Love, take my side
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Nia convinced herself that what she decided tonight was the best thing for her in the future. Nia decides to have a relationship with Alex because Nia does not want to continue to dissolve in sadness about the departure of her baby boy. And Nia also did not want to continue to be trapped in the bitter life experience of the past. Nia really wanted to escape from those bitter memories.

Nia dared to have a serious relationship with Alex not because just because the man had already expressed his feelings. Nia accepts Alex because Nia can see the sincerity of the man's heart all along and seems to be able to accept him as he is.

Nia did not want to choose the wrong to be her companion because the man who will marry her later must be able to accept her daughter. And Alex knew all about his life. Nia hopes Alex can fulfill her wish that does not expect a free relationship later. Nia deliberately put forward the condition to test whether the man really loved her or was just expecting her body.

Nia finally walks into the house after pensively thinking about her relationship with Alex which changed a few minutes ago.

Nia's steps greeted Jessi with a careless smile and two thumbs directed at her. When Nia and Alex were talking near the door. Jessi can hear the conversation of the new lovers and Jessi also hears the conversation of Nia and Alex near the car.

"You eavesdropped!" nia said to her sister. Jessi nodded her head if she overheard their conversation. Seeing Jessi's nod of the head, Nia's face reddened in embarrassment.

"I support you, ma'am. I hope Alex is the best man for you and your daughter" Jessi said. Nia assures Jessi's words. Jessi is also happy to see Nia is ready to open her heart to Alex.

"You think. Is accepting Alex a rash decision?" ask Nia. The woman did not want to be considered negative by her sister and Alex accepted the man after three weeks of her daughter's birth. Nia was afraid that she would get a negative assessment because of her decision.

"Not really. You and Alex are not new people. You guys have been friends for a long time. And that guy looks really good too. Rarely is there such a man. Supporting a friend who is down who turns out to be his love" replied Jessi. He heard clearly Nia and Alex talk. From scratch. Jessi already suspects that Alex's concern for Nia isn't a concern because it's a friend.

"I just want to be happy, Jes. And hopefully with Alex. We can make each other happy."

"Pursue your goodness. Be thankful for what you receive. I will support you in any case. Keep the commitment not to allow a free relationship in your relationship. Stay away from those sins. If you repeat the same mistake. Then I will take my hands off and will not regard you as a brother anymore" Jessi advised and threatened Nia.

Jessi said that doesn't mean to feel better than Nia. She and her sister had already felt the humiliation of Nia's actions. His words emphasized that he would not accept repeated mistakes. Nia suffered for her own actions. But as a sister, he also suffered and also bore the shame.

"Not going to deck anymore. That bitter experience will be the first and last of my life. I also hope you can take care of yourself. Don't ever do anything like I do" Nia said. He also did not want his younger brother to repeat his mistakes in the future. Jessi nodded her head. Inwardly, Jessi hoped to keep her pride.

The brothers finally entered their rooms after advising each other.

Inside her room, Nia looked at her baby daughter who was still sleeping. Although the daughter is there because of her own mistakes, Nia sees her daughter as a gift in her life. Nia did not view her daughter as a mistake. He is the guilty one. And for the future of his daughter. Nia also promised that she would try to get out of the zone that makes her live right on the right foot.

In another place. The Gunawan house. Danny sat leaning against the sofa with his eyes closed which looked up. From Nia's house. Danny didn't go home to Rieta's grandmother. The man was embarrassed to tell him that Nia had left the house. Along the way, Sisil cried to stop at every supermarket they passed. The little boy's brain guesses if what he heard from Danny that Nia was shopping thinking if Nia was shopping at one of the supermarkets they passed.

Along the way, Danny felt frustrated himself. Guilt over the death of the baby boy also felt annoyed to Sisil who added to the burden of the mind. Danny could not concentrate on looking for Nia because the sound of Sisil's crying made his brain could not work properly. His brain was only thinking how so that his daughter could stay still and not look for Nia anymore.

"Why did you give false hope to my daughter, Nia. Is this your revenge on me?" ask Danny in my heart. Half a day he was tired of persuading Sisil not to look for Nia again. An hour ago, her daughter fell asleep after crying.

Danny ruffled his own hair. Imagining Nia crying for not being able to persuade herself to take responsibility like Sisil had driven her almost mad.

"This is how you felt before. Crying for hours because of me. And now you avenge it to my daughter" said Danny, hitting the couch. Because thinking of Nia and Sisil together. Danny doesn't realize his parents walked into the house.

"Why don't you come to Grandma's house?" gunawan asked sharply after standing in front of Danny. They waited for Danny and Nia to arrive for hours at the house. Danny didn't give them any news. Even the calls from them were not answered.

Gunawan and aunt Tiara sat face to face on the sofa and watched Danny's face bow down in lethargy.

"Nia moved out of town pa, ma," replied Danny quietly and listlessly. The two old men looked surprised not even being able to say a single word hearing the news about Nia.

"Nia went far away, maybe she didn't expect me anymore. He moved without giving any news even to his neighbors" Danny said. Danny told him everything he heard and what Nia's neighbors told him. Danny also recounts the negative assessment to Nia from the mother of the neighbor's mother.

"That makes me sad. During the trip Sisil cried. Nia really left and didn't expect me to be pa, ma," said Danny again. When I say that. Danny felt his eyes heat up.

"It wasn't Nia who left and didn't expect you to. But you drove that woman out of your heart. Learn to accept this reality. Maybe Nia is not your soul mate" said Aunt Tiara softly.

"So what about Sisil. Sisil already liked Nia very much. You don't give up Danny. Papa will have my men look for Nia" said Gunawan. The man did not accept the words of his wife who asked Danny to accept the fact that Nia was gone.

"Father, don't impose your own will. Nia left because she didn't want Danny to marry her" said Aunt Tiara. He also wants Danny to marry Nia but Aunt Tiara will not impose her own will. He wants Danny and Nia to marry out of their own will not because of interference from the family especially from their side.

"It's mama, I know what to do for the good and happiness of Danny and Sisil" Gunawan said, taking his phone out of his pants pocket.

"Papa, Nia left because of her wish because the woman felt this was the best for herself. Maybe if you insist on marrying Danny. Nia will still feel the heartache of all your painful deeds" said Aunt Tiara. The woman thinks that Nia's departure is because she has not been able to forget the heartache incised by Rieta and Gunawan's grandmother. Marrying Danny means that Nia must always meet and even face Gunawan and also Rieta's grandmother later.

"Forgiving does not mean forgetting. The human brain is very difficult to forget the beautiful memories and bitter memories. And maybe, Nia is in a difficult position to forget the bitter memories of a pregnancy without a husband, the insults of her neighbors and also the departure of her baby boy. We have to respect Nia's decision. He left before we went far preparing for their wedding. That means Nia also doesn't want to make us lose and be ashamed."

Gunawan stopped his hand briefly from the phone screen. He heard clearly the words of his wife. But then the man played his finger and then stuck the phone near his ear. Danny and Aunt Tiara looked at the man, who was heard telling someone to look for Nia.

"We don't have to look for the whereabouts of Nia pa. There's no bond that makes us have to force that woman to unite with Danny. So please let him calm down first" Aunt Tiara told Gunawan. But the man did not answer. Gunawan just moved from his seat and left Danny and aunt Tiara in the living room.

"You and your dad are the same. Why don't you stop papa you're telling his people to look for Nia's whereabouts?" ask the woman annoyed.

"Why do you always look at me wrong?. Irresponsibility is wrong, responsibility is also wrong," Danny replied no less upset. The woman blames her irresponsibility for Nia's previous pregnancy but now also disagrees if Gunawan seeks out Nia's whereabouts.

"That's because I see this problem on the part of women who are hurt. And your responsibility is too late. So let Nia determine her own happiness."

Danny didn't want to hear his mother speak any longer. Just like Gunawan. Danny did the same. The man is seen moving from his seat and leaving the mother who looks at him with annoyance.

"Either what sins were committed by the ancestors so that my children must experience things like this" Tiara said in her heart. The woman shook her head looking at the problem faced by Evan and Danny who had to hurt the woman first realized her mistake.

"I just want the best for you Nia," said the woman again inwardly. He hoped that such a thing would not happen again to his next descendant. He realized that both of his grandchildren were women. Mama Tiara was terrified if the karma of their father's actions would later. One of his grandchildren accepted.

"Think what this is. No. gabe. Both of my grandchildren have not experienced anything like that. Quite a regret from his father that became a punishment for the actions of my son," said Tiara's mother denied her own thoughts.

As for Danny, the man did not enter his room but rather went into his daughter's room. She looked at her daughter's face, which could sometimes still be heard from her breath if the child cried hours before.

Danny laid his body next to his daughter.

"Why the second time. I have to experience this?" ask Danny in my heart. Sisil also existed before the wedding and the existence of the child in the womb Clara which was the reason for the two of them getting married at that time. And for the second time, the incident was repeated with Nia's pregnancy. What distinguishes if Sisil exists because of the will of the two of them while the baby boy is there because of the trapping of Nia.

"I will not let go of you Nia. If you were the one holding me accountable then I'm the one holding my daughter accountable for her grief" said Danny softly.

For the sake of his daughter Sisil and for the sake of his dead son. Danny promises in his heart he'll find Nia. Not wanting to linger long to let Nia in her hiding. Danny also contacts one of his friends to help him find Nia's whereabouts.

Danny smiled at his friend's willingness to find Nia.

"If only Anggita who hid in the corners can I find let alone you who are still in this city," said Danny as he put his phone to the study table Sisil in the room. A smile does not come off his lips. After giving Nia's personal data to her friend. Danny knows Nia's personal data because he has a photocopy of a resident's card. Danny gets information that Nia is still most likely still in town. There is no purchase of airline tickets or train tickets on behalf of Nia.

Danny sat down on the side of Sisil's bed. The man flicked his finger at the bed while thinking about what plan he was going to execute in order to find out Nia's whereabouts.