Drunk Duda (Ceria Skalane Time)
MD60S. Approaching Ken
“I go home first to mom, Bang. I want to keep my mind.“ I'm not ready to talk much with bang Givan.
“Sleep here aja.“ Bang Givan rubbed my back.
“I miss mom, Bang.“ It's not that I don't want to sleep in his house, it's just that I'm definitely not free to contact Ken bang.
I demand an explanation from him.
“Ya already gih, Maghrib hunt later.“
I immediately stood up. “Yes, Bang. Sayin mbak Canda, I went home to mom.“ I stepped out of his house.
I felt my sister-in-law's eyes watching me intensely. But I was afraid to look back to make sure.
Arriving at my mother's house, I pretended to be as cheerful as ever. I'm joking and a little bit of a little sewot with mom. That's how we are, we rarely get along. Sure, there was something that ended up making us a little fuss.
I'm getting nervous, because Ken's bang is hard to contact. Don't tell me, he ran away after getting what he wanted. Well, I'm a nethink like this.
“Mothers in Cala, Ndhuk. Your brother-in-law said that last day, that he had a job tonight. So, I slept there to wake up mbakmu.“ I brought a tote bag from my room.
“Yes, Mom. I also want to go out for food, but sleep here for me.“ I have other plans to eat this. I can't possibly sleep, with my chaotic state of mind.
“Ati-ati yet, Ndhuk. Don't night-night.“ Mom's going down the stairs.
“Iya, Mum.“ I turned my eyes to the television.
After I heard the sound of the door being closed by mother, I directly touched the call icon on Ken's bang phone contact. But what happened? Five times I did, I didn't get an answer from him.
I guess I really need to get there. I mean, approaching Ken's bang at Sukma's umi house. But, disturbing people home is not it later? But, if it keeps waiting for him to contact me, there I really don't sleep tonight.
Finally, you decided to prepare to come to his house. I need an explanation from her, because her words are something that worries me about her abandonment.
After making sure the shophouse was locked, I immediately stepped towards my destination, which is Ken's bang house. To my knowledge, Ahya lived there. Her husband and son come home to her at night.
Pretty boring, when I got to the porch of the house bang Ken. So quiet, did everyone sleep off Isya?
“Ahya...“ I got around to the side door, because I didn't hear the word from anyone.
“Open, Dek.“
Oh, that's Sukma's umi voice. I immediately opened the side door, seen Umi Sukma sitting on the sofa watching television. He looked serious watching the show.
“What's the first, Umi?“ ask pleasantries.
“Again view soap operas. Ahya's at her in-laws' house, Dek. Her in-laws are sick.“ Umi Sukma turned towards me.
Well, I forgot to bring Flowers to be used as the reason for my arrival.
“Bang Ken exists, Mi?“ I sat down next to him after closing the door again.
“There, in his room. Go up if you want there to be a need, Deck. Umi can't go up and down stairs, her knee pain.“ He laughed embarrassedly. Umi Sukma is the same age as Adi papah, his age is about sixty years like it.
“Yes, go all the way up. There was a sound of falling objects, whether he fell. Asked from below, he said there was nothing.“ Umi Sukma is very focused on watching television. He talked to me, but his eyes were on the television.
“I go upstairs first yes, Mi?“ I pointed at the stairs of this house.
“Iya.“ Umi really did not want to be disturbed from the spectacle.
The door is unlocked, I can go straight into Ken's bang room. He was venting his anger, things were falling apart and scattered.
Bang Ken was sitting on the floor daydreaming without wearing the clothes covering over his body, leaning on a carved cot that was so luxurious.
“Abang....,” call me soft.
“Go home, Dek.“ He spoke softly without looking at me.
“I miss Brother.“ I used to always be with him, while suddenly we were separated because we were still nobody.
He didn't tell me, he kept quiet by breathing in. I got on top of his bed, then lay on the side of the bed late behind him leaning back. I inhaled her distinctive scent, I missed her. I dangled my hand over his shoulder, deliberately feeling the wetness of his sweat with my forearm.
“I love you.“ I said near his ear.
“If you love your brother, you should try to take your brother-in-law's heart.“ Bang Ken did not answer my words.
“Should have been low, because bang Givan was the one.“ Bang Ken felt taller than bang Givan continued.
“Abang her sister, Dek. He should understand the good intentions of Brother, not even fighting that storm. Still lucky Brother wants to marry his sister-in-law, instead of even riding the chin as soon as he.“
Whaties??? Why does his mouth say that?
“Abang promised to marry me! Why's your mouth talking, still lucky you want to marry me??! That's my own promise! This way, you want to hands off. Frankly, if it is not really and do not want responsibility. Frankly, if you really just need a release, do not need our love!“ I was struck by the emotion of hearing his words.
Bang Ken turned his head towards me, his hands outstretched rubbing my head.
“Not style Brother should be begging so, Dek.“ He moved to sit on the edge of the bed that I slept on, I automatically rewind my position so that he could sit near me.
“Terus, style Brother how? Should I get pregnant first???“ I was desperate for my love. How do I bring my fate if it's like this?
“You're not going to get pregnant, Dek. You are calm.“ He covered my body with both hands.
I forgot, he had no intention of having any children with me. If that is the case, there will be a time when he should enjoy results that are not in accordance with his expectations. If this is the case, I have no problem having a child with the nasab come with me. Most importantly, it was his flesh blood. But, if I turn around to beg Ken bang to haunt me. Will my family accept, with me carrying Ken's son without marriage?
But I have sinned a lot because of it. Yes, I can't get it either?
“Abang really does not love me, Bang?“ I framed his face.
It's so sad that it's my life scenario. Do I not deserve happiness? I have sacrificed a lot of myself for my love for her, but even a simple marriage is so difficult for her to make happen for any reason.
What should I do, that he should fulfill his responsibility to marry me? That's his promise, I'm tired of charging him staunchly alone. But, who else would fight for my fate if not myself?
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