I Am Home
I want to go quietly

Pov Anna's

Bad boys tea, sometimes I like to be anxious even annoyed at their absurd behavior, always making troublemakers and noise in the classroom, one morning I could not comment when Dimas and Ardi came to bring a rug and two pillows into class, when I asked the reason, Dimas lightly replied "make us friendly" even though it was finally for me and Dimas to make out, hehe.

The bad boys were more than just friends, I saw it straight away when Dimas was fighting with Noval, at that time I was really angry with Ardi who was holding me back when I wanted to separate them, but after I knew the reason behind Dimas' actions I felt moved, I fell in love for the second time with Dimas.

Oh yes, almost every day I see someone sending gifts for Dimas, flowers, chocolates and some small parcels, I always throw them in the trash, he said, annoyed and proud it feels like my Dimas is now a lot of fans but remains loyal and attentive to me.

Speaking of loyal problems, ahem, many interludes about Dimas who established relationships with students of class X and class XII and amazingly his students are the most beautiful students in every generation, the most beautiful students in every class, I was very jealous at first, but I was finally grateful.

I often fantasize about living happily with Dimas, all as if it was easy to achieve just waiting for time, let alone the promise of Dimas who always makes me blush, Dimas is a person who always keeps his promise, Dimas, special appointment with me don't know too with the promise out there.

All my fantasies suddenly disappeared when the doctor sentenced me to suffer from Leukemia, a very foreign disease in my opinion, the doctor even said if my illness was severe enough, so my survival was only a matter of time.

The doctor sentenced me to stage three leukemia, and it could be worse in the next few months because according to the doctor I was too late to check my condition, I have always been indifferent to myself even though it has been a few months I feel something is not good with the condition of my body.

Destroyed my life, destroyed all my hopes, at first I wanted to give up not wanting to undergo any treatment that could only slow down but could not cure, but the shadow of Dimas always appeared when I was desperate, I became excited to last longer, I survived not to realize all my dreams with Dimas? wasn't! but I held on just to make sure Dimas was happy when I left.

I always hide my illness from others, only my family knows, not because I don't want to be pitied, but I don't want Dimas to know, I'm sure if Dimas knew he'd make me his life's goal, I wouldn't want that, because it could make Dimas more devastated when I left.

I immediately knelt in front of him when Noval spoke to tell Dimas, I cried while pleading, fortunately Noval was devastated he said he would not tell Dimas as long as my condition was fine, huh thankfully.

Once in my mind to make Dimas away from me, I just want Dimas not to feel lost when I leave, even I once expressed my intention to Noval, I asked him to date so Dimas hated me, he said, but Noval's answer made me realize that what I was going to do was wrong.

"Take advantage of the rest of your life to give a beautiful impression instead of leaving a wound, if you can't make her happy at least don't hurt her".

His words make me grateful, I'm even more sure that Dimas will be fine when I leave, because Dimas is surrounded by good people who will always take care of him.

Dimas really likes my hair, I don't know why Dimas is crazy about my hair, that's why I don't want to undergo chemotherapy, because all of that can cause my hair to fall out, especially when I asked if chemotherapy could cure me, the doctor replied, at least there is still a little hope, I finally did not do that, you did, let me live the rest of my life with Dimas' smile every day.

Oh yes related to the relationship of Dimas and two school prima donna I actually know, but I accidentally close my eyes, I just hope Dimas can love one of them so that when I go Dimas not so lost.

"I just want to go quietly, but it can happen if I've seen Dimas happy".

Dimas Mahendra I love you.

Nirvanya Attalia is the woman who loves you very much.