Love, take my side
Continue Or Fall

Being responsible for the actions done is not as easy as in oral. In reality, that responsibility is very difficult. As experienced by Nia. The woman had promised in her heart and promised her sisters to accept with truth the reality of life. But what happened. Nia is still in sadness.

The cry of sorrow is a lullaby every night. While afternoon Nia's heart pretended to be firm in front of her two sisters. Nia realized, had made a disgrace to their families and Nia did not want her two sisters to see the sadness on her face.

Nia wasn't expecting Danny anymore. But her pregnancy was a burden to Nia. Since Jessi and Santi found out about the pregnancy. Nia locked herself in the house. The neighbors did not know Nia's pregnancy was already embarrassed. Nia felt if the views of the neighbors were fixed to her stomach that was still flat. Jessi and Santi knew that. But they understand and do not force Nia as they see fit.

As of today, Nia was staying indoors while not far from her house, one of the neighbors was having a wedding party. Neighbors use the home page for the wedding party. The festive atmosphere from the direction of the party did not make Nia interested to go outside. For her home is the safest place to hide herself and her pregnancy.

"Sir, not at home. Come out and see the crowd" Santi told Nia, who had just entered the house. Nia did not answer. The woman fell asleep on the sofa with bright eyes.

"Bak" Santi repeated. Santi patted her sister's leg slowly.

"Mother at home. You're lazy to get out of the house."

Santi looked at Nia with a sad look. Just outside, Santi overheard what some of his neighbors were saying about Nia. It turns out that some mothers suspect Nia is pregnant and their suspicions are reinforced by the existence of a pregnant milk box in the trash can belonging to the Nia family.

"Well, did Nia know that some of the neighbors were already suspicious of Nia's pregnancy" Santi said in his heart.

Santi watched Nia's face. At first glance, Nia looks fine. But getting noticed will look sadness on that face.

"Mom, why is it like this. Didn't you promise to come out and accept the reality of life?" santi asked sadly. Instantly also seen Nia covering her face and her body shaken.

Mbak Ihklas, but it seems not ready to face tomorrow San. What if the neighbor knows about the pregnancy. They must have insulted and made mbak into gossip."

Santi thought of Nia's words. If he is in the position of Nia at the moment, he must also be unable to deal with it.

"So how else, ma'am. Or what if we just move out of here?" santi's proposal. Going from this place may be the only way to avoid embarrassment.

"Where to go, the ancestral house of our grandfather has been mortgaged for your college needs," said Nia. At the proposal of Jessi they pawned the house relics of the grandparents to replace the five million money given by Rendra.

Santi breathed his breath rough. Feeling sorry for Nia but not being able to do anything to help Nia.

"The only way, you have to be ready to accept any risk" said Santi.

Nia fell silent. That's what's hard for him. But given that the pregnancy could not be hidden Nia finally moved from her seat. He went into the room to make a potluck. Not long after. Nia came out in neat clothes and thin makeup. He was prepared to accept the consequences of all his actions.

Nia out of the house. He plans to join the neighbors at the party. She doesn't know if Santi is peeping at her from home anxiously.

She was greeted with fake smiles from her neighbors. The neighbors had just talked about her for never coming out and also about the box of pregnant milk.

"Can you join here?" nia asked before landing her body on the bench. Some of them sincerely accepted. And some turned their faces.

"Can. Please Nia," said one of them. Unconsciously by Nia, Someone from the group of people directly stared at Nia's stomach.

Nia felt her heart beating fast because of that question. In her heart Nia felt regret for joining the party. Nia felt a curious gaze from the people close to her at this moment. It seemed that the person was more interested in the information about who was pregnant among them compared to the voice of a woman who was flowing beautifully from the back.

Nia felt her face that felt cold from paling. Nia did that to cover up her nervousness. Nia felt a struggle of heart. Between being honest about the pregnancy or lying.

"Why are you pale. What are people's suspicions. That you're pregnant with Nia yourself?"

Nia lowered her face with her eyes closed. That question was very embarrassing to him. Nia also realized sooner or later. People will know about the pregnancy. He will be more embarrassed later if this time lying and later the suspicions of the neighbors turned out to be reality.

Not just there. Nia also thinks she could have been hiding inside the house during the pregnancy. But after giving birth. The baby will certainly make a sound and will be heard by his neighbors.

"Honestly, Nia. Besides lying, it's not good. The eyes of the mothers around us can distinguish women who are pregnant or women who are not pregnant."

Nia was getting nervous at the insistence. It seems that today is the first day that Nia announced her pregnancy to her neighbors.

"Yes Nia. Why do you cover up if one of you is pregnant."

"Sorry to all. If I can be honest. It was between the three of us. One of them is pregnant. And that was me," Nia said honestly. Silent with a pale face finally Nia chose honestly rather than having to lie to hide the pregnancy.

Nia did not care what the neighbors responded. For sure Nia wants to be responsible for her actions including admitting the fetus even without a husband at her side.

Nia also did not care about that shocked face. After acknowledging the pregnancy. Nia was relieved. This is her first responsibility as a future mother by not denying the existence of the fetus in her stomach.

"Is the father of your fetus a man who failed to be your husband?" ask someone again.

"No. That man is someone else.

Some of the men nodded their heads. The person immediately drew the conclusion in his heart that the failure of Nia's marriage plan had something to do with Nia's current pregnancy. They also came to the conclusion that Nia's current pregnancy is not being held accountable. Their conclusion was correct after Nia finally told her. Nia deliberately hid the trap and said if the pregnancy was on the basis of love would be equally willing.

"Take that woman don't be stupid. You give your body but the man only wants the seed deposit without thinking about his actions. Find another oria. And if I were in your situation like this. I'll let go of both. Boyfriend and also the fetus itself."

"I'm like that too. I wouldn't be willing to get pregnant if the guy ran off like that. It's good to be together. Sad turn of own responsibility."

"Pregnancy outside marriage is not as easy as we think. Besides being scorned and considered a cheap woman. The child after birth or has begun to grow up will be embarrassed. We are better off taking our own sins than our children taking them.

Nia thought about the word for the word. There was doubt in his heart.

"Continue or aborted," asked Nia inwardly. Nia justifies in the heart if getting pregnant outside marriage is not easy.

"Think mature mature Nia. As long as we're the only ones who know you'd better act quickly."