HEART EYES HURT
CHAPTER 4 HERMAN POV

My name is Herman I married Nissa because of an arranged marriage, I agree because I did know her since childhood.We were friends of the school period, first, and I see now she is beautiful and also successful proven by her work which I think is quite different from me who is only a PNS employee in BUMN, but I admit to her only a regular school employee.

Our marriage was also in a simple title was also at the request of my future wife. And Nissa's family has prepared a house for both of us to live in, well I have to admit Nissa's family is a family that has enough, and I am very supportive of this matchmaking.

" Nis you are beautiful, mas very lucky to marry you, thank you for wanting to marry mas ya Nis," I said while in the room together, this is our first night.

" It's a mas but Nissa has a request mas, there is no betrayal between us yes mas, because Nissa hates infidelity, very much" said Nissa.

" It's Nis, mas promise das will be loyal to you, can mas call you deck and can we do that now?" My toot.

Nissa only smiled and lowered her head in embarrassment with a red burst of her face that had smooth white skin. And we did our duty as husband and wife that night.

A year later I was very happy to have a wife like Nissa who complied and served me well. I just found out that he works in a big company, even though he is just an ordinary staff but his salary is the same as me which is around 7 million, I never told Nissa about my original job, all he knew I was a PNS teacher who had a salary of only 4 million rupiahs each month, finally I gave him a monthly money of only 1 million rupiahs,  because I reasoned to take care of my mother's needs by giving me 1 million and my needs 1 million and then I put 1 million, and she just obeyed all my words, it was Nissa who covered our needs every month.

And like the previous weekend we always spent alone at home to relax, I was looking at a car magazine and I really wanted to buy a car, moreover, Nissa also had a car I was always in the bully my friend worked in BUMN but did not have a car and still use a motorbike, yes even though the bike is also cool big motor is not a duck motorcycle ,but I want a car, if Nissa wants to buy me a car, I have to try my mind.

" Dek mas savings is still a long time deck, mas again want something to buy," said I with my face to make as eleventh as possible.

" What do you want to buy?" ask Nissa.

" It's a deck, this car but the savings are still lacking a lot of decks" I said again while showing ads in magazines.

" I can buy gold but at most used gpp kas, if the new money is also not there," explained Nissa

" Gpp deck, as long as it's still good," I said.

" Tomorrow I ask my friend who sells used cars yes mas," said Nisa.

" She's thank you, love my beautiful wife more and more" I'm so lucky to have a beautiful wife like Nissa.

A week later the car was bought by Nissa even though it was used but I was very happy because all this time I really wanted the car but had not been delivered, many also turned out to be Nissa's savings, my inner self.

To be honest, I love Nissa very much and intend to be there for Nissa at any time.

But one day suddenly came Nissa's distant cousin Fina, when I introduced her I was just ordinary, because when I noticed Fina the ordinary woman could not be compared with my wife, she said, but when there was no Nissa at home, and I happened to be coming home fast. Fina was always trying to tease me, these few months until she finally kissed me savagely while I was watching TV by myself.

At night when the house is sleeping, I always sleep until late at night to watch my favorite ball show, as a normal man especially in the beautiful scenery that I just knew Fina had a body like Nissa my wild nature as a man was tempted and I returned the kiss, moreover, Fina was wearing clothes that were not material at all, and there was our struggle that night.

Since then I had an illicit relationship with Fina behind Nissa, Fina's game was better than Nissa's, and I enjoyed it a lot.

" Make it, we take a walk to the top of the mas?" ask Fina.

" He promised I'd tell Nissa, there'd be a seminar out of town, but I'd like to ask her for more money," I said as I stroked Fina's thighs that did not wear anything inside her blanket, yes we are currently in Fina's room, Fina, after doing our hot activities I accidentally came out early in the morning from the room just to have fun with Fina. And honestly, since Fina I've rarely touched Nissa in a few months.

" Will Nissa want you some gold?" ask Fina.

" Of course!" kataku sure.

The next day at the office I intend to call Nissa to ask for the money, because tomorrow it is coming on Saturday so I am ready.

I called Nissa immediately, but strangely how many times I called not picked up, where did Nissa? then I chatted him to ask Nissa for 5 million.

For a walk to the top with Fina, my inner self.

All this time Nissa always gave me money if I asked but not much at most only 500 thousand or at most a million, but this time I want to ask for 5 million because my savings don't want me to use it to have fun with Fina, because Fina has often asked me for money and asked me to pay for her expensive groceries for me, because she provides satisfactory service so I obey her.

Since my savings are running low then I will use Nissa's money for fun, and Nissa is a stupid woman who is easily lied to by my deadly seduction.

" Where Nissa's phone has not been picked up, chat was not in reply make a sewot!" I said with annoyance because the meal was about to end, I put my HP back in the bag to work again afraid I was late.

When it was time to go home, I checked my HP again, and Nissa replied to my message, but damn he couldn't give the 5 million because he thought the money was too big and he had no savings at all, because it covered the needs of the house. I also continued to carry out my plan to go to the top with Fina using my own money.

After a few months of being in a relationship with Fina, I saw Nissa's nature and attitude was a bit different, but I didn't worry about it all the more important my life is now happy, but in a few days Fina could not go home, even though I was very heavy with her.

After I got home I saw the house was still empty as soon as I went into the room to clean myself up, after which I went down to watch TV while waiting for Nissa to come home from work, not how long my HP sounds and there's Fina's writing calling.

" Dear, you're not coming home today?" my many.

" He mas I'm still at a friend's house so easy to find the supervisor at least 2 weeks later I'm in the trial mas," replied Fina called, really I miss his voice.

" But make us to labuan bajo, mas already promise you the same me, if I pass I will go there "

" He's done you pass we'll take a walk to labuan bajo, but at most I want to ask money to Nissa first, make our accommodation there."

" If mba Nissa wants to give mending asking a lot of mas, so we can shopping mas."

"  Well at best I said for mom's expense, you don't have to worry, easy on Nissa mah, she's good with my mom and royal, she'll love my mom, too," I said to Fina

I just turned off the phone for fear that Nissa was back, and sure enough Nissa had come back and was eating alone, even though I was waiting for her to come home to eat together, my mind.

"  Dear how you even eat first, I was waiting for you," said I with a face to be surprised even though I was holding back upset.

" I saw you talking so I don't want to bother you, I'm hungry anyway, sorry I'm not ready to eat you, I'm so tired, I'm so hungry, and after eating I went to sleep immediately" said Nissa.

" Where is Fina mas?" ask Nissa

" Oh he didn't come home on deck, he said he had finished his thesis at his tea house" I explained as I poured rice on the plate because my stomach was hungry too.

" Why do you know?" asked Nissa again with a surprised face.

" So he chatted me, he he he chatted me deck," I said nervously, why I even release should I just say do not know, my mind.

" Why didn't he tell me! even the chat to you doang, strange yes I also do not want to be too dizzy," said Nissa.

After that Nissa went straight to the room to sleep, and I finished my meal and watched my favorite show on TV.

Days passed, and Nissa called at this hour,

" Where is assalamu'alaikum mas? can you pick me up at the office? " Say Nissa on the phone.

" Where did you get to the deckhouse, where did you go?" much

" My car broke down, I waited in the lobby, yeah" said Nissa

" Yes already, mas walk now," I reply when I just sampe and still tired.

The journey from Nissa's office to home only takes 20 minutes at most and luckily the streets are not jammed, in the car Nissa just kept quiet and I saw her face seemed tired or was thinking a lot, but because I was driving I never invited Nissa to chat and finally after reaching home, I was very tired, Nissa went down by herself.

" I'll be at home talking to you, which is important" Nissa said with a serious face.

Honestly I'm nervous because I'm afraid my affair with Fina was discovered and I don't want to lose both, they give me pleasure.

" Well, what deck, now "I say fishing.

" Tar is at home" said Nissa directly into the house.

I followed Nissa who had entered the house and I saw Nissa sitting on a chair with a very tired face, the more curious I was made, hopefully nothing happened, because until I lose Nissa I'm gonna lose the luxury I got, and Nissa's not gonna forgive me because she hates infidelity so much. I sat down next to Nissa, holding her hand, hoping that Nissa wouldn't ask to part if she knew.

" Well, I'm not working anymore in the company, I only work until this month, I'm confused how is this? you can handle our needs in the future, PNS salary is good and you also have a lot of savings, you only love me a million every month" explained Nissa.

Honestly, I was surprised to hear Nissa's words, what did she get fired how is this going forward, what about my walk to the labuan bajo with Fina? my inner.

I just stared at Nissa's face looking for a lie there, but I didn't see that it deserved Nissa's face was so moody and tired after coming home from work.

" Will try yes deck, you will know your own salary mas only 4 million so only love you one million, it also holds the remaining 1 million for the needs of the mother, so only love you one million, but why didn't you work the deck again?" my many.

" There is a reduction in employees in my part, you know I'm just a regular employee in the financial section, I don't know, either, but yes maybe with this there is a silver lining I can rest at home and start our pregnancy program mas, we have a year ago postponed having children, would you like to have children from me?" asked Nissa with a cheerful face.

" He certainly loves, who does not want to have a deck child, especially from a beautiful and good wife like you, yes already, then try to meet the needs of this house, especially from a beautiful and good wife like you, the bath first is the deck," I said as I passed leaving Nissa and headed to the room.

After I got to the room I didn't go straight into the bathroom, I thought about what Nissa said earlier.

How is this where I have promised to make my way to the labuan bajo with Fina in two weeks, forced I have to use my savings again, again, if you know how rich gini every payday I keep asking for money same Nissa more for a lot of my savings, why the hell Nissa must use in fired everything, now she is really useless.

because of the anger I kept from getting caught by Nissa I just went to the bathroom to clean my body.