In the park there are indeed several pairs of chairs and a small table just to enjoy the atmosphere of the park or lunch as Rianti often does today.

"Mas has lunch?" asked Rianti while opening his food supply,

"Not yet" Nathan replied truthfully,

"Then we'll have lunch?" take Rianti with a sweet smile. Of course it was with pleasure that Nathan's day nodded his head.

They also enjoyed lunch together in the hospital garden, with Rianti who feeds Nathan while chatting small things that then make them laugh together and occasionally Nathan pranks Rianti by holding a spoon in his mouth. Both of them laughed again until a container of food supplies that Rianti brought from home is now toilet.

'Thank you for taking the time to be with me. This is the most beautiful lunch I've ever had with you Rianti murmured in his heart.