I Select Another Door of Heaven
Rianti's Request

Maybe I'm at my lowest point in life. Where I have lost something precious in my life.

I've felt a loss before, but losing this time makes me feel completely worthless and unworthy of happiness. In this loss I felt that a part of me was missing, it turned out that he who had now disappeared from me had occupied a special space in the inner part of the heart that had never been inhabited before.

Falling, hurting, being left behind, losing, hurting. It felt like it had crashed deep into a deep abyss, so quiet, dark and stifling.

Blame fate and ask God, why should I...??? why is all this happening??

Trying to force the situation as you wish, but still the same...

Tired.yes.until tired no longer force, suppose, regret.

Stop, that's how I finally feel.

At the point of surrender I felt completely helpless, and that's when I began to realize that I just needed to lean on him and hope for him.

I realized, all this time had put hope in the wrong place. I slowly tried to gather the remnants of strength, rearranging the scattered hearts. Brave out of the darkness, though limped. I tried to get rid of the bitterness of the past and began to string it all together from the beginning.

The presence of a new creature in my womb, slowly became a source of spirit and strength for me to rise. I'll believe, after this, everything will be fine. After this I no longer need to fear the rain even the storm had hit.

I cannot give up just because of one thing that was paralyzing, because there are many other good things that make me strong and spirit to live life.

All of this is only temporary, I must remain excited and never give up. Because time goes on, I'll never get to my destination if we stop.

So, my determination has been steady to continue this journey with all its struggles and sacrifices. InshaaAllah is happy I will achieve with determination and earnestness.

In a new place with a new hope will start everything with my baby.

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Rianti has been in the hospital for a week. Today she feels she has completely recovered and hopes to be discharged from the hospital and move on with her life as planned.

During her time at the hospital Tiara was always the one who was always there for her. Although not every night he can accompany his best friend because the big baby is very difficult to condition but every day until afternoon Tiara always took the time to accompany his best friend in the hospital. Fortunately, Rianti's two sisters who were out of town chose to go home.

Hearing the condition of the brother who was being treated at the hospital decided Andhika, Rianti's first sister, came home. Previously he had applied for a week off from his workplace so he could freely accompany his brother in the hospital. Likewise with Riadi, Rianti's youngest brother who is also studying with a scholarship that he got also decided to go home and accompany his brother.

Both have heard clearly and directly from their brother about the marriage of the brother who must run aground. Wisely Rianti gave understanding to his two younger brothers in order to receive all this sincerely and wisely as he was. Rianti also requested that his two younger siblings do not hate Nathan, still establish friendship as necessary because even though Nathan's services to their families are very large.

They remember very well that the education and decent work they currently have can not be separated from the role of Nathan.

Both will do what Rianti asks. Both of them can only pray that their beloved brother will soon get his happiness again.

News of Rianti being sick and hospitalized finally reached Nathan's ears. The man who has the status of ex-husband was in recent days always came to Rianti's contract and never found him there.

Nathan certainly can not stand still when what he is looking for has not been obtained. He also turned to look for Rianti's whereabouts in the hospital.

After asking Rianti's colleagues, he also found out that Rianti was sick and hospitalized.

Nathan can easily get information about the whereabouts of Rianti's nursery. In a hurry Nathan went to the elevator to meet Rianti.

His desire to meet Rianti was unable to hold him back anymore. He decides to meet the woman who has become his ex-wife, of course Nathan does it without Micah's knowledge. He knew what the consequences would be if Micah found out what he was doing, the woman would definitely be very angry. Especially at this time Micah was still sulking at him because almost every night after they made love Micah heard Nathan who was always delirious by calling the Name of Rianti.

But it did not discourage Nathan to continue to meet Rianti. It was enough that he refrained from knowing the condition of his ex-wife, to be honest he was very worried about the state of Rianti. Especially after the divorce Rianti no longer live in a house that should be his, Rianti even refused the money given Nathan as monthly compensation that has become Nathan's commitment to keep meeting the needs of his life.

The sound of the door opening loud enough made the people who were in the room jump in shock.

Rianti, Andhika and Riadi who were packing their brother's belongings immediately turned to the door where Nathan was already standing with breath up and down and face flushed red.

"Mas...?" Rianti who first regained consciousness from his shock,

"What's wrong?" ask Rianti,

"You why? Why don't you tell me you're sick?" nathan asked walking towards Rianti without caring about the whereabouts of Rianti's two younger brothers,

"I'm just exhausted and dehydrated Mas, nothing serious. After all, there is no reason for me to tell you about my situation. We have nothing to do anymore" replied Rianti while continuing his activities which had stopped due to Nathan's arrival.

"Can't, you're still my responsibility Ri" Nathan tried to stop Rianti's hand movement by trying to grab the hand but swiftly dodged Rianti.

"Mas, keep your attitude! We are no longer mahram." said Rianti reminded, as soon as Nathan nailed, he realized that before marriage Rianti always took care of himself from anyone, especially when he had started migrating by changing his appearance with hijab after a long time friendly with Tiara.

"Sorry" Nathan said with his own face, he looked at Rianti and observed all the ps his ex-wife did without daring to speak again.

"Please sit down, someone might want to say. But I'm sorry I can't be long because we have to get out of this hospital." Rianti glanced at his two younger siblings who had just been watching.

"Dhik, Riad..." Nathan only realizes that in the room there is not only himself and Rianti, he walks towards Dhika and Riad to greet the two before finally sitting on the sofa following Rianti.

"What's up, Mom?" ask Rianti directly,

"We went to the cafeteria first, brother?" seeing the glance from Nathan Andhika understand if the former brother-in-law wants to freely chat, he also took the initiative to invite his sister to come out.

"Yes, but you stay here huh Dek, accompany brother." Rianti appointed Riadi his youngest sister to remain there, although Rianti's communication with Nathan is currently very likely to cause slander. Riadi nodded after getting approval also from her older brother through a nod of the head.

Nathan took a deep breath, filling up every space in his lungs that felt increasingly congested, sensing that Rianti was getting higher and higher building a barrier fortress with himself.

"I'm worried about you Ri, I'm honestly sorry I let you go. Is there no chance for me to be with you back? We'll refer to him, honey?" Nathan said to the point, without hesitation even though there was Riadi in the nursery who looked shocked to hear the words of his former brother-in-law, who was not happy, the intention to put earphones in his ears is not because of the hunt to hear Nathan's words.

Rianti looked at the man who was still enthroned in his heart, for a moment he was carried away, he was carried away, nathan's pleading gaze which had only been shown to him by the man full of charm had slightly carried him in the past when the man asked him to be his wife.

"Astaghfirullah" said Rianti in his heart, he realized what he was thinking almost shook his heart.

"Mas.." Rianti's voice sounded different in Nathan's ears, no longer the soft, spoiled tone that soothed his soul but managed to make his heart exercise.

"I tried desperately to avoid disturbing your life. So I beg you, please stay where you are and be happy." Rianti sighed pausing his words. The day after the divorce trial hammer was tapped, he accidentally saw Nathan walking alone with Micah with a happy smile on the faces of both of them.

"Whatever happens later, never again have the desire to come back to me, or even greet me. Never look back, or try to find an excuse to come back."

"Mas will never know how crazy I was when logic forced me to let you go. Though the heart was still so eager to hold you tightly." The shadow of Micah's arrival reprimanding him in the hospital for meeting Nathan made him again feel the pain in his heart,

"Just work together, Mom, because I promised to never meet you by any chance. So please don't spoil my memory with the things that make me remember you and everything that ever happened between us."

"Let's recover by returning to being strangers who no longer know each other. Let's just say I never existed. Let's just say I was the worst nightmare I've ever met, since the beginning of our marriage we've been wrong."

"And once again, happy, Mom. Trust me, I'll always try to stay okay."

Rianti said calmly, no more tears, he said everything he wanted to say with a smile.