My Beloved Bodyguard's
THE MBB 44

“I can go crazy!” Rarendra growled in his luxurious room while sipping the remaining red wine from the crystal glass. Standing in front of the window, staring at the night atmosphere of the capital city that never died.

“Why is he coming again? He should have died, so he couldn't haunt me like this, ” great-grandson Rarendra, desperate.

She had already struggled to cast Shanuella's shadow, but the woman had never gone out of her mind. Their past stories replay and leave many impressions that have been tried to ignore.

“I don't love him. He was the one who took my lover's life. No, this is not love.” Squeezing his chest, the tightness was present again after a long time disappeared. “This is not a miss. There will be no longing when meeting the enemy. Yeah, it's not a miss. It's just a tadpole that's stuck and can't find the exit.”

Repeatedly believing themselves that what grips his heart is not a feeling of love, affection, or the like. He really did not want to enjoy the thump caused by Shanuella, did not want to accept the fact that his heart was racing because of the woman's actions.

Evidently this time the night feels long, the eyes do not want to be closed at all. Shanuella drove him crazy just by his sudden presence.

“Do I cancel it? Find another contractor or ..” Rarendra.

Ripping into her pants pocket and pulling out her phone, she began to wipe the screen and tried to peek back at the photos of Shanuella she had stolen this afternoon.

“Ah, I already threw it away first. Why keep it back now? He's a nobody, he has no influence in your life. Remember, you're Rarendra Tan, not Blade. You are two different people. Blade who loves Shan-Shan, not you.” Rarendra strengthened himself again.

“She was the woman Blade loved, not Rarendra. Blade has been dead for a long time, so that love should go too.”

The more staring at the photos of Shanuella stored in the mobile phone gallery, the more chaotic the heart. The index end was already anchored in the corner of the screen with the picture of a garbage can, he was preparing to throw all the photos out of his sight. But again something from the heart tried to stop him. He suddenly hesitated.

Eyes closed, his heart in disarray. Worrying fishing is upset inside him. Suddenly, emotions were up and down irregularly. At the end of his sanity, he threw the empty crystal glass that accompanied.

Prangs.

“I hate you. Hates you so much. Please get out of my life. I ... I .. don't want to be tormented like this. You've been punishing me all along. Don't come to ruin my life, Shan. Don't.” The burly body that was usually full of prestige, suddenly fell on the floor. Rarendra was crying in the middle of his solitude. Tears of men who are desperate, disappointed, and injured.

“I'm happy now. Me ...” Staring back at the phone screen, dozens of photos of Shanuella were stored there. Just one pose, but he took it dozens of times.

“Well from my life!” Deletion one by one even though the heart is also sliced. The man's tears spilled, drenching the phone screen as his fingers nimbly threw all of Shanuella's photos into the trash folder. Until finally, the man gave up. The pain is like being sliced when the heart and brain are fighting. Unable to continue, Rarendra throws his cell phone to the wall to scatter.

When the brain cannot control feelings, that's when his life is like hell. Unwanted love lives in the heart and is hard to break. Five years passed, Shanuella was still reluctant to leave. This is a reality that has been hidden from the world. In fact, he won't admit it.