HEART EYES HURT
THIS IS DADDY SON....!

POV Herman

For a year I was thought to be crazy, but I wasn't crazy, maybe more depressed. In this RSJ I learned to control my emotions to be much better, I have given everything. There was a nurse who always helped me, even during this RSJ, she was the one who took care of me, because I was able to control my emotions that were always explosive, now it gets better.

I also helped the beautiful Sister named Marlina to treat other patients, at first I just followed Marlina to visit her patients, who had to be taken medicine and fed, she said, I was amazed by Marlina who was very patient in taking care of the crazy people in this RSJ, because the doctor saw my positive actions and saw my progress, he said, finally I was recruited to help Marlina and work at this hospital.

Days change, years change too. I worked in the hospital for two years and stayed in the hospital. After 1 year I became a patient in this hospital, my mother always came here and without giving up always persuaded me to go home, because I did not have the heart with my mother, let alone my mother was old, finally I went home and left Marlina alone, I was very sad because without me knowing I was used to the presence of Marlina, but I did not dare to express my feelings, she said, I am inferior and not confident especially with my current situation, even though I know I can still be healed, I must try to cure my disease, who knows if I can still have children, so that I do not linger continue to grieve and soon be able to meet my son Arka.

Six months I was on medication and thank God I am now declared cured, only because my disease was not treated immediately at that time, I was difficult to have children, he said, this is bad news in my life, I reflect on my fate, is this my reward for being so cruel to my three wives that I cannot have children.

"Where is the result man? How's it? how much more do you have to do the treatment? hope you get well, man!" my mother said with a sincere smile, I saw the face of the mother who still looks beautiful even though there are fine strokes on her face, my mother's face is very slow to age, what is this because she often met Arka, Arka, so my mother was always happy because of her grandchildren, but would my mother be sad when she found out I couldn't give her any more grandchildren, my inner self.

"Mom.... I'm.i...." My words were stuck in my throat, I hugged my mother and cried, say I cry, I'm old but still like Mami's son, I don't care.

"Here you go, Don't cry, be patient this is a test for you, just think of it as a sinner you man in the past," said my mother wisely, I can only nod my head, this is karma for me.

"I'm cured, actually, ma'am.... Hix.....But the doctor said I might find it hard to have children. In this day and age where there are women who want to be the same barren husband, ma'am," I said softly, my heart was completely broken when I heard the doctor's verdict on me.

"Quietly, you must find your happiness man... As long as you repent nasuha man, do not repent sambel and do not do anything else let alone disturb your ex-wife."

"He's mom... I'll repent ma'am..... I will be a better human being... " I'm still crying.

"Don't cry over what happened. Mending now you just work really, look for a job that is pretty tight here just not there, far from home."

"Let's Mom... I got a job at the hospital, ma'am.... The house is here, ma'am... Well even being an ambulance driver, which is important halal."

"Nothing man... Whatever is important, man... "

"She is calm... But Mom actually had something Herman wanted to say,"

"Well, what do you need?"

"No Ma'am .... Not that, Herman no longer need anything, actually Herman there likes someone Ma'am... It's just that Herman was embarrassed to reveal it."

"If you don't tell the girl, you won't know how she feels about you... About him to accept or not it's a business later, the important thing is to talk first, let's not be comfortable later!"

"He. real mom... Yes, ma'am tomorrow I'll see her, ma'am..." Herman Vigor 45.

The next day, early in the morning Herman had taken a shower and put on a bottle of perfume, trimmed his hair in a barber dapper, after which put on an office shirt and material pants, shiny shoes." Ok .... The handsome is already, the time to meet gebetan," said Herman saw his appearance on the big glass.

Herman went down to the dining room for breakfast, and Herman sat down with his mother at the dinner table.

"Astaghfirullah stinks what is this stinging anyway," said Herman's mother as she pushed her nose with a flick of her hand, my mother's face so unpleasant at sight even as if she was about to vomit.

"Mothers... This is expensive perfume, the fragrance is as fragrant as Mom...." Herman said confidently, even though he made people dizzy around, Herman immediately took the fried rice and put it on the plate, taking the first bribe.

"You man...! guess what if you use perfumed oil! Do not be a bottle also the time you finish, the girl you meet will not be the same as you, who has been vomiting first but the smell of nyongnyong perfume oil you man," mocked Endang's mother, mengajek, while paying attention to the appearance of Herman from top to bottom.

"That's a really neat shirt, her hair wih klimis got, really slippery hair, if there's a fly must be floppy man, you and and how many hours man?" ledek Endang's mother smiled at the appearance of her son who was very neat and handsome.

"Ledek just keep Mom..... Not that doain let his son's proposal be accepted, this is mah ledekin Bae, make Herman a bit down," annoyed me by choking my mouth, Endang's mother when it comes to ngeledekin his son emang no 1.

"I'll go first, ma'am... Doain's future mother-in-law is a real ghost and wants to accept Herman as he is."

"He's the best mother doain for the mother's son."

"Oh, Mom, when do you want to see Arka?" I asked my mother, honestly actually I really want to meet my son who may now have grown up, already three years, maybe Arka now again funny, if Arka could live with me! but let it be, Arka's life can be more assured if with Nissa and Agam, my mind.

"Later Sunday, Nissa did not give thanks to her newborn twins yesterday, her cute son man, Twins and boys," said my mother told me about her son Nissa and Agam so happy, so happy, I can see the happiness in my mother's face, Nissa's family is still treating my mother well, mother can anytime meet Arka, even play with Arka, different from me, she said, it can't be done by me as Arka's real father, sometimes I hate Nissa so much, but I realize it's all my fault, because my obsession wants to get rich instantly, I lost my son.

"If I come along, I can't... I want to meet Arka, I really miss looking at her face and growing up, surely she's funny and handsome huh Mom?" lirihku sad. So I stopped sitting in the front seat, my heart always melow when it comes to my son Arka.

"Yes later, I ask permission from Nissa and Agam, so you can come along, just pray you are allowed to meet your son man."

"Amin Ma'am.... How rich is his face, ma'am...? Arka must be very rich handsome Herman," said Herman staring into the window, imagining Arka in his trunk with Marlina.

"When he was born the rich face you look like, but now it's been three years, the face is a mixture of the two of you, even Arka is more handsome than you man. Arka is very dear to Agam and Nissa's extended family, even Agam's parents are very pampering Arka," said my mother, but why mother seemed sad to say that.

"Then is mom sad?" Ask me.

"Mother is not sad, mother is also very often invite Arka to play with mother, just try you used to not cheat man, Surely you are happy now, can add another child, just try to cheat man, but have seen you happy with your crush, mother is happy. Oh it is, you when this road meets Marlina to the noon man."

"Have you called Marlina, if you want to take her for a walk?"

"Not yet ma'am."

"Take it on the phone first, and then he did not go in how?

"Yes, Mom.... Herman phone first yes," said I who immediately took HP and look for Marlina contact No, Alhamdulillah first connection was immediately lifted, I was eager to contact my idol.

"Yes Allah.... Good thing it's not working yet, ma'am...." If again my heart, the plan to let go of longing even can not.

"Why did it come? lina's not working." asked Endang's mother curiously.

"Bec ... He took a week off from home, Mom, Yes I changed clothes again, males wear sultry gini rich clothes," I said limp, because the preparation of the shubuh was in vain.

"HAHAHAHHAHA, God Herman is very sad, a bottle of sweet perfume is useless," said my mother continues to laugh, out loud, I thawed my mouth upset to see my happy mother above my suffering.

"Keep laughing Mom, Seneng really see his son sad rich gini!" I said annoyed at it straight away I left my mother who was still laughing.

Sunday has arrived...

This is the day I've been waiting for, after three years I can see my son, Arka the fruit of my love with Nissa, surely now Arka can walk and talk, and more funny.

"Mother ayokkk..........! It's been a long time....! the show's going abis...!" I shouted annoyed, because my mother used her makeup long rich want the event of the official meeting.

"In a moment, I have to perform Ok dong, because the big families of Nissa and Agam will gather together, when else can chat and know with the richest families in the country." Mother said, making me more upset, because indirectly the mother boasts the Agam who is rich and more everything from me.

"Why is your face so rich?"

"I'm surprised that being a mother's child is me what is Nissa anyway Mom? kanya is very similar to the Agam-Agam, but I am the same she is far away from me everywhere."

"Oh yeah... Agam is also cute, complete package again, and more importantly he is loyal, although it is a bit cool too, but the same is Nissa."

"Yes already Ayuk way ma'am... Lazy I said that Agam-Agam," said I who went straight into the car owned by mother, it turns out that during my stay in the hospital, mother can buy a car from her garden in the village, my mom was great.

My mother and I finally arrived at the residence of Nissa, which was still luxurious and elegant, when I entered the yard of the house of Agam, which is still beautiful, I can see a lot of rows of luxury cars over 1 m, making me shudder and less, Nissa is really far above me now.

Entering the house and the living room, I look around the furniture is still luxurious and always amaze me about the contents of this house, on the stairs, home, I saw my ex-mother and father-in-law with Agam's parents.

"Siang Mah" I said softly to my former in-laws. But I saw his face immediately sour when I saw me, god it was a very, very rich face to bite, I said in my heart.

"Why did you come here?" mama Arum Ketus.

"I .... I'm..." Saying stammered.

"Assalamualaikum everything," said Mamahku, who was playing with my former mother-in-law and her mother Agam.

"Thank God I was saved by my mother" I said in my heart.

"Bu Endang why bring the Herman here, and he makes weird again," said Mamah Arum flirting with me.

"Well, Miss Arum, Herman wants to see how Arka's face is, she hasn't seen for three years, I've had the same permission as Nissa and Agam, can you? " Say my mother, it's so cool that you look for excuses.

"Let's Mah... Yesterday Ms. Endang had spoken with Nissa, and Nissa had also asked permission to me mah, Yes already Bu Endang let me take her to Arka, in her room happened to be her Ark was sleeping," said Agam, serem see the eyes of this Agam, had seen me almost want to go out, turn to in-laws my mother was very sweet.

"But I ask for the same condition of mother and Herman, so that Herman man does not talk to Arka if Herman is his father, because Arka is still a child, let when he grows up we will tell him." Agam said it pisses me off, but it's what's best for Arka, she's a kid, she's afraid of her psychic.

"Good... I'm just here to see Arka... How does it look," Agam did not answer my words, and we were still walking to Arka's room, when I reached Arka's room, I was amazed, I was amazed, looking at the Arka room decor that is so playful and luxurious, Nissa and Agam really spoil my son.

"Mom this Arka?"

"He's Arka, he's handsome!"

"Let's Mom.... Can I carry it"

"Better later, when Arka is awake"

I sat next to my sleeping son, he was very handsome, and I could not feel my tears falling.

"Arka darling... This is Dad, son...!"  What I can only say in my heart.