I Am Home
It takes time alone, not motivation

Flashbacks

Namira was crying bitterly with her hands covering her entire face, should the words Dimas had just said made her feel very happy, the invitation to marry from Dimas Namira should reply with a cry of happiness instead of a bitter cry.

Namira was still tegugu in her tears, Dimas was confused by what happened, he could feel if the tears released by Namira were not happy tears, she said, the tears felt more like the tears of a sinner who was asking for forgiveness.

"Mir" said Dimas while holding Namira's shoulder.

"What's wrong?" dimas asked with a million bad feelings coming to his heart, his premonition saying something bad was about to happen.

"Sorry" said Namira in between her tears.

Just an apology coming out of his mouth, just an apology cannot answer all the questions in Dimas' mind, a million words of apology might not be able to heal Dimas' wounds later.

"Sorry?, For?" Dimas was still trying to calm down, although he began to feel troubled.

Nearly 15 minutes into silence, only Namira's sobs were heard, no words could be heard to explain the situation.

"When you cry Mir, speak up I'm ready to hear your answer" Dimas said in a tone that began to show despair.

"Sorry I can't grant your request, forgive me for once again hurting your heart Dim" Tears came out profusely from Namira's two beautiful eyeballs, no more sparkling faces and warm smiles at this time.

"Why?" dimas asked with a pushy look "Why did you reject me?, why did you reject the thing that would complement our happiness Mir?"

Namira shook his head, his tongue as if he could not explain anything to Dimas at this time, he realized he was so evil to Dimas who returned to give sincerity after he left lara very deep in Dimas' heart, even when the pain had not healed completely Namira again added to the wound inside.

"Is there anyone else who makes you comfortable?"

Namira nodded.

"Is the sense of comfort greater than the sense I give?"

Namira nodded back.

"Did he love you more than me?"

Namira fell silent, she then spread her shoulders.

"I don't know" she said "But there's only her name right now in my heart".

Dimas took a deep breath, he was trying to pull out one by one the thorns that were piercing in his heart after hearing Namira's words.

"Is there no more chance for us to convince each other Mir? for me to struggle to write my name back in your heart?" that request was supposed to be a blow to Namira's betrayal.

Namira shook her head "He proposed to me tonight.

"You received it?"

Namira nodded.

Dimas was silent, shattered was his hope, destroyed all his dreams, why should Namira who returned to destroy him, why should Namira who gave the same pain for the second time.

"Is he Leo?" dimas asked, Namira just silently did not answer Dimas's question, without Namira the real answer Dimas already knew who the man who managed to win Namira's heart, anxiety and gloom Dimas so far finally proved, finally, the comfort provided by Leo managed to ensnare Namira and make him dependent on it.

"Maybe my heart is too strong that I can't feel the pain you've given Mir, or maybe my heart has died from being too sick to accept your treatment" Dimas said with a faint smile, his eyes looked straight ahead.

"Why do you have to come when my life is fine without you Mir? why do you have to beg when I no longer give you a chance? why mir? why!!" Dimas loudly in a loud voice, he was not giving a feeling of disappointment, but Dimas was cursing himself, Dimas was condemning his own stupidity.

"I shouldn't have opened my heart to you anymore, I shouldn't have cared about your tears back then, I shouldn't have cared about your fucking plea" Dimas said.

"Sorry" said Namira "I'm sorry Dim, although I know your apologies are not worthy of me, but at least I'm sorry" Namira asked sincerely.

"Come out, let's just say we've never known each other before" Dimas said without seeing his interlocutor.

"Can't we be best friends after this?" asked Namira with a hopeful look.

Wetted for long enough with a loud voice, Dimas was wide open making Namira feel a little scared.

"After everything you do so easily you apologize and ask for good friends" Dimas turned his body around to face Namira.

"Follow your head and look me in the eye" Dimas said in a stern voice, Namira raised her head slowly and looked into Dimas' eyes.

"Don't expect even in your shadow never to dream it's going to happen".

Namira stared at the words of the circus Dimas.

"That's what your sister said first when I apologized to her, and asked her to come to terms with the circumstances, when I told her our relationship" cynically Dimas was in the company with a smirk on his lips.

"Come out Mir, live our lives still, never remember me again, pretend not to know me when we accidentally meet even in a second life or in a parallel world" hatch Dimas.

"You hate me?"

Dimas put his shoulder "Right now" he said "Not knowing tomorrow or the day after tomorrow" he replied.

Namira opens the car door, she briefly looks at someone who once had her life a while ago, someone who was once an important part in every breath.

"I hope you're happy without me Dim" Namira gets out of Dimas' car.

"I was even happy before you came and gave this damn pain" Dimas said in his heart with a fixed gaze on Namira's back as he walked away from his life.

Dimas was still silent in solitude, his heart was so sick that Dimas could no longer feel the pain, his phone rang indicating an incoming call, Ardi's name visible on his phone screen.

"Where's men?" ask Ardi after the call is connected.

"Why?" answer Dimas.

"Don't answer questions with men's questions" Ardi said.

"Gue again males joking men, just get to the point"

Huhhhhh.... Dimas could clearly hear Ardi breathing.

"Lo strongin lo men, I have bad news"

"What?" tanya Dimas, even though she actually already had an inkling of what Ardi wanted to talk about.

"Namira and Leo.."

"Gue already knows" cut Dimas.

"Lo where I'm going now"

"Right now I need some time alone men is not just a word of motivation"

Dimas immediately disconnected the phone connection, he turned off his phone and then he threw it back, he really needed time to brew and rearrange his heart.

Flashback.....