Love, take my side
The Guilt that Tortures

"Why you, baby?" adelia asked after Evan got home. Indra's handprints are still clearly visible in bluish black on Evan's cheeks and slightly swollen. Rico who was helping Evan walk towards the house only saw Adelia flat. Don't want to bother Evan and Adelia. Rico finally came home after Evan sat on the living room couch.

"It's okay. Get Aunt Ani, ", Evan replied as he touched his own face. Rass pain was still felt all over his body, especially in the face. Then Evan leaned against the sofa with a face that looked up to the sky of the house. His eyes closed as if he was thinking of something.

"Sir, why is it like this?" aunty Ani asked worriedly after seeing her master's face. The old woman rushed straight to the kitchen to get some cold water to compress Evan's bruised face.

"I can do it myself" said Evan as Adelia wanted to compress his cheek. He took the wet towel out of Adelia's hand. Evan compresses his own face while Adelia notices the movements of the man's heart.

"How was the outcome of today's hearing. Is he begging to cancel your divorce."

Evan looked at Adelia's face before answering the question. She did not tell anything including today's court call to the woman but she asked as if she knew a lot about the divorce suit. Many questions arise in his brain but Evan is lazy to ask because of the pain on his face.

"No. The idea didn't even come" said Evan flat and his hand still stuck the wet towel on his face.

"That's better than him coming. There is no mediation, right?. Hopefully, your next trial will be legally divorced. I can't wait for that moment to come. I want a wedding that's just as festive as your wedding with Anggita first."

Adelia's face sparkled to imagine the marriage that was in sight. In the past, Evan and Anggita weddings were celebrated very luxuriously with many invited guests and the upper class. Adelia also wants her marriage to be like that and wants to show the world that only she is lucky to get Evan's love.

Evan was silent. He focused on compressing his face and did not intend at all to answer the words of his female idol. Right now, his brain is trying to digest about that divorce lawsuit. I was not present at the hearing earlier. And in the previous divorce agreement that Evan sued Angita. But why now it's Angita who sued him.

"Evan, where else to go," asked Adelia annoyed when she saw Evan standing up. Other than that his words received no response. The woman was also upset that Evan looked different. During this one week Evan was busy with his work and there was no time for them. And now in pain. The man did not give himself.

Adelia wants their relationship the same as it was before Evan married Anggita. At that time Evan was very romantic and always pleased his heart by obeying all his desires. Evan treated himself like a queen. Guarding itself like a fragile glass. Adelia missed that time. Adelia also misses Evan's spoiled nature and the warmth of the man.

"To the room" answered Evan briefly. He put his feet back.

"Evan why have you changed?" adelia asked with a very sad face. He was right to realize if Evan's attitude had changed to him. I guess there's no more in this house. Supposedly, Evan can already be romantic for him. He once thought if Anggita left then automatically Evan's attitude will return to the way it used to be.

Evan stopped his steps. Evan did not answer. He is still thinking about the divorce. The more he thinks about divorce and anggita. Evan could increasingly feel his heart not calm down.

"I want to rest Adelia." Evan took his foot back.

"Evan, don't be like this. Look at me."

Evan stopped his steps because Adelia had already hugged herself from behind. He turned his body to look at Adelia.

"Don't ignore me Evan. You know how much I love you. I can wait for me. This is my reply to my patience and love for you" said Adelia sadly and lowered her head. They are now facing a very close distance.

"I've got a lot on Adelia's mind right now. I beg you to understand. Don't add to my burden."

Adelia looked up at Evan's face. He scrutinized the man's face to find out more clearly what made Evan so much of a thought.

"If because of the loss of a fetus, you have a lot of thoughts. I make sure I can keep myself to keep your descendants in my womb. How many children do you want I'm willing to conceive a child We'll have" Adelia said. He was pretty sure that Evan had a lot of thoughts because of that.

Adelia hugged Evan. The woman inhaled the body scent of her puja man. This is the first time they have hugged each other after a year apart due to Evan and Anggita's marriage.

Adelia's getting brave. He stepped on to equalize his body with Evan's body. When the effort is less than the maximum. Adelia removed her right hand from Evan's waist and extended it to Evan's neck. Adelia pulled the man's head closer to his face.

Just a matter of seconds, now the lips of the two humans have stuck together and Adelia who dominates the game. But it was just for a moment. As a normal man of course all the hormones in the body Evan received a good touch of lips for his body. Especially now, Adelia's hands are also getting naughty guerrilla at the bottom of her waist.

Evan is tempted, he ignores the pain on his face to look for the desire of his body that increasingly wants more than the kiss. Evan also ignored the feeling of his heart thinking about the divorce. Now Evan also returned Adelia's touch. As a normal man. This kind of warmth is very powerful to shift the burden of his mind.

Evan pushes Adelia's body with her lips fused to the sofa. Now he dominates the game. Her hands were also actively adventuring in Adelia's body. His lips had also already crept into a forbidden area that he should not be allowed to enjoy.

Adelia cheered inwardly. The woman was getting excited to burn the romance in the body of her beloved man. He wanted more than a touch and a hot kiss like this.

"Take me to the room. I am ready to conceive your child to replace your fallen fetus" whispered Adelia to the ear of the man who was playing a lip around her neck. Adelia was so happy that Evan was getting more and more daring to touch her body.

"Sorry Adel. We can't do it. We're not halal." Now the two men were sitting on the sofa and there was a distance between them.

"Then, quickly banish me dear," said the spoiled Adelia. He approached Evan and attached his body to Evan's body. He felt that what they were doing earlier was a sign that Evan had come back like Evan was.

Evan stood up from his seat then stepped away from Adelia. He did not want to commit the sin and he also did not want to justify Adelia because Evan felt that he was still the husband of Anggita.

"I want to comfort your heart. But I got a rejection," said Adelia, upset and the words could still be heard by Evan, who was climbing the stairs to his room. But the man did not even intend to answer let alone turn his head.

Adelia looked at the man's back irritated. Adelia was unaware that what she was doing had already dropped her pride as a woman. And the woman denied her own desires by finding a reason to do so. Actually, he did that to make Evan helpless before him. Adelia wants a marriage soon. She is afraid that Evan will change his mind about the sweet promise that keeps him in this house now. Adelia realized, if the position of Anggita is stronger than her even though Evan and Anggita are in the divorce process now.

Adelia clenched her hand in anger. To be honest, Evan's refusal made him feel ashamed. He blamed Angita in his heart. He feels that Anggita is the cause of all Evan's changes to him. If only Anggita hadn't married Evan. She could be Evan's wife by now.

"Sir. I won't let you go back to Evan. Any way. Evan is just mine."

Embarrassed and angry, Adelia walked into her room. He keeps thinking about how he can destroy Anggita to get Evan back. Will not be allowed to let the man slip a second time.

Adelia grabbed her own hair for not getting an idea. At my own time like this. Adelia needs a friend to give her an idea. He immediately remembered Anita's mother. But the woman could not be expected anymore. Mama Anita doesn't like her anymore.

"Why should I think about it. There is no reason for them to unite. The fetus is gone. Evan is like this because we are not halal yet" Adelia said in her heart.

Adelia smiled back. Realize if his attempt to get rid of Anggita is almost perfect. He comforted himself by recalling Evan's treatment in the past. Adelia was very sure that the good times would soon come. Just waiting for the sledgehammer Evan and Anggita officially divorced.

In the room, Evan threw his body into the bed. His face that still feels sore reminds him of Indra and all his words.

"It turns out I misjudged you Anggita. What the grandparents said was all true" Evan murmured along with it he felt his heart throbbing in pain. He remembered all his words and attitudes that had hurt Anggita all this time. He did so consciously and now Evan can feel a deep sense of guilt for the woman who is still his wife's legitimate.

He also once doubted the sanctity of Anggita. She once thought Anggita was Martin's grandfather's sugar baby. Dirty women who justify all the ways to live a good life. He rejected the matchmaking because he thought that Anggita forced Martin's grandfather to match him with Anggita. But all of those thoughts were refuted because on the night that she had sex with Anggita. The woman is still holy. He was the first for his wife.

Evan stood up and walked towards the window of his room. He looked outside hoping to see Anggita even if it was just his shadow. The guilt of not being able to apologize to the woman he hurt made Evan unsettled.

"Why am I stupid. Why am I blind. Why am I deaf" said Evan again. He groaned in frustration by rubbing his face rough. Then Evan punches the wall because of his guilt. Not just once. Evan punched the wall three times making the back of his right hand bleed.

The back of his right hand was bleeding but Evan felt his heart ache. He regretted all his attitude but could not fix it. I thought he was gone because of his stupidity.

Evan sat on the edge of his bed. His eyes were fixed on the back of his already swollen hand and bleeding. Evan was well aware that the back of his hand was bleeding from his own actions. Just like his household that was on the verge of divorce because of his own actions.

"Let my wife see you" Evan said on the phone. Now he talks to Rico who is in the rainbow cafe to find the whereabouts of Anggita.

"Friends of your wife named Nia. Don't know where your wife is now, Evan. I checked his phone. Anggita's number has been replaced and Nia does not have a new number" said Evan from across the street to make Evan more frustrated. Actually he wanted to ask Nia directly about Anggita. But because of his face, Rico had to go alone to the rainbow cafe.

"I don't want to know. You have to find my wife before the second trial" Evan said angrily. He wants to meet with Anggita to apologize and correct all the mistakes. Evan is well aware that if Anggita does not come in the second trial will accelerate their divorce. Evan doesn't want that. He wants Anggita to drop the lawsuit. At this time Evan really realized that the woman of choice of the grandfather is a woman who deserves to be his companion.

"Look for you to give the order. Which made him leave. Whom. You right?. You shouldn't just stay silent and give the order to find your wife. Learn to be responsible Evan."

"Basic friends can not be expected. I don't wanna know. This is an order from your boss not a request from a friend. So you have to...."

Evan threw his phone into the bed. He hasn't finished his words yet, Rico has already closed the call.

What was said by Rico earlier made Evan remember all the more clearly every word that made his wife leave. How he treated Anggita in bed and at the dinner table. He ignored all his wife's tender attention. And don't want to know a bit about Angita.

"Sorry," Evan said as he rubbed his rough face. Really he wants to meet Anggita as soon as possible but he does not know much about Anggita that can facilitate his search for Anggita.

Let alone knowing the friend environment of his wife. Evan was rare and never met his mother-in-law. He only met the woman twice, during the proposal and marriage.